I feel so very very shit
I have been on the internet for four fucking hours doing absolutely fucking nothing
I could have read a fucking book in all this time. So why the hell do I stay?
What keeps me here?
It's just a wait. A wait a wait a wast a waste a waiste a waste of time.
ruining my posture curling in to a deformed freak with spinal issues and dead pale skin and ugh fuck
sick of it sick of it I don't know what I want any more, I don't think I ever did, I'm so confused and annoyed and I go from being magnificently, wildly happy and ecstatic and overjoyed to miserable and confused and helpless and hopeless and angry and tired and swearing too much.
I can't seem to stay happy for long.
Things make me happy, I am happy for a little while but then I just sink back in to this misery and pessimism and baww baww my life is so hard because I have nothing to do, baww baww I have a roof over my head and an internet connection and food to eat my life is so fucking difficult god I want to just kill myself because my life is so fucking hard you know, I have so many fucking problems you know?
fuck it.
I DON'T UNDERSTAND. This mindset here, this mood, this is a night time thing, it arrives at night and stays and I am just in this black mood, hating everything, fucking miserable and not knowing why, then by the next day I'm fine and it's like this part of me that gets so bleak is a detached part of my mind, ugh.
I do not see how someone could be happy all the time. And I do not feel like I am a person who has issues. There are people who quite distinctly are depressed, have issues, and what the hell am I? I feel like I need some sort of sticker slapped to my forehead for me to be able to know if there's something wrong with me. Like "HELP ME HELP ME! LABEL ME DIAGNOSE ME I WANT TO BE A SPECIAL PERSON! LAVISH ME WITH ATTENTION BECAUSE I'M SO MESSED UP!"
There's nothing fucking wrong with me apart from the fact that I fucking hate myself and I am worthless and inadequate and useless and ugh ugh what the hell what does any of this mean it doesn't mean ANYTHING because once I have slept it is GONE until the next night. This self-loathing. What the fuck is it? It's the manifestation of loneliness and isolation and misery and fear and insecurity all mashed in to one with the catalyst of boredom and a dull dull life and a stupid dull brain that cannot think of anything interesting to do because it's so fucking fixated with a few particular things.
you should not take heed to any of this, I don't think, well I don't know. Someone said to me that maybe it is valid. If it keeps happening. Maybe she is right I don't know. She also says that I look sheepish a lot of the time and dammit that is true too.
Also; I'm not making any sense. Also; no one really reads this blog that much but um I guess that's why it's good. It's just good to vent and it doesn't really matter if people see it or not. It's practically incoherent anyway.
I very much dislike not knowing what I feel. I question my every emotion and my every thought. What does it mean? Do I really feel that way? Am I really miserable/depressed, or do I just need to sleep? Is it love, or toxic radiation? (It's both, but who cares.)
So I drown my thoughts in internet bullshit to while away the hours and I just fucking sit here vegetating and dying and wishing there was something I could do and when I'm here by myself there's fucking nothing to live for, it's when I am out doing stuff that there are things. Actually I don't have to do anything I just have to be away from here.
I don't know what any of this means it's all shit.
I need some sort of direction or guidance because I'm totally useless at running my own life. Other people have already got it down fucking fine by my age because they're mature, responsible, intelligent, empathetic kind people but I'm just a piece of shit.
I am a contradiction. In those stupid online personality quiz things, that say stuff like "tick true or false: I prefer to spend time alone" or "I am happiest as the centre of attention at a party", I always go to "I prefer to spend time alone."
Well actually, I have come to learn that I really fucking don't.
I'd prefer to be alone than with a bunch of annoying people that I do not get along with, but it is my friends that keep me fucking sane, or insane, or somewhat stable, I don't know.
I don't want to be the centre of fucking attention but shit I just want someone to talk to.
LOOK AT HOW FUCKING ELOQUENT I AM. I SWEAR ALL THE FUCKING TIME. WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN.
I disgust myself I am miserable I am useless I wish I could believe people when they tell me I am a good person or not inadequate I wish I could
basically: I am a stupid teenager with emotions, news at e-fucking-leven.
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Thursday, December 23, 2010
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
the world had a short-lived infatuation with blogspot.
All the blogs I follow haven't been updated for a year. =\
I think it's because it's a bit isolated, really. There really isn't much of a sense of community at all. I think that may be important?
Anyway, I'm desperately bored. So I am writing on this because I have no one to talk to.
Why is no one on skype? Actually no one.
I mean, I don't honestly care about the fact that there is no one because I cannot talk to anyone, I mean I care because I only want to talk to one person and I haven't talked to her in about a week. Probably over a week. And she isn't online. And since the start of holidays I keep just staying on the internet whiling away the hours in a bored stupor and she never comes online and I have had Beatles songs stuck in my head for about three days straight. Incessantly. Just all these different songs changing but never leaving. And she's the only person I talk to on skype and the only reason I keep skype open pretty much perpetually.
And I dyed my hair red. It's cool.
I need social interaction with my friends okay
I'm going insane, also.
I'm turning in to Niles Crane. Well actually I already have. Hmm.
fucking hell fucking hell fucking hell.
The most tiny things can drive me insane! I don't mean that in a negative way; it's just something I've learned. It doesn't take much to put me in a complete state of delirious delight.
I mean. It takes next to NOTHING. The tiniest, most miniscule thing and I'll be a mess. Complete mess all over the place. Total nutter. Utterly hopeless.
It has been eight months. Of not knowing. And of confusion. And of over-analysing and trying to look at things in a non-biased, non-judgemental, totally neutral point of view, which is of course completely hopeless because I am in no way non-biased or non-judgemental, my judgement is clouded completely by my own delusions and thoughts and obsessions etc.
God help me.
Seriously. HELP ME. I'M A MESS. A TOTAL UTTER WRECK THAT KEEPS DYING AND MELTING AND EXPLODING AND GRINNING AND DYING AGAIN AND OH GOD HELP ME. HELP ME.
THROW ME A FUCKING BONE, HERE! I CANNOT TAKE ANYTHING AS EVIDENCE, THIS IS UTTERLY VITAL. I NEED SOMETHING REALLY FUCKING OBVIOUS BEFORE I WILL LET MYSELF THINK, THINK AT ALL THAT THERE MIGHT BE A CHANCE OF SUCH A THING HAPPENING.
THOUGH I DOUBT IT. I really fucking do. I'm so completely utterly incomparably inadequate.
and I want to say just as much, I want to say everything, but I refuse to because I believe that even the slightest hint will be too obvious.
Though, honestly? At this point in time? I think it's probably pretty fucking obvious, the way I've been behaving. (Ie like a completely infatuated idiot.)
And yet.
What happens if I'm wrong.
Then I'm just really fucking screwed because there's no way this can be anything other than disastrous.
I just wish I knew. I don't want much, really. I just. I just. I just.
I mean, god, if I'm not wrong, then I will look like a massive creep of an obsessive lunatic.
Hmm. Hmmrightwell. Hmm hmm hmmmmmmmmm.
What in the everloving name of fuck should I do?
I think it's because it's a bit isolated, really. There really isn't much of a sense of community at all. I think that may be important?
Anyway, I'm desperately bored. So I am writing on this because I have no one to talk to.
Why is no one on skype? Actually no one.
I mean, I don't honestly care about the fact that there is no one because I cannot talk to anyone, I mean I care because I only want to talk to one person and I haven't talked to her in about a week. Probably over a week. And she isn't online. And since the start of holidays I keep just staying on the internet whiling away the hours in a bored stupor and she never comes online and I have had Beatles songs stuck in my head for about three days straight. Incessantly. Just all these different songs changing but never leaving. And she's the only person I talk to on skype and the only reason I keep skype open pretty much perpetually.
And I dyed my hair red. It's cool.
I need social interaction with my friends okay
I'm going insane, also.
I'm turning in to Niles Crane. Well actually I already have. Hmm.
fucking hell fucking hell fucking hell.
The most tiny things can drive me insane! I don't mean that in a negative way; it's just something I've learned. It doesn't take much to put me in a complete state of delirious delight.
I mean. It takes next to NOTHING. The tiniest, most miniscule thing and I'll be a mess. Complete mess all over the place. Total nutter. Utterly hopeless.
It has been eight months. Of not knowing. And of confusion. And of over-analysing and trying to look at things in a non-biased, non-judgemental, totally neutral point of view, which is of course completely hopeless because I am in no way non-biased or non-judgemental, my judgement is clouded completely by my own delusions and thoughts and obsessions etc.
God help me.
Seriously. HELP ME. I'M A MESS. A TOTAL UTTER WRECK THAT KEEPS DYING AND MELTING AND EXPLODING AND GRINNING AND DYING AGAIN AND OH GOD HELP ME. HELP ME.
THROW ME A FUCKING BONE, HERE! I CANNOT TAKE ANYTHING AS EVIDENCE, THIS IS UTTERLY VITAL. I NEED SOMETHING REALLY FUCKING OBVIOUS BEFORE I WILL LET MYSELF THINK, THINK AT ALL THAT THERE MIGHT BE A CHANCE OF SUCH A THING HAPPENING.
THOUGH I DOUBT IT. I really fucking do. I'm so completely utterly incomparably inadequate.
and I want to say just as much, I want to say everything, but I refuse to because I believe that even the slightest hint will be too obvious.
Though, honestly? At this point in time? I think it's probably pretty fucking obvious, the way I've been behaving. (Ie like a completely infatuated idiot.)
And yet.
What happens if I'm wrong.
Then I'm just really fucking screwed because there's no way this can be anything other than disastrous.
I just wish I knew. I don't want much, really. I just. I just. I just.
I mean, god, if I'm not wrong, then I will look like a massive creep of an obsessive lunatic.
Hmm. Hmmrightwell. Hmm hmm hmmmmmmmmm.
What in the everloving name of fuck should I do?
Monday, September 20, 2010
you know what
the good thing about this blog is?
that no one reads it.
I could say whatever the hell I wanted here and it would pretty much be okay.
So.
Um.
Basically.
It is really bad to be a person who reads subtext in to everything.
Because it makes you incapable of interacting with other humans in any way shape or form.
oh god.
oh god oh god what is my life.
Honestly this is just bizarre.
This whole year has been bizarre.
I can't.
I'm just a bit freaked out and just a bit delighted and mad with insanity and just a little bit stupid and I wonder what it's like to not sleep for days on end? I mean you can only survive ten days without sleep.
But I mean what if you went three days without sleep
I don't even see how that would be possible.
I just need sleep. I need it like oxygen.
Isn't it weird how a lack of sleep can make you feel? It's so fascinating how important it is.
Because when you don't sleep you are basically screwed. And it particularly makes your mouth feel all funny. and your hair pretty awful. And gives you a general sense of feeling incredibly unhygienic. And your head feels like it's been pounded with a block of cheese. It's really bizarre. And what's more frustrating is that often during the night you wont even feel tired any more. You will feel so tired that you will feel awake again.
This year is indeed a strange thing to behold. I have lost the plot.
And I can measure in hours of lost sleep the development of my insanity through the year.
And.
Perhaps.
Some twisted form of progress.
I don't even know what the fuck that means. But it's interesting to think that in term one holidays my mind was perpetrated and perpetuated by these thoughts. Curious, indeed! And to think I was still in denial then, and yet; still bizarrely intending for madness.
And now here we are in the epitome of madness.
I really rather like it.
and this has been a highly ambiguous post.
that no one reads it.
I could say whatever the hell I wanted here and it would pretty much be okay.
So.
Um.
Basically.
It is really bad to be a person who reads subtext in to everything.
Because it makes you incapable of interacting with other humans in any way shape or form.
oh god.
oh god oh god what is my life.
Honestly this is just bizarre.
This whole year has been bizarre.
I can't.
I'm just a bit freaked out and just a bit delighted and mad with insanity and just a little bit stupid and I wonder what it's like to not sleep for days on end? I mean you can only survive ten days without sleep.
But I mean what if you went three days without sleep
I don't even see how that would be possible.
I just need sleep. I need it like oxygen.
Isn't it weird how a lack of sleep can make you feel? It's so fascinating how important it is.
Because when you don't sleep you are basically screwed. And it particularly makes your mouth feel all funny. and your hair pretty awful. And gives you a general sense of feeling incredibly unhygienic. And your head feels like it's been pounded with a block of cheese. It's really bizarre. And what's more frustrating is that often during the night you wont even feel tired any more. You will feel so tired that you will feel awake again.
This year is indeed a strange thing to behold. I have lost the plot.
And I can measure in hours of lost sleep the development of my insanity through the year.
And.
Perhaps.
Some twisted form of progress.
I don't even know what the fuck that means. But it's interesting to think that in term one holidays my mind was perpetrated and perpetuated by these thoughts. Curious, indeed! And to think I was still in denial then, and yet; still bizarrely intending for madness.
And now here we are in the epitome of madness.
I really rather like it.
and this has been a highly ambiguous post.
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Dear blogspot,
I like Livejournal more than you.
AGAIN.
I'm fickle on the wind yeah.
GOT ICONS
GOT COLOUR
GOT COMMUNITIES
GOT FIC
YOU GOT WORDS
AND QUIET UNASSUMING FASCINATIONS.
And if you ever see a journal hanging around that might belong to me... it's not me.
Plz to not be blackmailing/reading/assuming.
CEASE AND DESIST.
Don't listen to a word she says.
I'll write what I like.
AGAIN.
I'm fickle on the wind yeah.
GOT ICONS
GOT COLOUR
GOT COMMUNITIES
GOT FIC
YOU GOT WORDS
AND QUIET UNASSUMING FASCINATIONS.
And if you ever see a journal hanging around that might belong to me... it's not me.
Plz to not be blackmailing/reading/assuming.
CEASE AND DESIST.
Don't listen to a word she says.
I'll write what I like.
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Shine on you crazy diamond
I am listening to that at the moment! Whee, Wish You Were Here is made of win.
WELCOME MY SON
WELCOME TO THE MACHINE
COME IN HERE DEAR BOY, HAVE A CIGAR, YOU'RE GONNA GO FAR
WE'RE JUST TWO LOST SOULS SWIMMING IN A FISH BOWL YEAR AFTER YEAR
RUNNING OVER THE SAME OLD GROUND AND HOW WE FOUND THE SAME OLD FEARS
WISH YOU WERE HERE
erm, yeah.
I am thinking that Absolution is maybe my favourite Muse album? I just feel weird singling one out, because I love them all and it's like "OMG YOU DON'T LOVE US OTHER ALBUMS BAWWWWWWWW" which is totally not the case. But there's something about Absolution.
(Be forewarned: This post is just me rambling in over-excessive, totally biased detail about a whole bunch of Muse songs. Yeah. I don't know.)
Muse always end their albums with the most epic of songs.
Showbiz: Hate This And I'll Love You. Supreme angst, quiet piano/shouty guitar, and crickets in the background. There's something sinisterly sad about it. I mean, it has the line "I was born to destroy you." Right, okay. An angsty end to an epically angsty album. Yay Showbiz!
Origin Of Symmetry:Megalo-freakin'-mania. Also known as Epic Win. Played on a goddamn organ. Starts out quiet and sinister, with these very dark lyrics. Then it explodes. And has epic backing vocals and angsty cello. Then, as it gets to the end- well, it just sounds like something you would have playing when someone is just spiraling out of control. Spiraling is the word, because the organ is swirling in evil arpeggios and you can just see that this is when your mind breaks and everything you know is crashing down around you and you've just lost the plot. And then when you think the song is over, it gives one final, huge blast on the organ. Basically: EPIC.
Remember when you were young? You shone like the sun. SHINE ON YOU CRAZY DIAAAAMOND!
Okay lyrical interlude over.
Absolution: Ruled By Freakin' Secrecy. Holy crapsticks, another dark and eerie song to end the album. Starts off very quiet, and when the drums come in you can hear every shift and rattle of snare drum and the shudder of the bass drum. The most paranoid lyrics ever. The song is about a guy who snaps and kills everyone at his work. Nice. So the song is pretty quiet, the lyrics and vocals soft and despairing- there's a slight pause. And then it explodes in epic piano chords. EXPLODES, I say. The vocals screaaaaaaaaaaam and the piano explodes and the drums smash and the bass rattles and then it goes quiet again, fading away with a barely audible heartbeat and the whine of that effecty thing, in which you think the sound is shifting downwards but never actually does. Uh, there's a name for it- hang on, ah it's called a Shepard Tone.
Black Holes And Revelations: Knights. Of. Cydonia. For once the album doesn't end on a doom and gloom note. It ends on a WHAT THE HELL AWW YEAH IMMA FIRIN MAH LAZERZ YEEEEHAW SPACE ALIEN ROBOT NINJAS GO!!!!! explosion. Just hearing the first wavering shimmers of horses galloping and lazerz set to stuntastic and I go all "OMG OMG OMG THIS SONG IS SO EPIC OMG" and that's before the music actually starts. And then it starts. And. Well. The best drumbeat ever, honest to god. And epic riffage. And just... just...epic everything. And using the Rickenbacker bass and and asdfhadfoghagoiahsg that's it. Just...yes. Of course to compensate for not ending on a dramatic note, the opening song is Take A Bow and holy crap yes. Soooo good!
The Resistance: Ends with the Piece De Resistance, (hurrhurr I maded a pun) the three-part Exogenesis. About the human race having to go out in space and find a new world to live because the current one has been destroyed. Aww yeah. The first part channels some sort of evil version of Ave Maria combined with Matt's version of opera singing (seriously) and evil minor arpeggios, whoo (just deal with my attempts at being knowledgeable about music, okay) and has crazy tremolo guitar wailing and Matt being all existential in his lyrics "who are we why are we who are we why why why?" etc. Haha. Indeed, Matt.
Part 2 is dramatic piano for a bit, before chilling out slightly, then exploding with win again. (YOU MUST RESCUE US ALL!!!) This is our laaaaaast chaaaaaaance etc.
part 3 is the most mellow and starts really soft and tentative and sad before getting a bit more upbeat. It's like the hopeful part of the song.
WELL. SO YEAH. THAT'S... THAT'S ABOUT IT.
Well the point I was trying to make, was...dolphins. No. It was- that Muse end their albums with the most intensely epic songs ever. And well they fill them with epic songs too, but- I- I don't know. I just felt like talking about Muse. *shrug*
Ffffffffffffffff I love Have A Cigar. WELL I'VE ALWAYS HAD A DEEP RESPECT AND I MEAN THAT MOST SINCERELY. THE BAND IS JUST FANTASTIC, THAT IS REALLY WHAT I THINK- OH BY THE WAY, WHICH ONE'S PINK?
WE'RE SO HAPPY WE CAN HARDLY COUNT! (aaah I love that line.)
OKAY. I'M DONE talking about Muse and quoting Pink Floyd lyrics for no other reason than I'm listening to it right now.
Man talk about a pointless post. XD
WELCOME MY SON
WELCOME TO THE MACHINE
COME IN HERE DEAR BOY, HAVE A CIGAR, YOU'RE GONNA GO FAR
WE'RE JUST TWO LOST SOULS SWIMMING IN A FISH BOWL YEAR AFTER YEAR
RUNNING OVER THE SAME OLD GROUND AND HOW WE FOUND THE SAME OLD FEARS
WISH YOU WERE HERE
erm, yeah.
I am thinking that Absolution is maybe my favourite Muse album? I just feel weird singling one out, because I love them all and it's like "OMG YOU DON'T LOVE US OTHER ALBUMS BAWWWWWWWW" which is totally not the case. But there's something about Absolution.
(Be forewarned: This post is just me rambling in over-excessive, totally biased detail about a whole bunch of Muse songs. Yeah. I don't know.)
Muse always end their albums with the most epic of songs.
Showbiz: Hate This And I'll Love You. Supreme angst, quiet piano/shouty guitar, and crickets in the background. There's something sinisterly sad about it. I mean, it has the line "I was born to destroy you." Right, okay. An angsty end to an epically angsty album. Yay Showbiz!
Origin Of Symmetry:Megalo-freakin'-mania. Also known as Epic Win. Played on a goddamn organ. Starts out quiet and sinister, with these very dark lyrics. Then it explodes. And has epic backing vocals and angsty cello. Then, as it gets to the end- well, it just sounds like something you would have playing when someone is just spiraling out of control. Spiraling is the word, because the organ is swirling in evil arpeggios and you can just see that this is when your mind breaks and everything you know is crashing down around you and you've just lost the plot. And then when you think the song is over, it gives one final, huge blast on the organ. Basically: EPIC.
Remember when you were young? You shone like the sun. SHINE ON YOU CRAZY DIAAAAMOND!
Okay lyrical interlude over.
Absolution: Ruled By Freakin' Secrecy. Holy crapsticks, another dark and eerie song to end the album. Starts off very quiet, and when the drums come in you can hear every shift and rattle of snare drum and the shudder of the bass drum. The most paranoid lyrics ever. The song is about a guy who snaps and kills everyone at his work. Nice. So the song is pretty quiet, the lyrics and vocals soft and despairing- there's a slight pause. And then it explodes in epic piano chords. EXPLODES, I say. The vocals screaaaaaaaaaaam and the piano explodes and the drums smash and the bass rattles and then it goes quiet again, fading away with a barely audible heartbeat and the whine of that effecty thing, in which you think the sound is shifting downwards but never actually does. Uh, there's a name for it- hang on, ah it's called a Shepard Tone.
Black Holes And Revelations: Knights. Of. Cydonia. For once the album doesn't end on a doom and gloom note. It ends on a WHAT THE HELL AWW YEAH IMMA FIRIN MAH LAZERZ YEEEEHAW SPACE ALIEN ROBOT NINJAS GO!!!!! explosion. Just hearing the first wavering shimmers of horses galloping and lazerz set to stuntastic and I go all "OMG OMG OMG THIS SONG IS SO EPIC OMG" and that's before the music actually starts. And then it starts. And. Well. The best drumbeat ever, honest to god. And epic riffage. And just... just...epic everything. And using the Rickenbacker bass and and asdfhadfoghagoiahsg that's it. Just...yes. Of course to compensate for not ending on a dramatic note, the opening song is Take A Bow and holy crap yes. Soooo good!
The Resistance: Ends with the Piece De Resistance, (hurrhurr I maded a pun) the three-part Exogenesis. About the human race having to go out in space and find a new world to live because the current one has been destroyed. Aww yeah. The first part channels some sort of evil version of Ave Maria combined with Matt's version of opera singing (seriously) and evil minor arpeggios, whoo (just deal with my attempts at being knowledgeable about music, okay) and has crazy tremolo guitar wailing and Matt being all existential in his lyrics "who are we why are we who are we why why why?" etc. Haha. Indeed, Matt.
Part 2 is dramatic piano for a bit, before chilling out slightly, then exploding with win again. (YOU MUST RESCUE US ALL!!!) This is our laaaaaast chaaaaaaance etc.
part 3 is the most mellow and starts really soft and tentative and sad before getting a bit more upbeat. It's like the hopeful part of the song.
WELL. SO YEAH. THAT'S... THAT'S ABOUT IT.
Well the point I was trying to make, was...dolphins. No. It was- that Muse end their albums with the most intensely epic songs ever. And well they fill them with epic songs too, but- I- I don't know. I just felt like talking about Muse. *shrug*
Ffffffffffffffff I love Have A Cigar. WELL I'VE ALWAYS HAD A DEEP RESPECT AND I MEAN THAT MOST SINCERELY. THE BAND IS JUST FANTASTIC, THAT IS REALLY WHAT I THINK- OH BY THE WAY, WHICH ONE'S PINK?
WE'RE SO HAPPY WE CAN HARDLY COUNT! (aaah I love that line.)
OKAY. I'M DONE talking about Muse and quoting Pink Floyd lyrics for no other reason than I'm listening to it right now.
Man talk about a pointless post. XD
Monday, February 1, 2010
Okay okay so
Sooooooooo I just finished reading all the comments in the fandomsecrets anon meme. OMG IT WAS WONDERFUL. AND I'M SO SAD BECAUSE I DIDN'T GET TO COMMENT ONCE. NOT. A SINGLE. TIME.
*angstangstangst*
And it was so awesome! So so so so awesome. And I COULD have commented before, before all the comments got filled up until you couldn't post any more. But then we left for the day- and my firefox just decided to freeze and tell me that it had to force quit. Fortunately blogger saved some of this blog! Now I have to wait for all my 100+ tabs to finish loading. XD I just had an interesting time listening to a whole bunch of youtube videos playing at the same time. This is what it sounds like: "Thank you Yeoman, that's sufficient. My word, Jane, the garden's looking very homosexual today! I've never been more shocked in all my life! Come on Spock, I know that look. You savage! You savage!! I'm bringing sexyback *yeah~*"
Huh, this is strange, they appear to be repeating now! I'm thoroughly confused.
Hahaha! Anyway. The anon meme was awesome and there must be another one IMMEDIATELY because I just feel depressed about having been unable to post a single comment on this one. *sigh!*
Well! All the tabs have finished loading! That didn't take long, I was under the impression that the internet was very slow lately.
Anyway, yesterday we went to Mangawhai to hang out with the cousins and it was an awesome and great ol' time. The weather was crazy and went from rainy and dismal to sunshiney and glorious! And it was all very spiffing the whole time.
When it was sunshiney we went to the beach, and there was this sort of big sandbar thing further out, and we kayaked over and had a look around, and it was all sunny and great.
Then myself, my brother and one of my cousins spent about half an hour to 45 minutes drifting downwards and then slowly crawling upwards against a rather strong current, before drifting down again. It was fun. And we spent the time talking and laughing hysterically over completely absurd things such as "I ain't no fool 'cause I go to school!" Yeah really. Then we discussed something that had been bothering me a great deal and came to four possible reasons/conclusions:
I have a feeling there was a fifth one, but I can't remember it. Anyway the discussion still proved inconclusive, but was highly amusing and delightful nonetheless.
............................yeah!
Anyway it was a good time and it was all very nice and the moon was really big and bright.
So it's been a good couple of days.
I am happy!
.....and you know, there was something on the anon meme, on page two, that was completely and utterly awesome and epic and amazing.
.....I'm just saying. Page two. Fandomsecrets? Just saying.
...Page two.
And various other pages with other interesting and fascinating ideas.
One of which was a sort of "NEW PERSONAL CANON" thing.
.....I am going to leave now!
*angstangstangst*
And it was so awesome! So so so so awesome. And I COULD have commented before, before all the comments got filled up until you couldn't post any more. But then we left for the day- and my firefox just decided to freeze and tell me that it had to force quit. Fortunately blogger saved some of this blog! Now I have to wait for all my 100+ tabs to finish loading. XD I just had an interesting time listening to a whole bunch of youtube videos playing at the same time. This is what it sounds like: "Thank you Yeoman, that's sufficient. My word, Jane, the garden's looking very homosexual today! I've never been more shocked in all my life! Come on Spock, I know that look. You savage! You savage!! I'm bringing sexyback *yeah~*"
Huh, this is strange, they appear to be repeating now! I'm thoroughly confused.
Hahaha! Anyway. The anon meme was awesome and there must be another one IMMEDIATELY because I just feel depressed about having been unable to post a single comment on this one. *sigh!*
Well! All the tabs have finished loading! That didn't take long, I was under the impression that the internet was very slow lately.
Anyway, yesterday we went to Mangawhai to hang out with the cousins and it was an awesome and great ol' time. The weather was crazy and went from rainy and dismal to sunshiney and glorious! And it was all very spiffing the whole time.
When it was sunshiney we went to the beach, and there was this sort of big sandbar thing further out, and we kayaked over and had a look around, and it was all sunny and great.
Then myself, my brother and one of my cousins spent about half an hour to 45 minutes drifting downwards and then slowly crawling upwards against a rather strong current, before drifting down again. It was fun. And we spent the time talking and laughing hysterically over completely absurd things such as "I ain't no fool 'cause I go to school!" Yeah really. Then we discussed something that had been bothering me a great deal and came to four possible reasons/conclusions:
- He is gay.
- He is Edward Cullen.
- He is Edgar Allen Poe.
- Because The Master ate a turkey.
I have a feeling there was a fifth one, but I can't remember it. Anyway the discussion still proved inconclusive, but was highly amusing and delightful nonetheless.
............................yeah!
Anyway it was a good time and it was all very nice and the moon was really big and bright.
So it's been a good couple of days.
I am happy!
.....and you know, there was something on the anon meme, on page two, that was completely and utterly awesome and epic and amazing.
.....I'm just saying. Page two. Fandomsecrets? Just saying.
...Page two.
And various other pages with other interesting and fascinating ideas.
One of which was a sort of "NEW PERSONAL CANON" thing.
.....I am going to leave now!
What are these things? KEEP RUNNING!
Okay so on fandomsecrets today there was a secret about some random 30 second video and someone linked to it and I don't even know what it's about (left for dead, apparently) and I'm just listening to it on repeat over and over and over again because it repeats automatically, and it's just... hypnotic. It's completely stupid and I DON'T UNDERSTAND IT and I think I'm probably going to go insane soon but I just can't stop listening to it. I mean when I stopped listening to it before, I kind of went..."oh. It's quiet. What now?"
So um. That's what I'm doing today, other than going through these friending and anon memes and feeling annoyed that I was late to the party which I always am *sigh!*
And also here is the video of complete strangeness that I don't understand at all:http://unomastiempo.deviantart.com/art/coach-the-movie-147404325
Um. So yeah.
One man cheeseburger apocalypse.
So um. That's what I'm doing today, other than going through these friending and anon memes and feeling annoyed that I was late to the party which I always am *sigh!*
And also here is the video of complete strangeness that I don't understand at all:http://unomastiempo.deviantart.com/art/coach-the-movie-147404325
Um. So yeah.
One man cheeseburger apocalypse.
Friday, January 29, 2010
It's not you, it's me!
So hey Blogger.
We need to talk.
There's...someone else. No, they're an old friend of mine. Yeah, you might have heard me talk about them- yes, I know I said they were stupid and lame and that you were better, but... lately, I'm not so sure.
It's just... I need something more, you know? I need to know that it's long-lasting. I want this to work. Really, I do. I'm willing to work on it as long as you are. But you know... I have known Livejournal for a lot longer than I've known you. There's something comforting about them. No, I'm not cheating on you, okay?! I did basically abandon LJ for you, so you could at least be a little grateful!
I just have a different dynamic with LJ, okay? And a different dynamic with you, too. I just want to be able to spend an equal amount of time with both of you. I know you two probably wont ever get along, but hey. You will just have to DEAL WITH IT.
*cough*
anyway! Do I have anything else to say right now? No, because the computer is going to be taken away in approx. 2 minutes.
......YESTERDAY I- SORRY, WE- GOT A RECORD PLAYER. IT'S GREEN.
ADFASGHAOGIFHADFKLHJADOFHIAHIH!!!!!
THAT IS ALL
We need to talk.
There's...someone else. No, they're an old friend of mine. Yeah, you might have heard me talk about them- yes, I know I said they were stupid and lame and that you were better, but... lately, I'm not so sure.
It's just... I need something more, you know? I need to know that it's long-lasting. I want this to work. Really, I do. I'm willing to work on it as long as you are. But you know... I have known Livejournal for a lot longer than I've known you. There's something comforting about them. No, I'm not cheating on you, okay?! I did basically abandon LJ for you, so you could at least be a little grateful!
I just have a different dynamic with LJ, okay? And a different dynamic with you, too. I just want to be able to spend an equal amount of time with both of you. I know you two probably wont ever get along, but hey. You will just have to DEAL WITH IT.
*cough*
anyway! Do I have anything else to say right now? No, because the computer is going to be taken away in approx. 2 minutes.
......YESTERDAY I- SORRY, WE- GOT A RECORD PLAYER. IT'S GREEN.
ADFASGHAOGIFHADFKLHJADOFHIAHIH!!!!!
THAT IS ALL
Monday, January 18, 2010
John Paul, you my main man
HELP, I'm still an utterly paranoid lunatic looner nutcase psychopath
okay I'm not a psychopath but I am an utterly paranoid loser. I need someone to slap me,I need a general in the military, to slap me and shout "GET YO ACT TOGETHER, YOU LITTLE MAGGOT!! AIN'T NOBODY CARES ABOUT YOU, OR YOUR PATHETIC LIFE! DROP AND GIVE ME TWENTY!!!"
And then kick me so I fall over while trying to do twenty pushups
...actually I'm not really sure how this will help me get over my paranoia
is there anything you can do to stop being paranoid? It's completely irrational. But I can't heeeeeeeeeeeelp it. Heeeeeeeelp me!
You know, I think I know what helped me to become paranoid. THE SCHOOL. WITH THEIR CLAIMS OF WATCHING YOU WHEN YOU USE YOUR COMPUTER. SPYING ON YOU. ALL. THE DAMN. TIME.
THAT is why I am so paranoid. It's not like I'm looking up "how to blow up your school" on google or anything, I'm just paranoid! Like I said, it IS irrational, so yeah. But I think I can fairly say that's one of the causes for my paranoia. I mean it's not like anyone CARES what I'm doing (irrational, remember) but I can't but help think that I'll go "I TOTALLY think there should be Tony Harrison/Saboo fanfiction" and look it up for the lolz, and someone will be spying on me and go "WTF IS WRONG WITH THIS PERSON, ARREST HER IN THE NAME OF THE LAW!"
Also... I don't think I want Tony Harrison/Saboo fanfiction. That sounds...disturbing as hell, because you know, Tony Harrison is a pink bladder with tentacles. So.
The paranoia only happens when I feel particularly stupid about something, something I feel inherently embarrassed about because god knows why. So it's EVEN MORE STUPID, because I'm not paranoid ALL THE TIME, just some of the time. It's getting ridiculous.
Help meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
A peculiar coincidence happened today (I guess it wasn't reeeeeeeaally a coincidence, but it did strike me as rather peculiar.)
oh, yeah, and the Big Day Out was that thing that happened the other day? Yeah.
The Horrors, you guys! We were right up the front, it was most excellent. Although I didn't actually know any of their songs really, it was still cool, and the crowd was a bit crazy, I was practically falling over a lot of the time.
Anyway, I think I sat down for about, 45 minutes? In the course of the whole day? And it was a long day. And my feet were dead. The day after, I could barely walk. BUT! I have made a full recovery, hurrah hooray.
And of course there was MUSE.
MUSE YOU GUYS
Oh god they were so wonderful. I was in the D area, but quite far to the back, and there were lots of tall people and my vision was rather impaired by their height. Which was sucky and lame, I didn't get to see Chris headbanging like a lunatic, or Matt playing the guitar behind his head in Plug In Baby, or leaning against the amp, or doing a little floor slide, etc, etc.
BUT it was still great and wonderful and delightful, and they played Nishe, I mean wow. I was just listening to that now. XD
And I have ~*~officially~*~ scrobbled Muse 2000 times! I've listened to them more than that, but you know, that proves it's the bare minimum. XD
ANYWAY someone on the Muse boards (actually the guy I got my resistance boxset from, whoo!) said that if they returned it would probably be in November or December. OH PLEASE BE TRUE, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE (let me get what I want)
So yeah, they must return immediately. Ie in twelve months, whatever. So that I can arrive early, and get an excellent spot in the pit of mosh. So I can see everything, and be close to the front yet still able to jump up and down. (The jumping up and down at BDO was aweeeesome. So much fun!)
ANYWAY. I think that's all I have to report for now. I've been all obsessive and internet lurking as usual, and of course I have no one to uh, "squee" with, you know, because of that whole paranoia/embarrassment thing I have going on. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE IT COMES FROM, GUYS. I'M JUST...INHERENTLY EMBARRASSED ABOUT SOME THINGS, AND NOT OTHERS!! WHAT THE HELL?!
Guysssssss help me stop being paranoid, ookay?!?!
Also. My laptop is a pile of crap. It keeps
ELECTROCUTING ME
WHAT THE HELL
THIS IS BOLLOCKS
piece of junk. Stupid dells. Never buy a dell. They're crap okay.
Now, have this super awesome comic by Kate Beaton, who is also awesome. I think you should click on it. Okay.
Also: JAM!
okay I'm not a psychopath but I am an utterly paranoid loser. I need someone to slap me,I need a general in the military, to slap me and shout "GET YO ACT TOGETHER, YOU LITTLE MAGGOT!! AIN'T NOBODY CARES ABOUT YOU, OR YOUR PATHETIC LIFE! DROP AND GIVE ME TWENTY!!!"
And then kick me so I fall over while trying to do twenty pushups
...actually I'm not really sure how this will help me get over my paranoia
is there anything you can do to stop being paranoid? It's completely irrational. But I can't heeeeeeeeeeeelp it. Heeeeeeeelp me!
You know, I think I know what helped me to become paranoid. THE SCHOOL. WITH THEIR CLAIMS OF WATCHING YOU WHEN YOU USE YOUR COMPUTER. SPYING ON YOU. ALL. THE DAMN. TIME.
THAT is why I am so paranoid. It's not like I'm looking up "how to blow up your school" on google or anything, I'm just paranoid! Like I said, it IS irrational, so yeah. But I think I can fairly say that's one of the causes for my paranoia. I mean it's not like anyone CARES what I'm doing (irrational, remember) but I can't but help think that I'll go "I TOTALLY think there should be Tony Harrison/Saboo fanfiction" and look it up for the lolz, and someone will be spying on me and go "WTF IS WRONG WITH THIS PERSON, ARREST HER IN THE NAME OF THE LAW!"
Also... I don't think I want Tony Harrison/Saboo fanfiction. That sounds...disturbing as hell, because you know, Tony Harrison is a pink bladder with tentacles. So.
The paranoia only happens when I feel particularly stupid about something, something I feel inherently embarrassed about because god knows why. So it's EVEN MORE STUPID, because I'm not paranoid ALL THE TIME, just some of the time. It's getting ridiculous.
Help meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
A peculiar coincidence happened today (I guess it wasn't reeeeeeeaally a coincidence, but it did strike me as rather peculiar.)
oh, yeah, and the Big Day Out was that thing that happened the other day? Yeah.
The Horrors, you guys! We were right up the front, it was most excellent. Although I didn't actually know any of their songs really, it was still cool, and the crowd was a bit crazy, I was practically falling over a lot of the time.
Anyway, I think I sat down for about, 45 minutes? In the course of the whole day? And it was a long day. And my feet were dead. The day after, I could barely walk. BUT! I have made a full recovery, hurrah hooray.
And of course there was MUSE.
MUSE YOU GUYS
Oh god they were so wonderful. I was in the D area, but quite far to the back, and there were lots of tall people and my vision was rather impaired by their height. Which was sucky and lame, I didn't get to see Chris headbanging like a lunatic, or Matt playing the guitar behind his head in Plug In Baby, or leaning against the amp, or doing a little floor slide, etc, etc.
BUT it was still great and wonderful and delightful, and they played Nishe, I mean wow. I was just listening to that now. XD
And I have ~*~officially~*~ scrobbled Muse 2000 times! I've listened to them more than that, but you know, that proves it's the bare minimum. XD
ANYWAY someone on the Muse boards (actually the guy I got my resistance boxset from, whoo!) said that if they returned it would probably be in November or December. OH PLEASE BE TRUE, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE (let me get what I want)
So yeah, they must return immediately. Ie in twelve months, whatever. So that I can arrive early, and get an excellent spot in the pit of mosh. So I can see everything, and be close to the front yet still able to jump up and down. (The jumping up and down at BDO was aweeeesome. So much fun!)
ANYWAY. I think that's all I have to report for now. I've been all obsessive and internet lurking as usual, and of course I have no one to uh, "squee" with, you know, because of that whole paranoia/embarrassment thing I have going on. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE IT COMES FROM, GUYS. I'M JUST...INHERENTLY EMBARRASSED ABOUT SOME THINGS, AND NOT OTHERS!! WHAT THE HELL?!
Guysssssss help me stop being paranoid, ookay?!?!
Also. My laptop is a pile of crap. It keeps
ELECTROCUTING ME
WHAT THE HELL
THIS IS BOLLOCKS
piece of junk. Stupid dells. Never buy a dell. They're crap okay.
Now, have this super awesome comic by Kate Beaton, who is also awesome. I think you should click on it. Okay.
Also: JAM!
Friday, December 18, 2009
TEMPERATURE FLUCTUATES VERY QUICKLY
AAAASDGHADFBQEJROPI EGEIHDAFGAE GMERNGYUHDFS HNQERPUG HDF NBBEIGH ADFG
AREGDFUS JBSOEBHNUHG OUAR NAHG MAEHE GAFH BA HEF UEURGAEOHR GMHG RUGOH
OH
MY
GOD
DO YOU KNOW HOW AMAZING THAT WAS
NO
YOU DON'T I'M AFRAID
SWEET ZOMBIE JESUS ON A CRACKER RIDING A BIKE IN HEAVEN AND THEN A HURRICANE MAKES HIM FALL OFF A CLOUD AND LAND ON A RAINBOW COR BLIMEY!!!
SASDHGAHDFHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHADFUGHAEUH
YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW OKAY
THAT WAS FREAKING AMAZING
MY LEGS ARE VERY SORE AND I AM ALL JITTERY AND OH MY GOD AND AND NAD ANDS NASDG WHAT WHAT
BEST NIGHT OF MY LIFE BY FAR, SO FAR PROBABLY EVER OKAY
MM-HMMM TRY BEAT THAT MUSE
BITCHES GOT NOTHING ON THIS
I REALLY HAVE NOTHING MORE TO SAY
YOU WILL HAVE TO WAIT FOR ME TO REGAIN COHERENCY TOMORROW
AOASDHFGHASGIUHAGUHASGOH AOGSIH OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!
ASDHGAIUSGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
EDIT: OH ALSO I FORGOT
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
ASDGHDAOEIRT OQIHBOI YE TWQYRQOUE HBHUBFHFSII
SO GOOD
SO EPIC
EPIC EPIC WIN I TELLS YOU
I WANT TO SEE THEM AGAIN
I AM EUPHORIC
EUPHORIC, I SAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AREGDFUS JBSOEBHNUHG OUAR NAHG MAEHE GAFH BA HEF UEURGAEOHR GMHG RUGOH
OH
MY
GOD
DO YOU KNOW HOW AMAZING THAT WAS
NO
YOU DON'T I'M AFRAID
SWEET ZOMBIE JESUS ON A CRACKER RIDING A BIKE IN HEAVEN AND THEN A HURRICANE MAKES HIM FALL OFF A CLOUD AND LAND ON A RAINBOW COR BLIMEY!!!
SASDHGAHDFHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHADFUGHAEUH
YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW OKAY
THAT WAS FREAKING AMAZING
MY LEGS ARE VERY SORE AND I AM ALL JITTERY AND OH MY GOD AND AND NAD ANDS NASDG WHAT WHAT
BEST NIGHT OF MY LIFE BY FAR, SO FAR PROBABLY EVER OKAY
MM-HMMM TRY BEAT THAT MUSE
BITCHES GOT NOTHING ON THIS
I REALLY HAVE NOTHING MORE TO SAY
YOU WILL HAVE TO WAIT FOR ME TO REGAIN COHERENCY TOMORROW
AOASDHFGHASGIUHAGUHASGOH AOGSIH OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!
ASDHGAIUSGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
EDIT: OH ALSO I FORGOT
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
ASDGHDAOEIRT OQIHBOI YE TWQYRQOUE HBHUBFHFSII
SO GOOD
SO EPIC
EPIC EPIC WIN I TELLS YOU
I WANT TO SEE THEM AGAIN
I AM EUPHORIC
EUPHORIC, I SAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, October 16, 2009
STOP IT
Hi there,
stop being paranoid, there is no one behind you. And if there were I doubt they would be laughing at you for beling "lyk omg a total loser rofl!!!"
srsly though, the paranoia is not leaving, dammit this always happens. And I don't have it all the time it's only when I'm irrationally embarrassed by something. Epic fail!
I have no reason to be paranoid, no reason to be embarrassed by whatever random unexpected obsessions I have, but THIS ALWAYS HAPPENS
I'm just going to go, okay? And not be paranoid. DAMN IT ALL, I'M NOT GOING TO BE PARANOID!
There that's it. Goodbye.
Okay I'm losing my nerve, OKAY OKAY OKAY, FINE, FINE, THERE'S NO ONE THERE.
Aah, I managed to survive. Barely. What the hell is wrong with me I don't even know dammit
stop being paranoid, there is no one behind you. And if there were I doubt they would be laughing at you for beling "lyk omg a total loser rofl!!!"
srsly though, the paranoia is not leaving, dammit this always happens. And I don't have it all the time it's only when I'm irrationally embarrassed by something. Epic fail!
I have no reason to be paranoid, no reason to be embarrassed by whatever random unexpected obsessions I have, but THIS ALWAYS HAPPENS
I'm just going to go, okay? And not be paranoid. DAMN IT ALL, I'M NOT GOING TO BE PARANOID!
There that's it. Goodbye.
Okay I'm losing my nerve, OKAY OKAY OKAY, FINE, FINE, THERE'S NO ONE THERE.
Aah, I managed to survive. Barely. What the hell is wrong with me I don't even know dammit
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Lol Undisclosed Desires
Yay one can insert a text break or a "cut" in lj speak! In the case that you may have many words to say, but they take up a great deal of space. Intrigued readers may CLICK THE CUT and more words will appear! WOW!!!!
Oooh, look, italics and bolds! I didn't notice those before. hi?
Wow! I'm in the compose section, and there's loads of things one can change! YOU CAN MAKE LISTS!!!
lolwut????
anyway. yeah.
here's a text break of despair for you.
Oooh, look, italics and bolds! I didn't notice those before. hi?
Wow! I'm in the compose section, and there's loads of things one can change! YOU CAN MAKE LISTS!!!
- lol hi guys
- baked beans aren't very nice
- so today I had this piano thing
- it went for an hour twenty
- I had a pepsi today
- Matt Bellamy is really good at the piano and it's not fair okay
lolwut????
my name is billy bob and I proclaim that all hamburgers be abolished!
anyway. yeah.
here's a text break of despair for you.
Sunday, August 9, 2009
When life gives you lemons, punch someone in the face.
What.
This is how my brain works: lemons. seven! punching people!
Had an exciting wondrous sleepover of idiocy yesterday at the house of Jordan's which is amazing gorgeous with a view over the beach, Rangitoto and Browns Island, this loft room, it's just amazing. =D
Anyway it was pretty weird, I discovered that for some reason everyone thinks I'm an innocent cute person. Wut
The other day I suggested we make a band, everyone joined and I was promptly not a leading force in the creation of the band so I left. XDD BRB DOIN' SOLO CAREER
You know an impossible genre of music? Punk prog-rock. Punk songs- super fast drumming, yelling fast lyrics and dirnt dirnt bass lines. Prog rock, super long elaborate instrumentals with some word salad lyrics to go along. IT JUST WOULDN'T WORK. XDD
I need to sleep I had four hours sleep and went to bed at five ughhhh what the hell is with life. gtfo.
What did I have to do for guitar? uh... some songs... sure.
WHATEVERS.
asdgjawrevsnfaehptuywupioqwopriyeuorjsdf
asfkhgsfohbgojdbjrthnebnjdfg
gtasgdoghfdm
anyway I want to read fanfic for some weird reason? I don't actually know why, OH WELL I feel like venturing on to ff.net and laughing at all the atrocities... then again... maybe not. I get exceptionally paranoid whenever I go there. I don't know why. Why would I get more paranoid when going to a website? If I'm going to be spied upon, it would be always. so why aren't I paranoid when going to other sites? I'M NOT AT ALL PARANOID. But stick me on ff.net and if I go to the telletubbies section so I can laugh at all the summaries and then press the back button and go cry for my childhood, I'll assume there's someone watching me and thinking I actually WANT to read telletubbies fanfic. Oh dear god no.
For the record I have never been to the telletubbies area and I do not intend to. EVER.
(seriously though, there is a certain area of ff.net that I went to and just laughed until I cried at all the atrocious fic summaries. dear god. I really really want to go back but I don't think I have the willpower to face the badfic. XDD)
Maybe I'll go play the sims 2 instead. Or, you know, do homework. ughhh whatever.
I've sworn off energy drinks 4 EVA ND EVA!!!! If the chance arises for me to buy one, I REFUSE TO. So there. We had good times, but... THEY CHANGED ME. I WENT AGAINST EVERYTHING I USED TO STAND FOR! I BECAME EVERYTHING I HATED. LYK OH MY GOODNESS.
I have to go now before I die?~?!?!!?!?
I have eaten basically pure junk food for the last few days. Pray for Mojo.
This is how my brain works: lemons. seven! punching people!
Had an exciting wondrous sleepover of idiocy yesterday at the house of Jordan's which is amazing gorgeous with a view over the beach, Rangitoto and Browns Island, this loft room, it's just amazing. =D
Anyway it was pretty weird, I discovered that for some reason everyone thinks I'm an innocent cute person. Wut
The other day I suggested we make a band, everyone joined and I was promptly not a leading force in the creation of the band so I left. XDD BRB DOIN' SOLO CAREER
You know an impossible genre of music? Punk prog-rock. Punk songs- super fast drumming, yelling fast lyrics and dirnt dirnt bass lines. Prog rock, super long elaborate instrumentals with some word salad lyrics to go along. IT JUST WOULDN'T WORK. XDD
I need to sleep I had four hours sleep and went to bed at five ughhhh what the hell is with life. gtfo.
What did I have to do for guitar? uh... some songs... sure.
WHATEVERS.
asdgjawrevsnfaehptuywupioqwopriyeuorjsdf
asfkhgsfohbgojdbjrthnebnjdfg
gtasgdoghfdm
anyway I want to read fanfic for some weird reason? I don't actually know why, OH WELL I feel like venturing on to ff.net and laughing at all the atrocities... then again... maybe not. I get exceptionally paranoid whenever I go there. I don't know why. Why would I get more paranoid when going to a website? If I'm going to be spied upon, it would be always. so why aren't I paranoid when going to other sites? I'M NOT AT ALL PARANOID. But stick me on ff.net and if I go to the telletubbies section so I can laugh at all the summaries and then press the back button and go cry for my childhood, I'll assume there's someone watching me and thinking I actually WANT to read telletubbies fanfic. Oh dear god no.
For the record I have never been to the telletubbies area and I do not intend to. EVER.
(seriously though, there is a certain area of ff.net that I went to and just laughed until I cried at all the atrocious fic summaries. dear god. I really really want to go back but I don't think I have the willpower to face the badfic. XDD)
Maybe I'll go play the sims 2 instead. Or, you know, do homework. ughhh whatever.
I've sworn off energy drinks 4 EVA ND EVA!!!! If the chance arises for me to buy one, I REFUSE TO. So there. We had good times, but... THEY CHANGED ME. I WENT AGAINST EVERYTHING I USED TO STAND FOR! I BECAME EVERYTHING I HATED. LYK OH MY GOODNESS.
I have to go now before I die?~?!?!!?!?
I have eaten basically pure junk food for the last few days. Pray for Mojo.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Feelin' fine.
I remember, years ago seeing 2001: A Space Odyssey. I was at maungawhai (I don't know how you spell that, eheh) I think it was easter. Hahah I was just thinking about it today. I didn't see the whole thing but I remembered there was an evil computer who killed people and when they shut it down it sung "daisy, daisy!" WEIRD. I want to watch that movie again it sounds cool. Anyway. I really have to do my speech.
Speech speech! Gotta do that... NOW. NOW. NOW!!!
Muse slash fails. Do you know why? Because they're DOIN' IT RONG.
seriously, it's not some ridiculous "OH DOM I LOVE YOU LET'S RUN AWAY TOGETHER!" "BUT MATT, WHAT WILL CHRIS DO?!" "OH IT'S OKAY, HE HAS TOM!!! LOLOLOL" AND THEY RUN OFF IN TO THE SUNSET AND HAVE ALIEN BABIES.
NO.
Lol I was on the slash comm on el jay and... NO NO NO. I came across a highly traumatic and disturbing chris/tom one, I just uhhh skimmed it before closing it because DO NOT WANT. ahahahahhahahaha seriously. It has to be ridiculous. That's basically it. Think hullabaloo! Set to angsty hyper chondriac music. AHAHAH
WHAT
Anyway. I had another traumatic and highly disturbing dream last night. (I'd had a disturbing dream on either monday or tuesday night.) Yyyyyyyyyyyyeah. it was truly bizarre. And what was odd, was that I woke up and went back to sleep and the dream continued in the same vein. Usually when you go back to sleep you have an entirely different dream. The first part was okay, if not highly odd. It... well I was thinking along with the dream, "yeah, go you! admitting it and all!" but afterwards I figured it was fairly odd. The dream then mutated in to a whole pile of rubbish designed to infuriate and distress me. Without being nightmarish! For the most part. At the last part, I was going oh god please let this be a dream oh god this had better not be real- OH THANK GOD, THIS IS A DREAM! NOW I JUST HAVE TO WAKE UP! and lo and behold I woke up, and lay there for a while feeling severely freaked out.
Today we went in to town. I got a t shirt. I GOT A T SHIRT OF EPIC PROPORTIONS.
EPIC PROPORTIONS. eheheheheeheheh.
Now, I must go search the interweb for info on Scientology so I can write my speech. Eeeeep.
Edit: AW CRAP IT'S 11.30 NOW!!! WHY IS TIME GOING SO FAST?!?? I HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING. GODDD HELP ME
well I only have myself to blame. AARRRGH SCREW YOU, SPEECHES!
Also, screw you, tvtropes! DO YOU KNOW HOW ADDICTING THAT STUPID SITE IS. YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW JUST HOW MUCH IT IS. GODDAMMIT.
Speech speech! Gotta do that... NOW. NOW. NOW!!!
Muse slash fails. Do you know why? Because they're DOIN' IT RONG.
seriously, it's not some ridiculous "OH DOM I LOVE YOU LET'S RUN AWAY TOGETHER!" "BUT MATT, WHAT WILL CHRIS DO?!" "OH IT'S OKAY, HE HAS TOM!!! LOLOLOL" AND THEY RUN OFF IN TO THE SUNSET AND HAVE ALIEN BABIES.
NO.
Lol I was on the slash comm on el jay and... NO NO NO. I came across a highly traumatic and disturbing chris/tom one, I just uhhh skimmed it before closing it because DO NOT WANT. ahahahahhahahaha seriously. It has to be ridiculous. That's basically it. Think hullabaloo! Set to angsty hyper chondriac music. AHAHAH
WHAT
Anyway. I had another traumatic and highly disturbing dream last night. (I'd had a disturbing dream on either monday or tuesday night.) Yyyyyyyyyyyyeah. it was truly bizarre. And what was odd, was that I woke up and went back to sleep and the dream continued in the same vein. Usually when you go back to sleep you have an entirely different dream. The first part was okay, if not highly odd. It... well I was thinking along with the dream, "yeah, go you! admitting it and all!" but afterwards I figured it was fairly odd. The dream then mutated in to a whole pile of rubbish designed to infuriate and distress me. Without being nightmarish! For the most part. At the last part, I was going oh god please let this be a dream oh god this had better not be real- OH THANK GOD, THIS IS A DREAM! NOW I JUST HAVE TO WAKE UP! and lo and behold I woke up, and lay there for a while feeling severely freaked out.
Today we went in to town. I got a t shirt. I GOT A T SHIRT OF EPIC PROPORTIONS.
EPIC PROPORTIONS. eheheheheeheheh.
Now, I must go search the interweb for info on Scientology so I can write my speech. Eeeeep.
Edit: AW CRAP IT'S 11.30 NOW!!! WHY IS TIME GOING SO FAST?!?? I HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING. GODDD HELP ME
well I only have myself to blame. AARRRGH SCREW YOU, SPEECHES!
Also, screw you, tvtropes! DO YOU KNOW HOW ADDICTING THAT STUPID SITE IS. YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW JUST HOW MUCH IT IS. GODDAMMIT.
Friday, June 19, 2009
Well PARDON ME FOR BREATHING!
HAY GUYS WAT UP IN DA HOOD?!!?
OH FRIG THERE'S A WHOLE BUNCH OF RANDOM THINGS I KEEP FORGETTING TO DO ON THE INTERNET LIKE REPLYING TO COMMENTS AND UH WHOOOOOOPS!!!
OOOH FRIG!!!!! NOW ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO COMMENTED TO ME ON VARIOUS SITES WILL BE LIKE "MAAAAN KATE MC SURE IS A HUGE JERK! SHE LIKE NEVER RESPONDS TO COMMENTS. JESUS CHRIST I DON'T LIKE HER ANY MORE. GOODBYE"
ANYWAY.
Guess what guys
I don't know.
So I've been reading HUGE amounts of dinosaur comics and oh my god I love dinosaur comics and oh my god I have totally started THINKING LIKE T-REX and and it's SO AWESOME because T-rex talks in this COMPLETELY RADICAL HYPER WAY but Uhhh I need my own style of speaking which I do, but only now there are WAY MORE RANDOM CAPITALS and EVEN MORE usage of words like AWESOME AND DUDE AND RADICAL. Although I always say those. Look. THE FORMAT IS JUST DIFFERENT AND I DON'T REALLY MIND BECAUSE I FEEL A LOT MORE OPTIMISTIC!!!! WHOOOO!!! PARTY PARTY HARD/I HOLD PARTYING IN FOND REGARD
ANYWAY. What I was going to say was that today, Tash decided that I am the sort of person who should own a nightclub. So now all my friends have decided that I will be the owner of a classy funky nightclub (I have decided it will be dark purple-ish in colour) and my friends will work there and I will apparently have cool jobs like auditioning bands to play and hiring dj's. WHOO HOO RAVE PARTY Y'ALL
Seriously though my nightclub is going to be the GREATEST
I'll be really badass (You may laugh! But I will be badass.)
And then people can go there and be like DUUUDE THE COLOUR SCHEME HERE IS FREAKIN' RADICAL!!!! And purchase liquor drinks. I will also pay the dj more to slip in MUSE SONGS.
Anyway. Here's something: I have started all my paragraphs with the word anyway, this is concerning to me.
Heheheh. Concern.
Soooo!!
I GUESS- hang on a moment, anyway isn't it totally pointless when swear words are censored but they only censor it for a second so you get "I don't give a sheept!" which, basically, sounds like sht with a very quick BEEP in the middle which is basically shit with a beep
which is totally pointless!!! PEOPLE CAN STILL GUESS WHAT THE WORD IS, AND LITTLE CHILDREN WILL BE LIKE: "WOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAH"
Where was I? Oh, yes. Uh. So you know that fictional person who I am obsessed with? Well yeah that's going great. I think the other day I was thinking about the whole weirdness of the deal and I had some interesting things I could say about it but now I don't. OKAY FOR GOD'S SAKE, I'M LEAVING NOW BECAUSE MY SENTENCES ARE SOUNDING REALLY. REALLY MESSED UP
BYE BYE
ALSO: WHAT ARE YOUR FEELINGS, LET US SHARE THEM
ALSO: YOU DO NOT HAVE TO SHARE YOUR FEELINGS
ALSO: YOU SHOULD NOT FEEL OBLIGED TO SHARE
ALSO: WHAT
OH FRIG THERE'S A WHOLE BUNCH OF RANDOM THINGS I KEEP FORGETTING TO DO ON THE INTERNET LIKE REPLYING TO COMMENTS AND UH WHOOOOOOPS!!!
OOOH FRIG!!!!! NOW ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO COMMENTED TO ME ON VARIOUS SITES WILL BE LIKE "MAAAAN KATE MC SURE IS A HUGE JERK! SHE LIKE NEVER RESPONDS TO COMMENTS. JESUS CHRIST I DON'T LIKE HER ANY MORE. GOODBYE"
ANYWAY.
Guess what guys
I don't know.
So I've been reading HUGE amounts of dinosaur comics and oh my god I love dinosaur comics and oh my god I have totally started THINKING LIKE T-REX and and it's SO AWESOME because T-rex talks in this COMPLETELY RADICAL HYPER WAY but Uhhh I need my own style of speaking which I do, but only now there are WAY MORE RANDOM CAPITALS and EVEN MORE usage of words like AWESOME AND DUDE AND RADICAL. Although I always say those. Look. THE FORMAT IS JUST DIFFERENT AND I DON'T REALLY MIND BECAUSE I FEEL A LOT MORE OPTIMISTIC!!!! WHOOOO!!! PARTY PARTY HARD/I HOLD PARTYING IN FOND REGARD
ANYWAY. What I was going to say was that today, Tash decided that I am the sort of person who should own a nightclub. So now all my friends have decided that I will be the owner of a classy funky nightclub (I have decided it will be dark purple-ish in colour) and my friends will work there and I will apparently have cool jobs like auditioning bands to play and hiring dj's. WHOO HOO RAVE PARTY Y'ALL
Seriously though my nightclub is going to be the GREATEST
I'll be really badass (You may laugh! But I will be badass.)
And then people can go there and be like DUUUDE THE COLOUR SCHEME HERE IS FREAKIN' RADICAL!!!! And purchase liquor drinks. I will also pay the dj more to slip in MUSE SONGS.
Anyway. Here's something: I have started all my paragraphs with the word anyway, this is concerning to me.
Heheheh. Concern.
Soooo!!
I GUESS- hang on a moment, anyway isn't it totally pointless when swear words are censored but they only censor it for a second so you get "I don't give a sheept!" which, basically, sounds like sht with a very quick BEEP in the middle which is basically shit with a beep
which is totally pointless!!! PEOPLE CAN STILL GUESS WHAT THE WORD IS, AND LITTLE CHILDREN WILL BE LIKE: "WOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAH"
Where was I? Oh, yes. Uh. So you know that fictional person who I am obsessed with? Well yeah that's going great. I think the other day I was thinking about the whole weirdness of the deal and I had some interesting things I could say about it but now I don't. OKAY FOR GOD'S SAKE, I'M LEAVING NOW BECAUSE MY SENTENCES ARE SOUNDING REALLY. REALLY MESSED UP
BYE BYE
ALSO: WHAT ARE YOUR FEELINGS, LET US SHARE THEM
ALSO: YOU DO NOT HAVE TO SHARE YOUR FEELINGS
ALSO: YOU SHOULD NOT FEEL OBLIGED TO SHARE
ALSO: WHAT
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
What I would like though, is a Spanish peanut
ffffffffffeh.
So you know what's good? I don't have to go to school tomorrow, and as such I can SLEEP IN aaah it's going to be AMAZING. Yay. And well I only have my French exam to go. That should be okay. Not so sure how maths went today. Once again I think I completely messed up the last question on account of my idiotic brain.
Sooo yes. Hahah. Today I was all like "I want a Spanish peanut" and then tash had peanuts and I ATE SOME. So that was a great accomplishment. /sarcasm
still it was fun eating peanuts???
so I made this playlist with 90 songs on it. It takes six hours to listen to. XD I think I'll listen to it without skipping any songs tomorrow. My life: so fascinating.
Anyway after Friday morning I shall be freee for another four days, how spiffing.
I'm sure I had something to talk about...hmm. Oh well.
Weeeeeell I'm just going to go now. I have two rad songs for you today. (OOH, GOODY!)
Southern Girl and Zee Deveel by Incubus. Fun awesome times!
So you know what's good? I don't have to go to school tomorrow, and as such I can SLEEP IN aaah it's going to be AMAZING. Yay. And well I only have my French exam to go. That should be okay. Not so sure how maths went today. Once again I think I completely messed up the last question on account of my idiotic brain.
Sooo yes. Hahah. Today I was all like "I want a Spanish peanut" and then tash had peanuts and I ATE SOME. So that was a great accomplishment. /sarcasm
still it was fun eating peanuts???
so I made this playlist with 90 songs on it. It takes six hours to listen to. XD I think I'll listen to it without skipping any songs tomorrow. My life: so fascinating.
Anyway after Friday morning I shall be freee for another four days, how spiffing.
I'm sure I had something to talk about...hmm. Oh well.
Weeeeeell I'm just going to go now. I have two rad songs for you today. (OOH, GOODY!)
Southern Girl and Zee Deveel by Incubus. Fun awesome times!
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
It's for you
Soo um well I clearly am not good with coffee because I made a mochaccino and instead of putting in one teaspoon I put it two? And now I'm all trembly like. Hahahah wish me luck getting to sleep!!!!!!!!!!
Okay so I've been trying to study for an algebra test tomorrow since 5.30 ish. I mean yeah a lot of the time I was humming out of tune and frowning at my notes but STILL. I mean, The weird thing is I understand algebra? I mean way more than I did last year. It actually is not difficult, but when it comes to solving it I get all messed up like. Hoping to pass!!!! I depends what the questions are and I mean, we had 11 pages of notes. AAARRRGH. >=[ I compressed them in to 5 pages but AARRRGGGHH
afals;djkfawewithaowuwrskjfstktsdfklasdjfgdhag
but UM I HAD FERRERO ROCHERS
and and and
the other day I had a science test
and I got merit which was okay
but but, only three people got excellence for the last question and I was ONE OF THEM. PROUD MOMENT!!! And I didn't even write much. Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
so anyway today was pretty cool.
not really looking forward to tomorrow but WHATEVERSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
Let's just get it over with ehhhh
seriously.... one extra teaspoon of coffee and I'm all like AAEEHEEYYYYEHEHEYYADSF WRGSLGAYGHEAYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm going now.
OH BTW: I WAS ON HOUSEWILSONLOL AND IT WAS TALKING ABOUT ONE OF THE NEW EPS
SO
HOUSE/WILSON: CANON AGAIN
Okay so I've been trying to study for an algebra test tomorrow since 5.30 ish. I mean yeah a lot of the time I was humming out of tune and frowning at my notes but STILL. I mean, The weird thing is I understand algebra? I mean way more than I did last year. It actually is not difficult, but when it comes to solving it I get all messed up like. Hoping to pass!!!! I depends what the questions are and I mean, we had 11 pages of notes. AAARRRGH. >=[ I compressed them in to 5 pages but AARRRGGGHH
afals;djkfawewithaowuwrskjfstktsdfklasdjfgdhag
but UM I HAD FERRERO ROCHERS
and and and
the other day I had a science test
and I got merit which was okay
but but, only three people got excellence for the last question and I was ONE OF THEM. PROUD MOMENT!!! And I didn't even write much. Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
so anyway today was pretty cool.
not really looking forward to tomorrow but WHATEVERSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
Let's just get it over with ehhhh
seriously.... one extra teaspoon of coffee and I'm all like AAEEHEEYYYYEHEHEYYADSF WRGSLGAYGHEAYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm going now.
OH BTW: I WAS ON HOUSEWILSONLOL AND IT WAS TALKING ABOUT ONE OF THE NEW EPS
SO
HOUSE/WILSON: CANON AGAIN
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Garrrrrrrrrr
Okay so school actually doesn't start on Wednesday. It starts on Tuesday.
AARRRRGGHHHH
MAN THAT'S ANNOYING
a whole day of holiday taken away from me.
......oh well.
>=[
soooooooooo yeah.
=|
hahahahaaha
coherency: I do not have it.
Okay this next bit is me just... rambling about guitars and stuff. listing. guitars. completely boring so you don't have to read it XDDDD
Matthew Bellamy's Guitars are the most drool-worthy guitars in the world. If I won the lottery, I would kind of have to buy one. They're around 10,000 New Zealand dollars. They're insane. I love them. I love all of them.
O_________________________O
The Glitterati and The Bomber and the most super uber customised one... that I don't know the name of. Haha it's called The Black Manson. The seven string Jazz Manson, The Seattle Manson and the M1D1 Manson (he smashed it!) Oooh I like the Mirror Manson. GAH SILVER BOMBER is uber shiny. Yes I AM telling you about all the guitars. In incredibly minor detail. Shut up. OOOOH Laser Manson. I've never really seen that one. IDK about the Ali Top one? Kaoss Manson... some of these guitars look pretty similar so Idk. ANYWAY YEAH.
DROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL
OH and that random guitar used in Hoodoo is ridiculously pretty. So yeah. Hahaha the rust relic one is cool. DUDE he has a LOT of guitars... or has had a lot of guitars. Phoar.
He threw one in the sea.
ASFASDFASD THE JT-RES ONE FOR PLUG IN BABY MUSIC VIDEO
is AMAZING
look you can just go now I'm just going to be flailing about these guitars okay. hahahaha. I'm kind of dying here though. These guitars are all EPIC. =D
Hmm, wiki says he threw the guitar in to the sand, not the sea. XD
ahaha fender stratocaster is an awesome name for a guitar
oooh but the Hoodoo guitar is a PRS 513 and it's ridiculously cool
ooooh Londaxe is a strange one
woah what? an eight string bass? O_o
and a ridiculously awesome electric double bass
OKAY I could just ramble some more buuuuuuuuuuuuut I wont
au revoir
AARRRRGGHHHH
MAN THAT'S ANNOYING
a whole day of holiday taken away from me.
......oh well.
>=[
soooooooooo yeah.
=|
hahahahaaha
coherency: I do not have it.
Okay this next bit is me just... rambling about guitars and stuff. listing. guitars. completely boring so you don't have to read it XDDDD
Matthew Bellamy's Guitars are the most drool-worthy guitars in the world. If I won the lottery, I would kind of have to buy one. They're around 10,000 New Zealand dollars. They're insane. I love them. I love all of them.
O_________________________O
The Glitterati and The Bomber and the most super uber customised one... that I don't know the name of. Haha it's called The Black Manson. The seven string Jazz Manson, The Seattle Manson and the M1D1 Manson (he smashed it!) Oooh I like the Mirror Manson. GAH SILVER BOMBER is uber shiny. Yes I AM telling you about all the guitars. In incredibly minor detail. Shut up. OOOOH Laser Manson. I've never really seen that one. IDK about the Ali Top one? Kaoss Manson... some of these guitars look pretty similar so Idk. ANYWAY YEAH.
DROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL
OH and that random guitar used in Hoodoo is ridiculously pretty. So yeah. Hahaha the rust relic one is cool. DUDE he has a LOT of guitars... or has had a lot of guitars. Phoar.
He threw one in the sea.
ASFASDFASD THE JT-RES ONE FOR PLUG IN BABY MUSIC VIDEO
is AMAZING
look you can just go now I'm just going to be flailing about these guitars okay. hahahaha. I'm kind of dying here though. These guitars are all EPIC. =D
Hmm, wiki says he threw the guitar in to the sand, not the sea. XD
ahaha fender stratocaster is an awesome name for a guitar
oooh but the Hoodoo guitar is a PRS 513 and it's ridiculously cool
ooooh Londaxe is a strange one
woah what? an eight string bass? O_o
and a ridiculously awesome electric double bass
OKAY I could just ramble some more buuuuuuuuuuuuut I wont
au revoir
Friday, April 24, 2009
That particular entry is not awash with ambiguity
GAAARRRRRR
OKAY OKAY SO
so I keep seeing around livejournal "that particular entry is not awash with ambiguity" and I thought "that's weird" and AND AND I JUST HEARD IT FROM THE VOICE OF A PERSON AND NOW I DON'T KNOW WHOS EL JAY IT WAS ON AND I'M REALLY CONFUSED?????
because
I SWEAR I SAW IT RECENTLY
AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO HAD IT
AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY THIS IS BOTHERING ME
BUT IT IS/!??!?!?!
I MUST FIND OUT WHO HAS THIS ON THEIR EL JAY
possibly their blogspot BUT I THINK THAT IS ALMOST 100% UNLIKELY
unless it was an icon and in that case it will be relatively difficult to find. BUT WHATSOEVER, HABERDASHERY
I'm just going to leave and sit in a puzzled pile of puzzlement.
IN CONCLUSION: I AM CONFUSED AND ALSO MILDLY BEWILDERED ALSO: WRRFFFFFFASDFASDFASDFSADFASAADSFASFDSADF
oh woah hey, sorry this entry is mostly capslock. CAPSLOCK IS UNDENIABLY AWESOME. IN FACT, AFTER A WHILE OF READING THROUGH CAPSLOCK_HOUSE FOR A LONG TIME, I ENDED UP THINKING IN CAPSLOCK. YEAH, I WAS YELLING IN MY MIND. HARDCORE.
...look, it's just annoying, okay? Jeeeeez stuff like this ALWAYS happens to me. In different ways. But you know. *shrug*
OKAY OKAY SO
so I keep seeing around livejournal "that particular entry is not awash with ambiguity" and I thought "that's weird" and AND AND I JUST HEARD IT FROM THE VOICE OF A PERSON AND NOW I DON'T KNOW WHOS EL JAY IT WAS ON AND I'M REALLY CONFUSED?????
because
I SWEAR I SAW IT RECENTLY
AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO HAD IT
AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY THIS IS BOTHERING ME
BUT IT IS/!??!?!?!
I MUST FIND OUT WHO HAS THIS ON THEIR EL JAY
possibly their blogspot BUT I THINK THAT IS ALMOST 100% UNLIKELY
unless it was an icon and in that case it will be relatively difficult to find. BUT WHATSOEVER, HABERDASHERY
I'm just going to leave and sit in a puzzled pile of puzzlement.
IN CONCLUSION: I AM CONFUSED AND ALSO MILDLY BEWILDERED ALSO: WRRFFFFFFASDFASDFASDFSADFASAADSFASFDSADF
oh woah hey, sorry this entry is mostly capslock. CAPSLOCK IS UNDENIABLY AWESOME. IN FACT, AFTER A WHILE OF READING THROUGH CAPSLOCK_HOUSE FOR A LONG TIME, I ENDED UP THINKING IN CAPSLOCK. YEAH, I WAS YELLING IN MY MIND. HARDCORE.
...look, it's just annoying, okay? Jeeeeez stuff like this ALWAYS happens to me. In different ways. But you know. *shrug*
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Crazy Random Happenstances
Today I saw a sign that said "Smith and Jones". It made me laugh.
I have been browsing the website known as http://www.blogger.com to find other interesting blogs to read, as as such have saved quite a few with a handy device known as "taboo" it's really rather handy. I have also noticed that there are very few 15 year old females from New Zealand with an interest in Doctor Who.
(That is to say, I have come across one, and that one was me.)
Although I suppose that is quite specific, but it could be more specific. You know. New Zealand is small, but not that small. I do in fact know some other 15 year old females from New Zealand with an interest in doctor who but I would like to find some that I don't know. You know? Although there seems to be very few 15 year olds on here anyway. XD
hahah okay. Today my iPod has decided to fail, as in my computer doesn't recognise it. Then again that's probably fault of the laptop considering how sucky it is. YOU SUCK MR SUCKY COMPUTER. I should rename you that. Hopefully that passes y/y
anyway. I started writing this last night, it's now 4.40 the next day. XDD
I am full of random happy yaysquee? although I don't really like the word squee as it is associated with the word fangirl and well, freaky. But despite my dislike of extreme squeeing (it seems like a rather high-pitched profession): SQUEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!
for no particular reason, yay.
Soo holidays are coming to a close, but at least I am safe in the security that I don't have to go back on Monday. Or Tuesday. Three day week, yay!
BUT ENOUGH ABOUT THAT. Eugh.
Sooooo yeah I am happy as usual.
Also have I ever mentioned how much I love the song Supermassive Black Hole?
I LOVE IT.
And while we're on the subject Muse too. SADFASDGFTWAGADSF
so I shall leave now, this is basically a post of me saying I am happy but not saying why. (Uh oh, I used to keep doing this over at livejournal... I will not let this blog become like that one! hahahahah don't worry I'll talk about actual stuff. XD)
SO YEAH
also one time (it was at Kahunui survival night) I had a dream where my brother was driving a car in a pay and park and pay type area, then we were in a forest and both had ipods and listened to Ziggy Stardust at the same time but when I woke up and thought about it I couldn't get Starman out of my head. Which was strange because it was Starman and not Ziggy Stardust, what's up with that?
also I have lots of tabs open. In fact I have had this firefox window open for several days and it's getting quite agitaty. Although I usually have a thing open for several days at a time though right? I think it's because this time, I keep getting a popup saying "something is causing the adobe script to run slowly, would you like to close down?" and it's obviously for firefox so yeah.
I currently have 17 tabs open, I keep deleting them but then new ones keep popping up. I blame the youtube tabs, they're slowing down the system. !!!
I have been browsing the website known as http://www.blogger.com to find other interesting blogs to read, as as such have saved quite a few with a handy device known as "taboo" it's really rather handy. I have also noticed that there are very few 15 year old females from New Zealand with an interest in Doctor Who.
(That is to say, I have come across one, and that one was me.)
Although I suppose that is quite specific, but it could be more specific. You know. New Zealand is small, but not that small. I do in fact know some other 15 year old females from New Zealand with an interest in doctor who but I would like to find some that I don't know. You know? Although there seems to be very few 15 year olds on here anyway. XD
hahah okay. Today my iPod has decided to fail, as in my computer doesn't recognise it. Then again that's probably fault of the laptop considering how sucky it is. YOU SUCK MR SUCKY COMPUTER. I should rename you that. Hopefully that passes y/y
anyway. I started writing this last night, it's now 4.40 the next day. XDD
I am full of random happy yaysquee? although I don't really like the word squee as it is associated with the word fangirl and well, freaky. But despite my dislike of extreme squeeing (it seems like a rather high-pitched profession): SQUEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!
for no particular reason, yay.
Soo holidays are coming to a close, but at least I am safe in the security that I don't have to go back on Monday. Or Tuesday. Three day week, yay!
BUT ENOUGH ABOUT THAT. Eugh.
Sooooo yeah I am happy as usual.
Also have I ever mentioned how much I love the song Supermassive Black Hole?
I LOVE IT.
And while we're on the subject Muse too. SADFASDGFTWAGADSF
so I shall leave now, this is basically a post of me saying I am happy but not saying why. (Uh oh, I used to keep doing this over at livejournal... I will not let this blog become like that one! hahahahah don't worry I'll talk about actual stuff. XD)
SO YEAH
also one time (it was at Kahunui survival night) I had a dream where my brother was driving a car in a pay and park and pay type area, then we were in a forest and both had ipods and listened to Ziggy Stardust at the same time but when I woke up and thought about it I couldn't get Starman out of my head. Which was strange because it was Starman and not Ziggy Stardust, what's up with that?
also I have lots of tabs open. In fact I have had this firefox window open for several days and it's getting quite agitaty. Although I usually have a thing open for several days at a time though right? I think it's because this time, I keep getting a popup saying "something is causing the adobe script to run slowly, would you like to close down?" and it's obviously for firefox so yeah.
I currently have 17 tabs open, I keep deleting them but then new ones keep popping up. I blame the youtube tabs, they're slowing down the system. !!!
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