coffee flavoured beverine

you know what infuriates me? stupid country types who instantly assume that city kids are poncy and snobby and ditzy and idiotic and scared of dirt
and they complain about them and patronise them and blah blah blah
and not just country people people who just assume that you wouldn't be able to handle working on a farm just from like one thing of being annoyed at dishwashing water gunk food scraps
GAH!!! It's so infuriating, yeah because dishwashing water is disgusting it's like because you hate dirt and don't like things to be dirty and disgusting you're pathetic and wussy and can't deal with dirt
Grrrrrr it's so STUPID and it makes me want to go to a farm and do completely fine and not complain and be totally self sufficient
blah blah blah!!!!
anyway I am not going to quit because my brother's teacher told ma mere that she should leave me alone
ahahahah
so that's good, sorry about before
anyway school is soon
and that will suck but we don't have to arrive until 12, yay
I had other stuff to talk about but I forgot.
Today I bought a totally awesome little notebook. It has a green metal cover.
It sounds lame but it's srsly cool
okay well I'm done
song um: Stripped by Shiny Toy Guns

Sorry about this.

Extreme emo ahead you really don’t have to read this but I really had to post it.

Well earlier I planned on posting a cheerful blog
Never mind that
So you know what I hate?
At my school, there is this thing called GATE. It stands for gifted and talented education or something dumb like that.
Anyway, as you might have guessed it’s for gifted and talented children
And I freaking hate it.
I mean nothing against the gat kids, a lot of my friends are in that program thing. But the problem is the way they flaunt it around, sending emails and stuff. No I don’t mean the kids in it, I mean the teacher people. They’re all like “ooh blah blah gate children blah blah blah look how great they are they get to go out of class to do advanced stuff because they’re so smart and obviously their skills need honing because they don’t know how to use them!”
Oh great. So basically… who gives a crap about people who aren’t gifted because they’re gonna be failures anyway! It’s like if you don’t have a talent or extreme skill these days, you are going to end up in the slums with five kids and a job selling grease.
I know my opinion is probably incorrect but it still angers me a lot.
Of course, it reminds me of a quote.
“We both know these children have no future!”
thanks, thanks a lot. It’s great for people who are generally not recognised and don’t stand out as geniuses. Whoo. Hoo.
And not to mention those overachievers who cry if they get a merit, or don’t get all e’s in exams, and who panic that they are going to fail in life if they don’t study more, and these are the people who are admired by all and always win prizes. Generally these people are cool but stop it you are really depressing the people not as smart as you.
So yeah, to achieve in this world you have to have an IQ of 200
That’s really great
I feel so hopeful about my future
I don’t even know why I’m taking writing, I don’t care about writing or reading these days as much as I used to… also we are making picture books apparently and I care not for picture books.
I would like to be in a band, but I am a girl in new Zealand. Yeah I’m gonna gain worldwide success aren’t I?
And in other news, everyone wants me to quit piano.
That’s great and all it sucks that you have to pay and you think it’s the easy way out but you’re not the one who has to quit are you?
The comp has been taken away from me because I haven’t said a word about it
I just can’t talk about it (but I am on the comp as they are all out)
They don’t seem to understand that I can’t just decided like that (oh hey what do you know, “I can’t decide” I bought that cd today.)
They think I have no thoughts on the matter
That I don’t care about piano at all and that I hate it and should just quit
Firstly I do hate piano.
Secondly I can’t quit
I just can’t
Because… I hate it and have never liked it but hearing others play the piano really well is still quite amazing. And I would like to be like that but never will be, so yeah what is the point if it’s not going to help me in life.
But I feel like I can’t quit, it’s something that even though I hate practising and never play when I’m not practicing I still like it and people think I’m alright at it
I am alright at it, not great in fact I’m useless compared to loads like those four year old kids who can play huge complex pieces
And you know I never really get compliments otherwise it’s not like I’m a genius photographer like Alice, or good at art like Rekha and the van shaards
I can’t write like Lucy or Laura
I’m not a genius like Rebecca
I don’t understand maths and I get confused at chemistry
Science I like but I’m hardly a master
So yeah.
Also I feel like I’d be letting people down by quitting, I mean I have played for so long it’s just stupid to quit now.
And I want to so much. But I can’t
And I still hate my school for pampering the smart kids
I feel like I have to prove I am smart, I just feel like winning prizes in prizegiving and everything
And another thing, I have no other school related activities I am in. If I quit piano then I have absolutely nothing to put on my other activities blah blah blah sheet even though I do guitar and swimming.
I never win awards
I haven’t since year three.
I guess you could say I am writing this for attention and sympathy but I’m not
I wrote this on a word document for starters
And well I’m just going to post it and I do not want attention or sympathy even though I’m putting myself down in the sort of way people do when they want sympathy blah blah blah
I don’t always feel like this but you know how people get
It’s like the name of that nirvana song “I hate myself and want to die”
Congratulations on naming a song that everyone in the world will relate to at some point in their life. Gold star for you.
So well you can just ignore this and that would probably be better
And I should maybe not post it but really
I want to know what to do about quitting
I know Alice quit flute and felt kinda the same way
I think
And I got a cd for my dad I was going to play it for him when he got home
But when he got home I was in my room utterly miserable
Thanks for ruining a good day everyone.
That is all. Sorry for the extreme emo
By the way, I don’t usually get like this. Usually at night time or when sucky stuff happens. It’s like the name of that paramore song “for a pessimist I’m pretty optimistic”
I don’t actually really listen to paramore though.
…they like Twilight.
It doesn't matter though. In the end I'm going to end up quitting.

Some people have a way with words, while others, erm... thingy.

It would be fun to be arty and interesting and write fancy poetry and post pictures and draw and stuff!
But I cannot really do any of those things. Alas! It is my goal to be more creative and...stuff.
The deal with poetry is it's weird. If you write super angsty stuff you can just sound like an emo kid... I've talked about this before, haven't I? But still. It can be facepalm worthy.
Also you can just conjure it out of nowhere
like... nature poem!
glittering trees glisten
twirling
iridescent drops of life
splash and separate
healing the ground

see I just came up with that right there. And it's kinda pretty stupid.
So that's the deal with poetry.
Whoo!
See, quality of blogposts: DETERIORATING
in the end I bet most of my posts will be of me complaining about how sucky all my posts are.
Heheheh.
Well it doesn't all have to be fancy musings
I can talk about my life as well, the problem with that is that nothing happens in the holidays.
So you'll have to wait for that with bated breath. Ahah.
Anyway I have a goal to:
write something random each week
take a photo each week
draw something each week (and try different things, not just people)
try and listen to different music each week

so maybe things will be more EXCITING as I upload these happenstances!
heheh. A chilling vision of things to come!
So I guess I'll go for now. Also I shall eventually make a blogpost for all the songs and just put a link to it on the side. Because there will be lots of songs. I guess there is not much point in listing a song each post, but it's fun and maybe someone will one day have a looksee.
Okay! Goodbye.
Iron and Wine: Dark Eyes

How about this for a headline: "Activity Participated In By Some"

Greetings!!!
Today I feel like showcasing some random pictures and stuff, because I feel like it and it has nothing to do with the fact that everyone else does it. The thought came to me while browsing through some of my stuff.
So...there.

okay, so if this particular thing gets completely messed up and looks like html, well, that's just me failing. Aww, this picture is too small to be fully appreciated. The skull says feed me carrots by the way. I love it.

It's underwater. Pretty! I would live there.

So um just putting random words underneath. Good times! You can always rely on a lolcat to bring the lols. Well, almost always.

Pretty much!
Well I'm bored now so I'll just leave you with three more.

Whoooo! I say this a lot.

It's pretty, am I right?

and that concludes that. Hahahahah
So... what about that local sports team?
anyway, I have decided to not try and listen to every band in the world ever because there is too much music so screw those guys for existing.
Also The Used has a lot of very sweet songs for a band that would horrify an old granny with the screaming and the swearing and the loud noise.
Basically that's all.
I really want a new house.
Also the latest flight of the conchords episode was pretty funny and great, and those guys have the worst luck of any fictional characters I know.
Song: Talking With Fireworks/ Here, It Never Snowed by The Twilight Sad
Goodbye!

Musicmusicmusicmoooooosic

I found all these old cd's, and uploaded them to my computer. And I am going to upload more.
However I do not feel like listening to them, nay!
I hope I will like them however. I think I will start with Led Zeppelin.
Lol at all the Obama merchandise? It's pretty hardcore. Action figures and comics?
News; stuff that happens.
Also Alice told me about two fishermen who survived for a month in a chilly bin?
I'm sorry, what?
Wow.
That's pretty awesome.
Right, yeah
it's kind of weird to post blogs when a person who reads the blog is your friend who already knows this stuff.
So I went to Alice's and we saw, ah yes, Twilight.
Well... it had Supermassive Black Hole and Flightless Bird, American Mouth (mouth? I thought it was south, or north.)
And well I was annoyed that in supermassive blackhole it said "ooh baby don't you know I suffer, but ooh baby I'm a fool for you"
and they cut out PARTS!
That was dismaying
anyway, it was an okay movie. I notice they cleverly avoided the whole "watching her sleep" dealie. I'm ONTO YOU.
Also I wish the girl would have had more emotion in her voice. She really DOES speak in a monotone! Wow.
And, yeah,
good times.
Hey, ever been obsessed with fictional stuff?
Well yeah, it kind of sucks.
Alas! I am running out of things to say.
I knew this would happen.
Well next time I have a Deep Thought I will make sure to write down important points and come back to the subject at a later date.
By the way, media, I am sick of all the "conchords flight to fame" headlines.
It's not original, no, no it is not. Please stop.
Also, when does the next episode come out, I was wondering. I thought Jan 25th but I think I am confusing that with Doctor Who. To wikipedia I go.
Oh. It started on the 18th. Okay!
Today is House! I wonder what will happen? General boredom, House having a gravelly sort of voice, seizure, vomiting blood? Actually apparently someone sweats blood? Okay. House is mean to Cuddy, Wilson berates House, maybe House has a Wilson-induced epiphany. Okay I could be way off, things are different these days. *tear*
Okay I'm done for now.
Goodbye
song: Une Annee Sans Lumiere- Arcade Fire

Live every week like it's Shark Week!

Uh-huh.
So, two previous attempts at blog writing have failed. I have a feeling this one will as well.
Anyway, I have been having strange dreams. First! I had a creepy one that made no sense to me, so much so that I thought it was a confusing and creepy movie.
I wont go in to details as it is long and confusing and also creepy, but we were on a boat, everyone died, there were police a nerd guy saving everyone, a cobra with a cats face and shoplifting from a jewelers store.
The next day I dreamed there was a pool with a shark in it, and that was weird but not too interesting.
Aaaand today I had another odd dream, except this one was strangely clear?
There was a fashion show, except it was in a sort of... auditorium room without a catwalk, I could see bret mckenzie running around, aaaand with no notice whatsoever I was made to play guitar for fall out boy?
uh... yeah.
so some tabs were shoved in front of me and I just... looked at them.
and well there was a crowd of randoms in seats, and an angry expectant lady.
So I stared at these tabs and I mean, I was in front of a whole bunch of people, okay?!? I was completely panicked and could hardly concentrate on playing the first couple of notes, and it was dead silent and and it was awful!
Then after a few agonising minutes of that Jemaine popped up from nowhere to introduce the fashion... thingy. And I stomped away angrily, then we went in to another room and complained about it.
I keep having dreams that freak me out, man!
This is the worst.
So humiliating.
It was awful.
Well, nothing much else in happening. Nothing really does in the holidays.
So yeah, sucky dreams.
How about 'em?
Yeah, I've been reading quotes.
A lot of them.
It's about all that I've been doing?
I LEAD A FASCINATING, NON-LOSER LIFE.
Oh yeah, and there is this song? Which is totally awesome, and and yeah.
Because it starts off really creepy, then goes sort of... something and it's just kind of epic?
And it is The Beginning Is The End Is The Beginning by Smashing Pumpkins
wow I love it!
It is also the song of the now.
Okay leaving now.

The best starbucks can be found in misery- hay guys didja miss me??

obviously not
eheheheh
I know, no one cares about me.
Hmmmmmmmmmm
anyway I am back from four days of excitement and thrill! well not really
I bought, six different items of clothing!!!
OF MY OWN ACCORD!
This is a breakthrough
I got
a red t shirt
a black singlet thingy
a grey t shirt thingy
an I heart nerds t shirt (ahahahaha lol)
shorts (WHAT IS HAPPENING?)
aaaaaand the best of all
a hoody
that is AMAZING
it zips up ALL THE WAY TO THE TOP
so if I'm with friends and they are getting on my nerves I can zip it up and ignore them. WHOOHOO
It's big and baggy and OH SO WARM, soooooooo snug and warm
and it's also long
it's blue and black and various shades
and I love it
I finally have a perfect hoody!!!!!!!!
so.
I continue to be uneccessaryilya agsdh
annoyed
at someone who doesn't really deserve it. For serious just thinking about them kind of really freaking annoys me. heheh I guess it's going to be an interesting year
in a totally boring way
I guess I'll just put myself by myself and concentrate on me being great
hahaha I've got really tired arms
we went kayaking for four hours
aaah it was fun but so tiring and also I was really cold and tired at the end, aand the rapids were cool because they were small, relatively speaking
I now have videos on my ipod heheh
and New Plymouth is really nice
I feel so tired, well not sleepy tired but just tired from sitting in the car all day. ahahahahaha.
Well now to go on livejournal, because I know my thousands of friends will me missing me dearly.
....
....
not




WHOOOO, something!
oh yeah and my brother quoted old gregg and the moon the whole time.
Seriously
that's all
song- Fools In Love- Inara George

jeez! this post refuses to show up. screw you, blogspot. YOU HAVE LET ME DOWN FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER.
and there is a huge red thing at the top saying ERROR, and at the bottom it says autosave failed very grimly.
HAHAHA wow someone hates me today.

Obsolete Technology

So anyway ma mere found this old thing of hers, it is a walkman. Basically.
And it is twenty two years old. Now THAT'S vintage. XD it's seriously great. It's got a little pouch thing, and it plays radio, and it plays TAPES. Like cassettes. Whoo! Now if anyone would like to donate a tape to me that would be great. Anyway it's awesome and maybe I will upload a picture but maybe not.
So tomorrow we are going away (ooh fun) to New Plymouth for some reason. I don't actually know, apparently there are pretty lights and apparently we are going to go kayaking and I really DON'T feel like it but it's going to happen anyway. So we are going away for two days which is pretty weird. Oh well. At least we're not going on 4 day treks or climbing mountains. stupid.
Well, I managed to get a video on my ipod and it looks totally cool. Sadly none of my other videos are the right format and I cannot change them, stupidly, so I am planning on buying one from the store, how exciting.!!! Still at least it will be good quality.
Whatever.
We walked to a cafe for breakfast today. It really sucked, lots of hills. I was insanely tired in the morning. Oh and then we went to the cricket club and rode on this totally awesome buggy thing. I was kind of terrified, but then I drove it and it was fun. WOO
basically that's all that's happened in my fascinating life.
au revoir, I guess????
Boyscoutin' by Menomena

Have you ever drunk baileys from a shoe?

good times!
So I had a label I was going to add to my repertoire... but I forgot it.
So.
I wented away for a five days. It was totally nice, there were TREEHOUSES and they were amazing. I love treehouses. Anyway, yeah. We went for long and stupid walks, ending in a refreshing swim and then resulting in another walk and then getting all hot and bothered and wishing I could go swimming again.
HAHAHAH I REMEMBERED!!! of course!!! Anyway, my new label for things that are happy yay worthy is "that's glad." When I tried to say, I'm glad and that's good at the same time. Don't remember why, but we ended up laughing for about five minutes. Seeing as I didn't seem to have any actual cheerful labels.
Anyway! There were cool long caves, long hills winding down to a totally epic looking sea, and then there were nice super huge waves. Problem was, the sea was actually absurdly salty and I died a lot. Yeah I DID keep my mouth shut... most of the time but it really didn't help. It was awful. And then we slept outside that night, I saw about six shooting stars, it was great and cool. And yeah, new years was a lol. SOMEONE drank a lot, but that's not for here. XDD
there were fireworks and some of them fell over and attacked people, as is the norm these days. We randomly wandered down the road a few times and lay on the road, which was fun, and then went back, which was also fun. I know, you love my excellent descriptions.
So then after that we found out that one of the lights on the ceiling was swarming with little bugs and I kind of wanted to vomit, but yeah. We watched some people be silly and concluded that one of the other people was only pretending to be drunk. And I was totally amused because it actually seemed to be true. That person then later decided to start bawling like a... pathetic thing. I ignored it by talking casually. Jesus christ, it really infuriated me. ASDHAGIHASAARRGH.
Anyway yeah
I seriously love Fall Out Boy but they seem to be super hated by loads and I don't know why. And I'm confused?? And want someone to give me a good explanation because I feel like I'm missing something and don't find anything wrong with them, they're good! Am I right? Right? RIGHT?
Jeez.
Whatever.
It's mildly disconcerting.
sooo I'll be on my way now I guess. I ain't not a dorkus is not actually a relevant label but shush.
Hey today I will actually write the name of the song I put on the list on the blog? to keep track and whatnot yeah. SONG: Headless by Women and Children.
also I have about seven or eight different laughs. It's quite strange actually.