The furniture matches the ceiling

So SATURDAY SONGS ARE: Da da da by Belaire AND Between Us And Them by Moving Units
But those are not the song of the day! No, no. I just decided they were good Saturday songs, okay okay.??
Well it was a nice day yeah. Aaaand here is a lame bad quality picture of me and my haircut for Alice. (although it is reversed so yeah.) Because she asked for it and because she shall do the same for me.
BEHOLD! Perhaps. Lol FAIL and stupid picture of me is FAIL. =3 (lyk, the lighting was lyk sooooo bad!!11 I lyk lukd soooooooo ugly lols11!!)
bwahahaha.
Heyyy what, so today I saw Phantom Of the Opera, it was actually like seriously rad, because there were super tricks and big flames that you could feel the heat from from way away and they went down on big statue floaty things (okay that sounds retarded, but.) And well it was just rad okay so SHUT UP people who are COOLER than me! =D
Good times.
Well I am amused by everything, today is good, I want to get three cds: They are, the new fob album, because well you know, Headfirst slide into Cooperstown on a bad bet is pretty much the greatest song ever. (okay I know it's not but WOW.) And, blackholes and revelations by muse and Day and Age by The Killers. Well actually I want lots of cds but I want those because they seem purchasable. Also I want the sims 2 nightlife, because a) vampires, b) I need a new expansion back, and c) I want to download more custom content.
Wow, when did this become a "I WANT THIS STUFF GIMME" post?
Oh well. *noncommital shrug!*
Something smells goooood.
Well, I think that is all. Although there is a serious bout of generall sickness going around, which sucks because Summer is Arriving! Hooray.
So, well, yeah. (by the way, that is my mildly surprised, unimpressed posing for a picture face.)
Dude: Firstly, I love the get smart theme song, secondly, song!: I got a girl by Tripping Daisy.

SO THERE, person who everyone likes! (and who I like too but really now.)

AND, and. If someone says something and I disagree, somewhat, I am NOT GOING TO AGREE!! No, sir. Especially if that negative view is somewhat elitist. You see, when people say they do not like something, I take that, most of the time to mean they think they are better than the people who like it and I feel offended and worried that my views are wrong or I am stupid or something.

Yeah, well you may say guitars are overrated and everyone else might nod a little and make "mm's" of approval well STFU. I LIKE GUITARS, just because a lot of people play them and you are not that fond does not make your word law SHUT UP LALALALA NOT listening.

Also, a girl was like, "that book is stupid! it is badly written and the plot sucks." I took that to be quite elitist because most of the english teachers thought it was good, most people thought it was good and you are just being stupid. =[
That person would just have had high standards. I mean, writing wise? it was fine! And, and. It was more the IDEAS the book talked about. They were good ideas, they rather were. So, SHUSH. Okay. I thought it was a good book. Not the OMGBESTBOOKINTHEWORLD but it was good! so shut up with your angry complaints.

Or maybe I just get overly and irrationally angry and upset when something is talked about negatively. No, that is not a maybe, a peut-etre. It is a definitely. I worry and fret for ages.

Ok, that just blurted out.
I am going to sleep now.
Song: Jurrassitol by Filter

After a while you may notice my blog titles will become more unoriginal, such as, "blah"

Well it has been a mildly good week, but I do have a problem with my brother. Now we usually get on well with minor casualties, however these past few days he has been very violent and hard to deal with. Ok, so I do not help by calling him stupid and laughing at him, but I am not violent and aggressive. Generally his idea of violent and aggressive is punching and kicking and general flailing, however lately he just screams in a high pitched voice about how much he hates me and how I always go on the internet, and whenever I do not go to swimming he says in a condescending tone, "It's not a matter of I don't feel like it, it's a matter of having to go!" Pfft. He's eleven. How DARE he be patronising. Well. I dunno, I mean this morning going to school I had to do spelling with him and when he couldn't understand that a word had two r's in it, he got really mad and when I tried to hint towards the r thing he yelled at me, then later sulked, refused to spell the next word and said how stupid I was and how he hated me and how stupid the words were. Well. And by the way this laptop keyboard is totally cool because it sounds somewhat like a typewriter whenever I press the space key so there is this big tapping noise. Hooray hoorah.

I am NOT GOOD with awkward situations. I mean not like those silent moments, where no one says anything- you know, everyone seems to instantly think the moment there is silence that it is AWKWARD!!! No one ever lets it continue as a silent, deep and meaningful pondering or whatever. Someone has to go, "awkward giraffe!" or whatever or say, "well. this is awkward." and then I get quietly annoyed to myself because IT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE. I mean really.
Anyway, I mean awkward like when someone randomly breaks down crying. CANNOT. DEAL. You know how girls are all like, "oh my god what's wrong?" and then rub your back and make sympathetic noises and reassure and calm down the hysterical/quiet sobber. But, no, no. That is awkward for me, because I do not know WHAT THE HELL TO DO. So, NO. If someone storms out crying, I am not really going to say anything to them! Well, actually, depending on what they were crying over I might yell at them for being an idiot or something. (In an inspiring, this is not you sort of way. Or something lame. Or maybe something Kamina might say.)

AAAAAAAAaaaanyway, yeah that is about it. Same goes for like when falling off something, or smacking in to a tree. (Yeah, that kind of sucked.)
Fridays really are quite a joyous occasion. Well not that joyous, but... just something nice about not having to get up. AND LET ME go on another ramble. It will be about: MORNINGS.

See, on a school morning, I am plagued with a dull head. This head is warm, uncomfortable and angry in a way that it really cannot be BOTHERED being angry, so it settles for, why why why must this happen to me. If I were to return to bed, I could fall asleep in the most SATISFYING way possible: straight away in a big feeling of warmth. The home of my head, basically. In other words, my head has been plucked from its warm comforting home, and the moment it is reconnected all natural balances shall be restored. This never happens, of course.

HOWEVER! On the weekends. This instantly changes. (Damn you, internal body clock.) If I was to be woken up at the usual time for school, I would have the privilege of going back to sleep. I in fact tried this method once, and it did not work. I did go back to sleep, but it was UNcomfortable. It was downright bleh. Basically I sleep in till about nine, sometimes just stay there, until ten, eleven, depending on how lazy/how much I sleep/when I went to sleep the previous night, I can get up at twelve. But, it is just not satisfying.
Typical. Hard to please some people!

Well, not much more is happening. I kind of wish there was not another Artemis Fowl book. You know, they get to a point where you start to say, "what, another?" and it is not quiiiite as great. That happened with the Alex Rider series except the last one was really just as good as the others. Have not read much of the newest Artemis Fowl but it seems different. I dunno why, Artemis still has his pompous ways but he seems different. And I have not really laughed yet! Dude those books always crack me up by at least the tenth page.

Well, ambivalence. (Does that have anything to do with valence electrons? I wondered this to myself once.)

Something about this place is good for my writing ways. God, can I go at least ONE post without mentioning the differences between Blogspot and Livejournal? The answer is, NO. (now for the comparison: livejournal is harder to write in I dunno why it just is STOP)

Song!!! The song is:Piranhas, by Tripping Daisy
(oh yeah and like what? okay.)
(the above was me thinking, hay let's write about that but then thinking, wait you shouldn't, and then agreeing with myself.)

Well, I do not consider myself to be that talkative. Indeed most of the time I clam up and mumble.

I now end this ramble. I really have to learn how to cut these incessant ramblings down a bit.

AAAAH my face hurts

I HAVE CONFUSED MYSELF IN TO OBLIVION.

(For crying down the plughole, stop posting!!!)

The Riverboat Song by Ocean Colour Scene

ticktockgoestheclock

I am trying to make this place homely already, I have ocd yeah yes yeah
superstition
sorrysorrysorry piercing drill in my brain to the back right ouch. That hurts, man.
Sorry about this.

So obsessed

a placebo? nah, nah wrong word. It is more like... weaning myself off fandom obsessions.
See, this place... I have decided very rapidly that it is great. I have way too many thoughts inside my head, hopefully I can learn to put them here so I can stop thinking thinking thinking so much! I mean, all the time. Aaand... you know, I kind of am hoping that I can get better and organisation and stuff, sooo... man I am tired. Of course, I cannot really stay away from this place. Already. Heh.

But... man, it is so great, and, lately I have been kind of worried because I will be thinking and suddenly panic like, what! I have nothing I am obsessed with right now! And it is kind of worrying, I feel kind of lost. But I think, I am getting more away from fandom, and this makes me sad and happy. I have always been a lurker, never really participating, it is just not my thing. I mainly just look at fandomsecrets. And out of my friends, I am the one that knows the most about fandom and fanfiction, but I almost never ever read it. It does not seem to work for me, I prefer to daydream and squee by myself. Aaaaaand, well, I guess I will always be a part of it in a detached way, but it takes over my life and I want to be able to study better and get homework done on time and whatnot. Yeah, see fandom seems to be my priority and I would like to change that. It has improved my life and also destroyed it in a way. And I think I am already changing.

So that is good. I think, if this can be my new obsession I can get all the things cluttering my mind out of the way, and become a more relaxed person. I mean, I do not stress or anything but sometimes I worry and fret too, you know. =P Just not about exams, more about... I dunno. Well, I love my little fandoms and I will always be able to go back and, in fact I will not leave that would just break off some of my heart, man. But.... well I feel confuzzled now, today has been too taxing on my brain, I have too much time to think about random things than school learnings. So, I am learning to leave it behind in a way I am still there. I admire people who can manage their time between interwebs, school, homework and study and music lessons/sport really well. They have a good skill. And, well I hope to improve my life a bit more.
Well great a depressing post already, did not really intend for it to be that way but I feel just good about stuff.

GOOD GOOD GOOD
And, man, I kind of have a thing for tv shows. Not tv itself, but tv SHOWS. Yeeaah... cannot really talk about most of 'em for several reasons, bwahaha, I am kind of messed up.
But who is not eh?

Am I too optimistic sometimes? MOOOOOODSWINGS...
My head hurts. XDDD
AAAH MY HEART FEELS EXPLOSIVE
I am not sure why. ASDFHALGDHAGHASGAMBOGHAUGAWHRIHG
Sorry, I dunno BLERG BLAHRAGHAGH AIJG the world is strange I gotta go now before I kill something happy yay oooooooooohoadgfai hsgo ha I HAVE TOO MUCH ENERGY, I HAVE TO RUN OR SOMETHING

Next song: 4 am by Our Lady Peace

It's not a side effect of the cocaine, I am thinking it must be love.

Woah what Richard Barker: what? listening to the radio, that sounds um... weird.
But not as weird as this little bit of brain vomit. *Ahem*

Yay for everything!
I want to read invisible monsters now.
Aaaaaaaand, everything is yay. Those nano chromatic ipods? They are drool worthy. I do not like the new style, with everything tilted and coverflowy but aaaaah so nice.
Anyway I am obsessed with this place, not sure why. It has a style that livejournal lacks? It is just… well I dunno. Anyway posting here is fun and different to my immature squeeing on livejournal, hahah. I could just yabber on all day about anything, in my mind, but when it comes to writing it just goes blaaaaaaaaaaaank.
So.
Glorious technobabble?
Hooray.
People start with similar interests and branch off from there. You will start off similar, then one will go, say, indie and fashionsense like, with enjoyment of pale colours and simplicity with small font and greys. (Yes, Imma talk ‘bout joo, Alice. =3) And then the other will go more, green and flail and underground rock with boring happiness with an underlying coat of HEY HEY LOOK I AM AN INTERNET PERSON.

Haha, apologies for everything I say, ever. I am trying to be artistic, perhaps?
Who is to say what artisticness is, huh. Because you could have your poetic, emo despair: my eyes close as the blood spills over, out of my every pore- Okay, turned from angst to Ebola. *cough* Your strange, no- sense making type, e.g. panic at the disco- a daydream spills from my corked head, breaks free of my wooden neck… really? What the hell, ryanross. Your fall out boy strange song titles and interesting lyrics, tempest in a teacup, get unique, peroxide princess shine like shark teeth… yeah. And your genius weirdos like Lucy, with her descriptive emotive pieces all about people and sunflowers and how she wins every competition. The artists who do strange pieces, like Picasso with his cubism to underground artists who just attack canvas with blotches of paint and sell it for a million dollars to be over-psychoanalysed by professional interpreters.

So who really knows? You can accuse stuff of whatever, like that picture of a lady sitting at a table eating toast, then with a description of how it shows the poverty and blah blah blah, when it is just a simple picture with no real sense of lighting and composure and I am pretty sure the person was not thinking those things when they took the picture, they just went hey this would look good and snap! And then FAME FAME WOW. So it doesn’t have to be all glorious colours and excitement and textures and words that make no sense, it can just be a photo of a shell (uninspired nature pics what) or a photo of a road or a building or a blurry webcam picture of a cat, hey what IT COULD ALL BE CONSIDERED ART.
So yay for no boundaries!

Wow. So this is what happens when I just start writing, huh? I probably should not do that again. XDD staying home sick over stimulates my brain? That makes no sense either.
You might think simplicity or over complexity is the key, but with writing it does not always matter. Or pictures and paintings. Everything can be appreciated, by elitists or amateurs or whatEVER.

I love the world and I hate it, it is totally great huh.
Or maybe it is just that coffee I had. Perhaps it has a subtle brain effect?
CURSE YOU, ALICE, FOR GETTING ME TO WRITE AND WRITE LIKE THE WORLD SHALL EXPLODE. CURSE YOUUUUUUUUUU.
(Euphemism for Alice, ilu, thank you for introducing me to this place so I can write and write like the world shall explode.)

p.s: okay, awesome? I used spell check for the first time in like ever, and a suggestion for what ryanross should actually be was Ryan Ross. I do not know what that implies, but I am easily amused.

Yeah, I have never listened to that song in my life, but it is very true about me: for a pessimist, I am pretty optimistic.

This concludes my musings for today.
Also, at the end of posts I shall put the name of a song. FIND IT AND LISTEN TO IT. If you like it, then yay. It is from a collection of weird songs I have.
TODAY!!
It is: Mirage by Midnight Movies

OVER AND OUT. Finally.
Wait… no. Anyone know the name of that song… by Chopin? You know… that one? The spastic one that reminds me of that el cuckoo song? And it goes all wheee woosh excitement then a little relaxed part that is all ooooh emotional but not spastic and then it goes back to the spastic angry bit. Anyone?
HELP? It is kinda well known?
Well only two people read this, so hahaha. Whatever.

Only YOU can prevent wildfires.
Wow. Pressure much? Only YOU.
Haha… sucks to be you!!! Good luck with that one, buddy. Not even smokey bear can help.
You.
Only YOU.

Blerginator

Hmm, just playing around with layouts so it might look kinda stupid. Also, yay I get the day off. I feel like maybe I should be at school because I only have a cold but I went yesterday and it was absolutely terrible. I seem to have a toothache, a headache, a block nose, a sore stomach, a sore left hand middle finger, asthma and a cough. YAY FOR ME.
Still they say you should go home if you feel really sucky. THAT IS WHAT I AM DOING. And... I have to do homework too. XDD well not really. But... yeah. it is ten fifty, I have.... ten minutes till eleven, then .... I have four hours and ten minutes until three. I do not know why I am saying that. It is uneccessary. Weeeeeeeeeell..... yeah.

Oh man, I have this random ticky box thing at the bottom of posts now and I do not know how to get rid of it. I do not want it any more. XD
Yay! got rid of it!

millpool

Hey hey, at the bottom there is a poll and a list. LOOK AT THEM.

Edit: ok, poll on the side now. And baleeted the list. =3

Why hello there

oh snap I made one of these huh. Well it is basically just so I can lurk on Alice's page. I prefer el jay to be quite honest. Hahahah.