WHAT

I WAS GOING TO POST SOMETHING BUT I CAN'T RE-

Ohhh right, anyway I had yet ANOTHER dream in which I attempt to play a musical instrument. It was the bass yet again, I recall the tabs saying 5 and 18 (in accordance with fret numbers) and well I managed to wrangle it, although I was really slow at getting to the 18th fret, it was quite difficult. Before that everyone was hanging at an electronics store, looking at speakers and what have you, then we were at this weird warehouse with a downwards ramp that went all the way down the road to the supermarket or something. I don't really know. Anyway the thing is that I had another dream where I kind of fail at playing the bass but kind of succeed as well. HOW STRANGE.

I think that's all, yeah. I probably had more to say but you know, I always do and who really cares

My computer is being stupid and rejecting my ipod. Grr


I'm currently stuck in the middle of a wiki walk, with approx. 50 tabs open on all sorts of things like lists of paradoxes and symphonic metal. Good times! I shall read them. Au revoir!

Ohhh my goodness aren't things strange

SO I think it's time for one of those philosophical blogs, amirite? Incidentially it is 12.51 am RIGHT now, which totally has nothing to do with anything, but I just came up with the line WE ARE ALL A BEHEMOTH LUNATIC, I don't know what it means, make of it what you will.
Anyway today I was having this huge ramble in my brain about Christmas, as if I was talking to someone, I don't know who, but they were probably annoyed at me because I was probably there for a whole half hour or something.
frig my typing woke up a fool. I knew it would. He shakes his head and leaves. He'll be back. NOT FAIR, NOT FAIR!!!!!! NOT FAIR DAMMIT.
You see I've been trying to work up the courage to look at a wikipedia page, good lord sometimes I get paranoid about the strangest things. Honestly.
They're coming to take me away haha, they're coming to take me away!
This isn't fair! I want to ramble to my hearts content. My typing was clearly too loud, I knew I should have been quieter. Gosh darnit to heck!
Ooooookay, I thiiiiiiiiiiiink they've gone, but I don't know what they wanted to achieve by getting up, going to the door to just shake their head at me. Okay.
Where was I?
Anyway, my blogs have been rather mundane lately.
So I was thinking about Christmas, and okay, I think people who say "I hate Christmas" or generally whine about Christmas and how it's been commercialised are just trying to be edgy and out there and pessimistic and omg so insightful.
Shut upppppppppp!
YOU LOVE CHRISTMAS. DON'T TRY AND DENY IT. Just because you're an angsty teenager or a tired adult and you're not allowed to enjoy simple things like opening presents and you have to act all sullen just to be cool.
I mean some people will have legitimate reasons for their dislike of Christmas, like sucky family relations that end in an unpleasant time for all (especially if there are some relatives that get overly drunk) or if you are a poor orphan on the street. But surely most people love Christmas, even if they are in denial about it.
YES. Christmas has been twisted and mutated due to businesses and chain stores who only care about making lots of money, and since Christmas is a time for giving it is an excellent time for them to exploit the general public for moar moneys. And so maybe the reason people are excited about Christmas is because of the presents. Which is materialism and capitalism and whatnot and whatever. I was never good with -isms.

It's true! BUT. It's completely awesome, because what else connects people in such a strong way? It's an event where people all over the world do exactly the same thing- get a tree, put shiny things on it, put presents under it and then open the presents and have a nice time hanging out with relatives you don't get to see that much. Why? Why is this? Obviously not everyone does this, as it all started off in religion, so different religions have their different celebrations, but the fact of the matter is most people celebrate in some way around this time of year, with different traditions. And everyone gets so excited about it and it's just such a friggin big deal. And it's hard to really know why. Obviously kids like it because of the presents, and it kind of sticks with you, and maybe it isn't that big, it's just all the advertisements that cause the hype. But then again everyone gets all excited and stressed and worried and what have you. And it's all very interesting.

Anyway, what I'm saying is don't say you hate Christmas! The ads and the commercial stuff is lame (seriously, Miley Cyrus advent calendars? lolwut) But in the end it's one of those weird wonderful festivities where you are meant to be happy SO YOU SHOULD BE HAPPY OKAY.

I must sound like an idiot or something, but that is a general summary of what was rambling through my mind today. OOOH also, fake Christmas trees should only be used by the elderly who might not find it quite as easy to have a big real tree. EVERYONE ELSE SHOULD HAVE A REAL TREE. The essence of Christmas is the smell of those trees! The pine needles falling on the ground, the general prickliness! The difficulty of getting decorations on the tree! It's great! FAKE TREES ARE FAIL.

Well I sound as idiotic as usual, I need to read a lot more. I mean, I want to read loads. But I'm never motivated or anything, ahhhhhh. If only I could be more knowledgeable.
See, intelligence is more a genetic thing I think, like your capacity to understand well and to learn quickly whereas knowledge is the accumulation of things you have learned. So I guess I can't ask to be more intelligent but I can try and be more knowledgeable right? Although I'm not doing too well there either.
OH WELL

Anyway it's 1.08 now so I'm going to go on wikipedia and try my luck at not being paranoid. Then sleep.
Also: My cat is being very strange, her pupils are all big and what have you, and she just jumped up on to the computer desk and is sitting on it, miaowing all plaintively and sadly like she's been abandoned or something. Now stretching over the printer and on the dresser. She's sitting on the fancy placemats. Oookay.

Lol bass clarinet solo

So hay guise!?!?
Wooo I'm buying La Resistance: Le box set from someone who got two. Of course the people in charge managed to screw that up as well and people who ordered ltd edition and actually GOT IT ended up with just deluxe, depending on which site you ordered from. Sheesh!
Today I was playing the sims 2 and I found out that this thing I downloaded was an advent calendar! See I just thought they were random pictures of people dressed up like santa but turns out you can click on them and get gifts. You get 1000 dollars the first day and a lot of chocolate. When you get chocolate you end up with "so and so has eaten too much chocolate!" and they run to the bathroom and throw up. hahahah! They also get other good stuff too, as well as a pizza. When they take it out you get a pop up box with the person who got it saying "wow, a pizza in a calendar! what next?" and then when you get all of them it says "merry Christmas to your sims!" and then they run up to where the calendars are and look at the screen and wave and smile at you. IT'S SO CUTE HAHAHAHA.

anyway now I'm going to go watch Hullabalooooooooo.
Also I have lots of asthma today. Grrr. I've had it the whole day and it won't go away. Also spiders have started returning to our house after a pleasant season of them not being there for some reason. What a shame. Daddy-long-legs should die. They're just so repulsive. I mean seriously. They're blobs with long spindly legs and they walk like freaks UGH UGH UGH. And apparently they actually have enough venom to kill a person? But they can't because their fangs aren't large enough. Or so I heard. Let's hope they don't evolve or something. UGH. Disgusting.

Welp. That's that I guess.

Aaah screw it, it's 11.30, I can't be bothered watching dvds. I'm listening to Muse slowed way down right now. It's hilarious. I'll go to bed apres ca!
FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEL MOIIIIIIIIIII WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORLD
CRUUUUUMBLIIIIIIIIIIIIING DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWN
FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEL MOIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOIFE CROMBLIIIIIIIIING AWOIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
FOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLLLLLING AWOIIIIIIIIIIIII
FOOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLLLLING AWOIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII
WITH YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

...really, you've got to listen to it to get the idea. XDD

Ahoy-hoy, lowly mortals!

STUFF IS PRETTY GOOD, GUYS!!!!
So I still suck at the piano but I'm working on that!
AFI are seriously awesome!
It's the weekend!
I just remembered that I have a group lesson tomorrow for piano! That's not so good!
I kind of love AFI!
No one else in my household seems to!
I've been playing the sims 2 and it's pretty fun!
So I'm happy. =]
Welp! I've been saying welp a lot recently.
Yeah.
G'JBYE!

Aw, hell diddly-ding-dong-crap!

I'm in yet another "thinking about my issues" mood.
See, it all began perhaps an hour ago or so, and see, I was emptying the dishwasher and whatnot and thinking about all this stuff in elaborate terms, when yet again it has come to the point where I don't have to talk about it on this blog as it has all been cleared up in my head. Hoorah. (As the point of thinking about all those things was to talk about them in the blog, but then I think about it enough in my head that I no longer have to discuss it. I'm going to discuss it anyway, as articulately as I can. Damn, I didn't think "articulately" would be an actual word. Anyway.)
Mmm, Whittaker's is deliciously good chocolate. Take that, Cadbury!
Here's something. I never ever ever talk about piano. Ever.
So today as I was sitting on the couch, whoop-dee-do, my brother is saying something to my ma. I didn't notice what, but my ma responds with "that's because you're a good piano player and she's a crap one." I waited a few seconds before saying, "what did you say mother? What did you say? What did you just say, mother?" She didn't know what I was talking about and I wasn't about to press matters.
See I've been playing piano for nine years, my brother is four years younger than me and at the same level, just a tad further. He has a different piano teacher to me; one who progresses a lot faster.
I've been playing piano for nine years, and never once have I received a shred of encouragement, not a dot of motivation. Just told, hey there play piano- quit bashing the keys! UR DOIN IT RONG.
So I wanted to quit so much, so so so much and yet I couldn't. I could not ever ever quit, there was no way. I couldn't. And I still can't and I don't want to.
Also, I've never had motivation to play till now; which is why I find it so difficult to be motivated anyway. I'll go, "ALRIGHT. I HAVE A GOAL. LET'S DO THIS...aww, jeez, I can't be freakin' bothered. I'll do it tomorrow."
I'm that way with everything, actually, but that's irrelevant.
Sooooo, I guess you could say that motivation is Matt Bellamy? Okay, okay, yeah the dude from Muse and everyone is sick of hearing me talk about Muse- but if someone I knew liked Muse as much as I do and talked about them with me, maybe I wouldn't go on about them all the time to everyone else as much. Srsly though, the only songs my friends know by them are Starlight and Supermassive Black Hole. Before I perused the internet to find out about Muse, I thought Starlight was a gorgeous song! That piano, guys. Great! But turns out it's kind of hated for being a single, and being more simplistic, generally considered pretty sucky to the max. Well daaaaaamn. Anywho, I facepalmed nontheless when the only songs my friends knew were Starlight and SMBH. (Excluding Alice- I know you know more songs XD)
So yeah, Matt- he's a mad lunatic genius and sometimes I worry about him- he seems deadly serious about some of his conspiracy theories, but that's okay. XD
But yeah, he's a ridiculously good pianist and okay, I feel like I'm too old to become a good pianist anymore, because I'm 15 and that's always too late to become an amazing talent, you have to be four years old and playing FANTASIE IMPROMPTU, or, 15 and playing FANTASIE IMPROMPTU. (Uh yeah there's a girl in my year who can play that. Hmph.)
And, so far, he's the only inspiration I've ever had to keep playing the piano. And, okay, I do suck at the piano- all my friends will go "NO YOU'RE NOT! YOU'RE AMAZING!" but that's only because they don't play piano and they're my friends. So yes. I do suck. But for my mother to say that in front of my face while not actually talking to me is kind of the worst thing for anyone to hear. Maybe I do suck, but it would be nice to hear some encouragement once in a while! Some sign that you want me to continue playing!
So sometimes when I get most inspired to do stuff, to BE THE BEST EVER AT EVERYTHING I DO, I'm fueled by anger and spite. Which is probably not good but, thing is, it always fades and I lose the moment, the moment of I'M GOING TO SHOW EVERYONE, THE BASTARDS.
Because I do that a lot, and I always don't do it. But now I feel that I have to do something, I've already lost the will to try hard but I can't. I have to be better so that one day, I can go: "I'd like to say thank you, to my friends, for being awesome most of the time, thanks to my father, my brother, you people are alright. Thank you for choosing me to have this, uh "good at the piano" award. Cheers."
And for my mother to go- hang on. Where's my thanks? And to confront me later.
"Oh, your thanks? Yeah. Thanks, ma, for never believing in me. Thanks for never helping me. Thanks for making me do my best with no help whatsoever. I had to drag myself up from the pit of sucky all by myself with no encouragement, no words, no help. Thanks."
Thanks a lot.
That's not sincere, by the way. In case you hadn't noticed, I was being somewhat sarcastic.
I could go on, talk about other things, about how sometimes I am deeply angered by stuff, but I tend to do that a lot, and you know, start delving in to all my ISSUES AS A PERSON and why I hate it whenever anyone does anything. But I won't.
I think I'll just leave it at that, whoop-dee-freakin'-do.

Well PARDON ME FOR BREATHING!

HAY GUYS WAT UP IN DA HOOD?!!?
OH FRIG THERE'S A WHOLE BUNCH OF RANDOM THINGS I KEEP FORGETTING TO DO ON THE INTERNET LIKE REPLYING TO COMMENTS AND UH WHOOOOOOPS!!!
OOOH FRIG!!!!! NOW ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO COMMENTED TO ME ON VARIOUS SITES WILL BE LIKE "MAAAAN KATE MC SURE IS A HUGE JERK! SHE LIKE NEVER RESPONDS TO COMMENTS. JESUS CHRIST I DON'T LIKE HER ANY MORE. GOODBYE"

ANYWAY.
Guess what guys
I don't know.
So I've been reading HUGE amounts of dinosaur comics and oh my god I love dinosaur comics and oh my god I have totally started THINKING LIKE T-REX and and it's SO AWESOME because T-rex talks in this COMPLETELY RADICAL HYPER WAY but Uhhh I need my own style of speaking which I do, but only now there are WAY MORE RANDOM CAPITALS and EVEN MORE usage of words like AWESOME AND DUDE AND RADICAL. Although I always say those. Look. THE FORMAT IS JUST DIFFERENT AND I DON'T REALLY MIND BECAUSE I FEEL A LOT MORE OPTIMISTIC!!!! WHOOOO!!! PARTY PARTY HARD/I HOLD PARTYING IN FOND REGARD

ANYWAY. What I was going to say was that today, Tash decided that I am the sort of person who should own a nightclub. So now all my friends have decided that I will be the owner of a classy funky nightclub (I have decided it will be dark purple-ish in colour) and my friends will work there and I will apparently have cool jobs like auditioning bands to play and hiring dj's. WHOO HOO RAVE PARTY Y'ALL
Seriously though my nightclub is going to be the GREATEST
I'll be really badass (You may laugh! But I will be badass.)
And then people can go there and be like DUUUDE THE COLOUR SCHEME HERE IS FREAKIN' RADICAL!!!! And purchase liquor drinks. I will also pay the dj more to slip in MUSE SONGS.


Anyway. Here's something: I have started all my paragraphs with the word anyway, this is concerning to me.
Heheheh. Concern.
Soooo!!
I GUESS- hang on a moment, anyway isn't it totally pointless when swear words are censored but they only censor it for a second so you get "I don't give a sheept!" which, basically, sounds like sht with a very quick BEEP in the middle which is basically shit with a beep
which is totally pointless!!! PEOPLE CAN STILL GUESS WHAT THE WORD IS, AND LITTLE CHILDREN WILL BE LIKE: "WOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAH"
Where was I? Oh, yes. Uh. So you know that fictional person who I am obsessed with? Well yeah that's going great. I think the other day I was thinking about the whole weirdness of the deal and I had some interesting things I could say about it but now I don't. OKAY FOR GOD'S SAKE, I'M LEAVING NOW BECAUSE MY SENTENCES ARE SOUNDING REALLY. REALLY MESSED UP
BYE BYE


ALSO: WHAT ARE YOUR FEELINGS, LET US SHARE THEM
ALSO: YOU DO NOT HAVE TO SHARE YOUR FEELINGS
ALSO: YOU SHOULD NOT FEEL OBLIGED TO SHARE
ALSO: WHAT

THE RESISTANCE

okay so I was just chilling on the interweb as I do at 11.20 at night, you know, and for no particular reason I go hey let's check up on twitter yeah? AND OKAY MUSELIVE SEZ: "Drum roll please... The new Muse album title is... The Resistance."

WE HAS AN ALBUM NAME
also today on Rove they played Take A Bow
AND AND ALBUM NAME ALBUM NAME
it sounds pretty cool although it seems like quite a different style of album name to the others, I mean it has a "the" in it which the others don't and it's just: The Resistance what's up with that? And it would appear a confirmed song title is United States of Eurasia. Which is quite strange. I think the part of it I don't like is the United States bit but if the song is good then I DON'T REALLY CARE
so the muse sites have all kind of had minor little explosions and whatnot WHOOO-HOOO

also today I had my first exam: english. It was intense. I kind of failed the unfamiliar texts part epically, lol. But I still gave it a try and wrote LOADS for Heavenly Creatures. There's just so much to write about for that one. ACTUALLY okay I didn't write loads. But I mean it all just blurted out quite easily, I did three pages and yeah that's not that much I believe Jordan did a great deal more than that. O_o I'm not even going to go there.
And we had to write an extra opinion piece for the writing class. That was easy b/c I just wrote the same thing as I had the other day when we did a test one. Quelle useful!!! hahahaha lolwut

SO ANYWAY
I WAS REALLY FREAKED OUT ABOUT THE EXAMS BUT NOW I DON'T HAVE TO WORRY
BECAUSE IT IS FRIDAY
AND THERE IS A MUSE ALBUM NAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOOOOOO

also did I mention MUSE

Edit: lol it's been like 5 minutes on the Muse forums and already there's someone called The Resistance. Well played. I think I might have to snag a song title when more are released XDDD!!!!
Edit edit: aaaand someone with a banner in their signature saying The Resistance is coming. Well. It is the middle of the day in Britain and whatnot.
Edit edit edit: so I looked up Muscle Museum eps and only 999 were made and their is one going on ebay for 200 POUNDS. WTF!?!?!?! DAAAAAYUM

okay I'm done now. In conclusion, the album title of Muse's next album is called The Resistance. We are shown this via use of the internet, popular social networking sites including Twitter and the front page of the official Muse website. This involves many verbal and visual features, such as not overplaying the release, just posting some information and allowing people to peruse with interest. This brings us back to the screensaver released at Christmas, which used many wide-angle and mid-long shots to give us as much information as possible, as well as close-ups of the band playing their instruments and singing.
FASCINATING. =| HAHAHA SEE WHAT I DID THERE =|
=|

It's for you

Soo um well I clearly am not good with coffee because I made a mochaccino and instead of putting in one teaspoon I put it two? And now I'm all trembly like. Hahahah wish me luck getting to sleep!!!!!!!!!!

Okay so I've been trying to study for an algebra test tomorrow since 5.30 ish. I mean yeah a lot of the time I was humming out of tune and frowning at my notes but STILL. I mean, The weird thing is I understand algebra? I mean way more than I did last year. It actually is not difficult, but when it comes to solving it I get all messed up like. Hoping to pass!!!! I depends what the questions are and I mean, we had 11 pages of notes. AAARRRGH. >=[ I compressed them in to 5 pages but AARRRGGGHH

afals;djkfawewithaowuwrskjfstktsdfklasdjfgdhag
but UM I HAD FERRERO ROCHERS
and and and
the other day I had a science test
and I got merit which was okay
but but, only three people got excellence for the last question and I was ONE OF THEM. PROUD MOMENT!!! And I didn't even write much. Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah
so anyway today was pretty cool.
not really looking forward to tomorrow but WHATEVERSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
Let's just get it over with ehhhh
seriously.... one extra teaspoon of coffee and I'm all like AAEEHEEYYYYEHEHEYYADSF WRGSLGAYGHEAYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm going now.


OH BTW: I WAS ON HOUSEWILSONLOL AND IT WAS TALKING ABOUT ONE OF THE NEW EPS
SO
HOUSE/WILSON: CANON AGAIN

That particular entry is not awash with ambiguity

GAAARRRRRR


OKAY OKAY SO
so I keep seeing around livejournal "that particular entry is not awash with ambiguity" and I thought "that's weird" and AND AND I JUST HEARD IT FROM THE VOICE OF A PERSON AND NOW I DON'T KNOW WHOS EL JAY IT WAS ON AND I'M REALLY CONFUSED?????
because
I SWEAR I SAW IT RECENTLY
AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO HAD IT

AND I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHY THIS IS BOTHERING ME
BUT IT IS/!??!?!?!
I MUST FIND OUT WHO HAS THIS ON THEIR EL JAY
possibly their blogspot BUT I THINK THAT IS ALMOST 100% UNLIKELY
unless it was an icon and in that case it will be relatively difficult to find. BUT WHATSOEVER, HABERDASHERY

I'm just going to leave and sit in a puzzled pile of puzzlement.

IN CONCLUSION: I AM CONFUSED AND ALSO MILDLY BEWILDERED ALSO: WRRFFFFFFASDFASDFASDFSADFASAADSFASFDSADF


oh woah hey, sorry this entry is mostly capslock. CAPSLOCK IS UNDENIABLY AWESOME. IN FACT, AFTER A WHILE OF READING THROUGH CAPSLOCK_HOUSE FOR A LONG TIME, I ENDED UP THINKING IN CAPSLOCK. YEAH, I WAS YELLING IN MY MIND. HARDCORE.


...look, it's just annoying, okay? Jeeeeez stuff like this ALWAYS happens to me. In different ways. But you know. *shrug*

Today...

Today I shall add music to the list!!!!!!!!!
My toolbar has vanished yet again.
hahaha Doctor Who. You know, when you do foreshadowing, it shouldn't be BLINDINGLY obvious what you are foreshadowing. Unless that's the effect you are going for. (ie showing the end before the beginning.) Let's see. Say... okay, the reaction you want people to have is something like this. "Hmm. Hmm?? Ooh. Ah. No, that can't be right. Maybe... hmm... oooh.... OOOH I SEE! AHA!!!!" and so forth. Complete with a look of dawning realisation.

It should not go like this:

[Person in television:] "He will knock four time-"
[You:] "CHYEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!!! WOOHOO!!! HAHAHA YEAH IN YOUR FACE, SOMEBODY!!!"

So, in conclusion: HE WILL KNOCK FOUR TIMES. CHYEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH
it is going to be awesome okay
IT'S GOING TO BE AWESOME

Song: Nose Over Tail by Alkaline Trio

They cause me to, uhm, die.

Ooooooooooh I can totally play the beginning of Space Dementia
it's pretty awesome

also I had a strange dream, and... hahahaha.
I think it was because the thing it was based around I hadn't thought about much, and then that day I had been thinking about it more? It had been forced in to my mind? (which is a good thing)
It was weird.
STRANGE! I am amused by it.

Wow I just heard some insane shrieking cats. Whoo.
OH YES today I was told about this thing. Toxoplasmosis! It goes in rats, and makes them bold so they go out in the day and when they usually wouldn't go out, so cats are more likely to catch them, and then they poo and it goes in the dirt and people do gardening without gloves and then the parasite goes in their brain and EATS IT.
Okay it doesn't eat it. But it's bad.

So because of this, I now believe that zombies will contain toxoplasmosis in them somewhere because they are so obsessed with eating brains. Zombies could just be a really massive toxoplasmosis parasite. Hahaha.

...yeah.
I have been downloading lots of muse videos from teh yewtyoobz. (wow what a messed up purposeful misspelling. Ftw!)
Oops I should email that homework. Heh.
Aaaaaaaaaannnywayyyy... what's the deal with stuff.
I feel like rambling but not.
Alsoo... I have this writing thing I have to resubmit and I haven't done it because it's LAME. L-A-M-E. I never want to see it again.
I mean, you cannot expect a not very strongly opinionated person to write a strong opinion piece! Jeez.
Grrr...


I think people are too obsessed with intelligence? (I am now going to be completely hypocritical and say if I had the chance to be a genius then OMG PLEASE LET ME BE SUPER INTELLIGENT I WANT NOTHING MORE.) I mean you can't really blame anyone for anything, it's technically their parents fault.
"you're dumb!"
"blame my parents."
Seriously, they are kind of the reason for everything that could be wrong in your life.
EVERYTHING! Although, why are they like that? because of their parents? So you can't really blame them. It kind of... doesn't work. BLAME THE WORLD! XD
So yeah people shouldn't be so judgmental, it seems that you can ONLY get a good job, get in to universities if you are a super hard studier, hard worker, really smart and intelligent. It's not really fair to not allow people of normal intelligence who don't work super hard 100% of the time to go to universities and have an equal chance of a good life. Yeah hard work should be rewarded and all that but can you really expect every single person in the world to be extremely diligent? Some people still want to do well but personalities and habits will often get in the way of that. Some people just don't WANT to spend their whole weekend revising algebra. Life seems to revolve around school, and it really shouldn't. It does take up basically most of your life, but it's because of that that it shouldn't mix with outside of school life! You know? YOU NEED TIME FOR YOURSELF. hahaha.
Also. School + home life? Today our dean was like "and so and so's grandfather just died, so be careful as she'll be quite fragile."

This made me... quite annoyed.
Firstly- this obsession with community spirit. Look, people aren't going to bond over that sort of thing. People do NOT want their private lives ALWAYS being shared with complete strangers. It's not really appropriate, particularly if you don't know whether or not that person is fine with you discussing it with strangers.

Look, you are more likely to be upset by someone sharing that news with everyone than you are by the fact that said person has died! I mean really, it's NOBODY'S business what happens in someone's personal life, and trying to pass it off as "I just don't want them to be insulted because this is a tough time for them" is not really a good excuse.
It's also rude to assume someone's emotional state. Fragile? Come on, who likes being called fragile, especially when you are NOT feeling fragile? Just... no.

Anyway. Yeah. Too much influence put on intelligence and EXAMS and crap. YEAH intelligence is important obviously! But it's very... varied. Intelligence- decided at birth or depending on how much you are taught in school? Amirite?
I'm not sure what I'm trying to say here, but, you know, don't be so critical of less smart people. THEY HAVE FEELINGS TOO.

Also, COMPLETELY UNRELATED, I don't know how to do a segue... (man is that correct spelling?) but LOL SLASH AND YAOI.
See, some people (I think more the ones who use the term yaoi as opposed to slash but HEY GENERALISATION) like slash for the "hawt" and will find it "hawt" no matter who or what. Which is... pretty shallow. See, the "slash" things I like, I like them because they are FUNNY.
I like quite a lot of things, but they pretty much all have a basis in LOLS.
Sasunaru? LOLS AWKWARD ANIMATION!!!
Well most naruto things are generally crack pairings considering I totally haven't followed the manga since like forever. (I miss good times old times naruto. CHUUNIN EXAMS FTW, nothing else compares really XD)
Fotc? it's a COMEDY, any homoeroticism is going to be kind of epic lols.
That one thing? AHAHAHAHAHA.
Does this make sense?
No, most likely not. But what I'm saying is, I'M NOT SHALLOW. =|
I think it's kind of silly to just go "OMG BOY LOVE KAWAII!!!!!!!!! SO CUTE!!! IF U DON'T THINK IT'S GUD THEN U R A HOMOHPOBE!!11 DEAL WIT IT, BUT EWW YURI IS LYK SO GROSS"
HAHAHAA Okay I know it's not all like that don't worry, but you know.
In short: hahahahahaha GOOD TIMES


So this is set out fairly messily so I shall depart for now. But I don't want to, because, I have to do that writing thing. VOMIT.


ALSO: What's the deal with all these vegetarian and vegan bands? Ugh, vegetables. How can you not eat meat? Oh well at least they have strong will power? hahahah

ALSO TWO: I seriously wish I could just live in this big loft apartment by myself. I feel like I would get so much more done. I would play the guitar and piano lots, read books, write, I would DO STUFF because, look. It gets boring with no one around and the computer gets boring too. So I will have to do other stuff. And if I am by myself in a nice aesthetically pleasing place where I can have a nice time I will be more willing to do stuff that is relevant to my interests. I always feel like I am being judged, which leads to me being unwilling to do stuff.
I JUST WANT FREEEEEEEEEEEDOM
and the money to allow me that FREEEEEEDOM
oh yeah and did I mention I wish I was a GENIUS
oh wait- I can't have any of these things. OH WELL!
I added a new label in celebration of this. BOURGEOIS.
(I have this thing where I am jealous of everyone having more money than me. OH CRAP I JUST REMEMBERED FOOD BANK TOMORROW. Hahahahaha wow jeez, close one? Anyway yeah and I go to my friends "but you're rich" and they get all insulted and go "no I'm not!!!" yeah but you HAVE MORE MONEY. It's just a fact, there is nothing implied that comes with that statement. Basically I- I want more money?)

THERE'S NO EMOTICON FOR WHAT I'M FEELING

Number of times that dude said "oh my word":235987236987236598732478 times

OH HEY, TENNIS WAS LAME because I didn't do anything because I'm not really sure why but I couldn't play doubles with anyone. FAIL
anyway lol languageperfect IT IS MY GOAL TO GET TOP SCORE FOR BOTH SPANISH AND FRENCH
and hey guess what I have
for french I hadn't done any since this day and I was like, "okay starts playing" and then I saw that the top score was 199 and was like OKAY FINE I'M GETTING HIGHEST SCORE
so now my score is 255 or something
and for Spanish it's 55 because like no one has played on that one lol
good times

ooh, SCANDAL IN THE FOTC COMM
so Alice you know how I was telling you about how it's all like ~*~falling apart~*~ well someone posted a fandom secret and although it didn't specify who or what it was about, I INSTANTLY KNEW IT WAS ABOUT EDIBLESTARS snarking badfic. It's the first secret too so go to http://community.livejournal.com/fandomsecrets
AND YOU WILL SEE IT RIGHT THERE AND AND THAT'S WHAT'S HAPPENING. =|

Okay so you know how I said I'm not going on the internet, well that was to make me only go on the internet when I had done my homework. Ok so I haven't done my homework but I AM WAITING FOR DINNER AND I'M REALLY HUNGRY
hmmm I should probably start on that opinion piece. Hmm that's a dilemma
DILEMMA OKAY
shush at least I went on languageperfect to study for ~*~francais~*~
yeah that's all, I thought I would tell you what a noob I am and also lol do balls actually target faces or something because I keep getting hit on the head/face by them. =|

I cannot think of a title HELP

The other day I had a dream where Muse "played" at my school in the hall. But they just stood there with guitar hero guitars and everyone in the very tiny crowd had one too. And I was teleported away and had to run back, while a man discussed Childrens Day as I ran across a field and how it's not very good because the kids who get abused are going to get abused anyway.
FUN FACT the day was actually childrens day and I was sleeping in the lounge because there were two spiders in my room (shut up) and it was the morning and ma had turned on the radio and I went back to sleep and had the dream and the radio was IN MY DREAM
anyway that was a non amusing fact of the day
So it seems whenever I have dreams about bands playing, they all suck/something goes wrong? hahahah I want another band dream to see if this trend continues. Also it would appear I am going to see the killers, hoorah hooray!

Hey guys it's Friday
this means that nothing at all will happen! Whoohoo I love it when that happens
And also it sucks because I want to talk about that band that I like but I am sure no one really cares about how much I like the band because I talk about it too much right now
also- today was the opening of the ~*~graphic novel~*~ section in the library (man I forgot the in the library bit and realised that was very unspecific and rude to the confused readers of which there are very many) it was very exciting. the writing thing was not such a big deal because we get to edit them and whatnot on Monday so that's okay?
Today I had a cookie from the tuck shop and it was NOT AS GOOD as the cookie that Lucy had had on Wednesday. I was upset
And yay I have very little homework this weekend which is good because lots of homework on the weekend is unpleasant.
okay... I should go to bed soon. Good day. Or night.

Heyy also at some point I am going to watch Higurashi No Naku Koro Ni Kai because some people on fs were like THIS IS TERRIFYINGLY SCARY so now I want to watch it despite hating terrifying scary stuff and finding it difficult to watch Blink, I mean srsly what
but not right now because it's night time lol and I want to go to sleep
GOODBYE

Sexy Results!

Okay now.
MUSE
so if someone asked me to describe Muse in one word it would be Sexy!!
Supermassive Black Hole is a Sexy song!!!
Muse is Sexy!!!!
If I had to choose one song to listen to for the rest of my life it would be Supermassive Black Hole!!!!

yeah. Sorry.
I think they are probably definitely a favourite band of mine.
Woo!

Anyway school today absolutely sucked times a million.
It was utterly boring and my legs are killing me and so is my back and my arms hurt a lot too. FREE extra day on the weekend could not have come at a better time. Thank you historical people for signing a treaty so people do not have to endure two consecutive first days of school.
Um yeah first day at school doing actual school stuff and it just was awful. We don't even have lockers yet for gods sakes. pathetic!
I hate my school. Even though it's like "the best school in nz blah blah blah privileges blah blah blah laptops blah blah blah!!!" yeah well it's uber expensive, everyone who goes there is rich to some extent, the laptops make your bags super heavy and jesus christ who needs them really? I am glad to have a laptop but AARRRGHHH and also I just dislike the school after going there for eleven years and also I hate everyone there. I hate my year group, in general. I know there are nice people? But if someone asked for my opinion on my year group, I would say I hate it.
SUCK IT, YEAR GROUP!!!
blah blah blah, lipservice lipservice a plague upon your living arrangements
so yeah today sucked. First impression of year 11: SUCKY AND BAD
hope stuff improves, I just feel totally sick of school. But everyone gets like that. I do feel more pleasantly inclined towards Alice's school but that seems stupid because this came upon very suddenly and is just me being negative towards my school and wanting to leave. I feel like I'm some sort of jumping the bandwagon person? Except really I'm just... expressing some opinions and thinking about it too much? yeah. Just felt I should POINT THAT OUT.
Alright that's it for now. When I go to sleep, it will be for a very long time tonight. =]
wow... I used a lot of my labels for this one. XDD

The best starbucks can be found in misery- hay guys didja miss me??

obviously not
eheheheh
I know, no one cares about me.
Hmmmmmmmmmm
anyway I am back from four days of excitement and thrill! well not really
I bought, six different items of clothing!!!
OF MY OWN ACCORD!
This is a breakthrough
I got
a red t shirt
a black singlet thingy
a grey t shirt thingy
an I heart nerds t shirt (ahahahaha lol)
shorts (WHAT IS HAPPENING?)
aaaaaand the best of all
a hoody
that is AMAZING
it zips up ALL THE WAY TO THE TOP
so if I'm with friends and they are getting on my nerves I can zip it up and ignore them. WHOOHOO
It's big and baggy and OH SO WARM, soooooooo snug and warm
and it's also long
it's blue and black and various shades
and I love it
I finally have a perfect hoody!!!!!!!!
so.
I continue to be uneccessaryilya agsdh
annoyed
at someone who doesn't really deserve it. For serious just thinking about them kind of really freaking annoys me. heheh I guess it's going to be an interesting year
in a totally boring way
I guess I'll just put myself by myself and concentrate on me being great
hahaha I've got really tired arms
we went kayaking for four hours
aaah it was fun but so tiring and also I was really cold and tired at the end, aand the rapids were cool because they were small, relatively speaking
I now have videos on my ipod heheh
and New Plymouth is really nice
I feel so tired, well not sleepy tired but just tired from sitting in the car all day. ahahahahaha.
Well now to go on livejournal, because I know my thousands of friends will me missing me dearly.
....
....
not




WHOOOO, something!
oh yeah and my brother quoted old gregg and the moon the whole time.
Seriously
that's all
song- Fools In Love- Inara George

jeez! this post refuses to show up. screw you, blogspot. YOU HAVE LET ME DOWN FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER.
and there is a huge red thing at the top saying ERROR, and at the bottom it says autosave failed very grimly.
HAHAHA wow someone hates me today.

Have you ever drunk baileys from a shoe?

good times!
So I had a label I was going to add to my repertoire... but I forgot it.
So.
I wented away for a five days. It was totally nice, there were TREEHOUSES and they were amazing. I love treehouses. Anyway, yeah. We went for long and stupid walks, ending in a refreshing swim and then resulting in another walk and then getting all hot and bothered and wishing I could go swimming again.
HAHAHAH I REMEMBERED!!! of course!!! Anyway, my new label for things that are happy yay worthy is "that's glad." When I tried to say, I'm glad and that's good at the same time. Don't remember why, but we ended up laughing for about five minutes. Seeing as I didn't seem to have any actual cheerful labels.
Anyway! There were cool long caves, long hills winding down to a totally epic looking sea, and then there were nice super huge waves. Problem was, the sea was actually absurdly salty and I died a lot. Yeah I DID keep my mouth shut... most of the time but it really didn't help. It was awful. And then we slept outside that night, I saw about six shooting stars, it was great and cool. And yeah, new years was a lol. SOMEONE drank a lot, but that's not for here. XDD
there were fireworks and some of them fell over and attacked people, as is the norm these days. We randomly wandered down the road a few times and lay on the road, which was fun, and then went back, which was also fun. I know, you love my excellent descriptions.
So then after that we found out that one of the lights on the ceiling was swarming with little bugs and I kind of wanted to vomit, but yeah. We watched some people be silly and concluded that one of the other people was only pretending to be drunk. And I was totally amused because it actually seemed to be true. That person then later decided to start bawling like a... pathetic thing. I ignored it by talking casually. Jesus christ, it really infuriated me. ASDHAGIHASAARRGH.
Anyway yeah
I seriously love Fall Out Boy but they seem to be super hated by loads and I don't know why. And I'm confused?? And want someone to give me a good explanation because I feel like I'm missing something and don't find anything wrong with them, they're good! Am I right? Right? RIGHT?
Jeez.
Whatever.
It's mildly disconcerting.
sooo I'll be on my way now I guess. I ain't not a dorkus is not actually a relevant label but shush.
Hey today I will actually write the name of the song I put on the list on the blog? to keep track and whatnot yeah. SONG: Headless by Women and Children.
also I have about seven or eight different laughs. It's quite strange actually.