I changed the layout again because this one is nice and pretty.
Today was the first day of school! Though it hardly counts because we were there for about an hour. And it was good to see everyone again, and I was able to be all squee-ful for a brief few glorious seconds before we had to sit down and shut up.
I hope to continue said squeeing, flailing and general conspiracy theorising tomorrow at length! And since tomorrow is also a messy day, hopefully also on Friday too.
I must post a photo of the record player. It's amazing. SO AWESOME.
And it's a hot and sunny day but I'm inside where it is nice and cool apart from this laptop which is all "I'm two years old, watch me EXPLODE with suckiness!"
I want to love you, laptop, I really do, but you make it really difficult sometimes.
Also, I have a new Spanish teacher for the first time EVER which is kind of sad but to be expected, really. It would have been kind of odd if I had had the same Spanish teacher four years running. So I'm not really sure what to expect. Oh well, I believe Lucy is in my class so that should be good.
I don't know much about any of my other classes, but: I was meant to take music, right? And they were like "lol no, it clashes with French, gtfo" so I had to drop it and choose from one of some other very fascinating subjects (/sarcasm). So we sent a message saying "okay I'll take alternative maths then, FINE JEEZ" and well they do not appear to have regarded this message as I have a gap on my timetable every day.
Now I wouldn't complain if I were meant to have spaces, but I am supposed to be taking six subjects and that just really doesn't work. Much as I don't want to take maths because hello, most boring subject ever, I am afraid I shall have to ask "hello, what is the deal?"
Still. It's interesting. Anyway all my classes are cool because I'm not taking anything I don't like thus far, so every day should hopefully be quite alright! IT'S GOING TO BE INTERESTING, HOORAY.
I just want to go back already and talk with my friends for ages and ages about certain things.
ASDHDGASGIHAOGHIAOGIH
I am filled with a fandomy glee. Now if only I could find an original of that drawing without the words on it. I feel this may be futile, however.
So to sum up: ASDFASDFH YAY!!?!?!
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Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Saturday, January 9, 2010
Une annee sans lumiere
I am STILL amazed by how fast 2009 went.
Seriously? A little feedback, anyone? What did you think? There are five of you who follow this blog, surely you at least read it? Okay, it's probably just me who spends every waking hour in a world that doesn't physically exist.
It's just gone. SNAP! CRACKLE! POP!
Vanished. But I've already gone over this.
But my memories of 2008 seem more vivid than this year. Perhaps it's because this year, it was a good year, but a lot of it was spend in mind-numbingly boring situations- I had a lot of classes with no friends in them, or people who I knew quite well but didn't sit with or talk with or whatever. Thus making them boring. Especially maths. Oh god. Worst. Subject. Ever. Not only am I atrociously bad at it, I sat by myself the entire year. OH GODDDDDDDDD You could pick me from a mile away as being an epic loser. /o\
French was okay, but it was always in the morning and freezing cold, and it was in the stupid French room that gives off a large, cold, unfeeling atmosphere. Anyway, it was okay, just not riveting or memorable, you know? The classes you remember are engaging and interesting, with your friends there to talk with and get yelled at and have jokes with, etc etc. So, English, Writing and Spanish were probably the most memorable subjects.
Basically, it was a good year, but event-free, making it kind of... well, it was just a passing sequence of days in which similar things happened. Yeah it was a good year, and I enjoyed it and had lots of good times, but when I think about it, the first thing that comes up is a blank slate, and only after thinking for a while am I able to recollect things that happened. I'm not saying it was a bad year! I must stress that- but there was a lot of nothingness along with the good stuff.
So yeah
that's all, I guess. I am going a bit insane, stuck in the house all day, getting up at eleven, only getting ready for the day at 12.00, sitting on the floor, downloading icons... why? What on earth is my obsession with 100x100 pixel boxes? I don't know, but they're AWESOME. But you know, I wouldn't mind at all getting out of here- I could do it myself, but there's nothing interesting around here. And because I'm just sitting around, I expend little energy, so I stay up later and later, and get up later and later and get more tired and so on and so forth... BLAH.
But hey it's the night, and I always tend to get pessimistic then, it's not all as bad as that... just boring. I want to run around and have a band practice, I want to hang out at Lucy's house (I have this thing where I just really, really want to hang out there all the time. It exudes creativity from its very core! Or...something.)
I want to spend time in the sunshine, in the grass, with FRIENDS.
But then most of them are heading to exotic places, or are currently in exotic places, and here I am at home again.
Still, I've been to places before. I remember- wait I've said all this before too! But I still really really really fondly recall going to New Plymouth. I don't even know WHY. I just love love love love love the memories of it. It's not like anything AMAZING happened- maybe that's why. It was just the niceness of a new place, and of course, that playlist. That I listened to a lot, and brings up strong epic memories.
It's 2010? I just don't even know. It's going so fast.
Every year is getting shorter, never seem to find the time.... BLAH
I WANT TO GO ON ADVENTURES
I WANT TO RUN AROUND
I WANT TO PUNCH BAD GUYS IN THE FACE
WHO'S UP FOR A BIT OF BAD GUY PUNCHING??? I AM, THAT'S FOR SURE!
Well maybe not, bad guys can be quite evil and whatnot. Maybe just annoying people who need their daily dose of COMEUPPANCE, TM REGISTERED TRADEMARK.
I got out my old tablet that I haven't used in aaaaaaages, and it was going great with adobe photoshop elements, the pressure of the pen was making the brushstrokes lovely and realistic, lighter and darker and whatnot. Then hey presto, something changes and the paintstrokes are thick and black and ugly with pen pressure having no effect on it. AAAAAAAARGH GOD DAMMNITTTTTT!!!! Someone help me out here, plzplox?
It might sort itself out though I doubt it. SO ANNOYING, I was just really getting in to it and now it's all stupid again.
Okay, well I guess that's my ranting over for now. Good day/night!
Seriously? A little feedback, anyone? What did you think? There are five of you who follow this blog, surely you at least read it? Okay, it's probably just me who spends every waking hour in a world that doesn't physically exist.
It's just gone. SNAP! CRACKLE! POP!
Vanished. But I've already gone over this.
But my memories of 2008 seem more vivid than this year. Perhaps it's because this year, it was a good year, but a lot of it was spend in mind-numbingly boring situations- I had a lot of classes with no friends in them, or people who I knew quite well but didn't sit with or talk with or whatever. Thus making them boring. Especially maths. Oh god. Worst. Subject. Ever. Not only am I atrociously bad at it, I sat by myself the entire year. OH GODDDDDDDDD You could pick me from a mile away as being an epic loser. /o\
French was okay, but it was always in the morning and freezing cold, and it was in the stupid French room that gives off a large, cold, unfeeling atmosphere. Anyway, it was okay, just not riveting or memorable, you know? The classes you remember are engaging and interesting, with your friends there to talk with and get yelled at and have jokes with, etc etc. So, English, Writing and Spanish were probably the most memorable subjects.
Basically, it was a good year, but event-free, making it kind of... well, it was just a passing sequence of days in which similar things happened. Yeah it was a good year, and I enjoyed it and had lots of good times, but when I think about it, the first thing that comes up is a blank slate, and only after thinking for a while am I able to recollect things that happened. I'm not saying it was a bad year! I must stress that- but there was a lot of nothingness along with the good stuff.
So yeah
that's all, I guess. I am going a bit insane, stuck in the house all day, getting up at eleven, only getting ready for the day at 12.00, sitting on the floor, downloading icons... why? What on earth is my obsession with 100x100 pixel boxes? I don't know, but they're AWESOME. But you know, I wouldn't mind at all getting out of here- I could do it myself, but there's nothing interesting around here. And because I'm just sitting around, I expend little energy, so I stay up later and later, and get up later and later and get more tired and so on and so forth... BLAH.
But hey it's the night, and I always tend to get pessimistic then, it's not all as bad as that... just boring. I want to run around and have a band practice, I want to hang out at Lucy's house (I have this thing where I just really, really want to hang out there all the time. It exudes creativity from its very core! Or...something.)
I want to spend time in the sunshine, in the grass, with FRIENDS.
But then most of them are heading to exotic places, or are currently in exotic places, and here I am at home again.
Still, I've been to places before. I remember- wait I've said all this before too! But I still really really really fondly recall going to New Plymouth. I don't even know WHY. I just love love love love love the memories of it. It's not like anything AMAZING happened- maybe that's why. It was just the niceness of a new place, and of course, that playlist. That I listened to a lot, and brings up strong epic memories.
It's 2010? I just don't even know. It's going so fast.
Every year is getting shorter, never seem to find the time.... BLAH
I WANT TO GO ON ADVENTURES
I WANT TO RUN AROUND
I WANT TO PUNCH BAD GUYS IN THE FACE
WHO'S UP FOR A BIT OF BAD GUY PUNCHING??? I AM, THAT'S FOR SURE!
Well maybe not, bad guys can be quite evil and whatnot. Maybe just annoying people who need their daily dose of COMEUPPANCE, TM REGISTERED TRADEMARK.
I got out my old tablet that I haven't used in aaaaaaages, and it was going great with adobe photoshop elements, the pressure of the pen was making the brushstrokes lovely and realistic, lighter and darker and whatnot. Then hey presto, something changes and the paintstrokes are thick and black and ugly with pen pressure having no effect on it. AAAAAAAARGH GOD DAMMNITTTTTT!!!! Someone help me out here, plzplox?
It might sort itself out though I doubt it. SO ANNOYING, I was just really getting in to it and now it's all stupid again.
Okay, well I guess that's my ranting over for now. Good day/night!
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
blah
Hmm so Lucy's party was good, I had fun, I was muy happy afterwards for some reason. Anyway the week has been going pretty fast and I haven't even really noticed that it's almost the end of term because I've been busy waiting for my Myooose box set which HASN'T ARRIVED and everyone is annoyed because there have been lots of delays in getting them sent and whatnot. LE SIGH!
Have a science test tomorrow, blah... yeah.
Blah it's 10.00... I never get things done.
I'll just wait for my boxset. Which will have to come tomorrow or I may be turned in to a mad raving lunatic. =[
well gj'bye!
Have a science test tomorrow, blah... yeah.
Blah it's 10.00... I never get things done.
I'll just wait for my boxset. Which will have to come tomorrow or I may be turned in to a mad raving lunatic. =[
well gj'bye!
Friday, June 26, 2009
Sucky to the max
Okay I'm pissed. I missed the Green Day presale tickets (it was only for 24 hours jeez) and my old email account deactivated, a cool person on livejournal deleted their account, my facebook account was banned a few days ago and they didn't bother to explain why, I have another week of school and only a fortnight of holidays, I have a maths internal and a speech to do, JESUS CHRIST THIS IS A WHOLE LOAD OF CRAP.
Also I am using a sucky loaner computer! IT IS SUCKY TO THE MAX. It never goes to sleep? so you'll close it but it will stay on. So it's really hot and it dies quickly. Also the resolution of the screen is messed up and I don't know how to fix it, so whenever I scroll down it goes all slow and jerky and everything is wide and blurry. Ugh!
Also we got an external hard drive which is cool. Hmm.
Ssooooo.
I had stuff to say but I think I'll say it some other day. For now I should sleep or something... I have to write a speech. Yeah, yeah I have to do that. And, uh, learn it off by heart or some such thing. God. I'm screwed.
Good...night????
Also I am using a sucky loaner computer! IT IS SUCKY TO THE MAX. It never goes to sleep? so you'll close it but it will stay on. So it's really hot and it dies quickly. Also the resolution of the screen is messed up and I don't know how to fix it, so whenever I scroll down it goes all slow and jerky and everything is wide and blurry. Ugh!
Also we got an external hard drive which is cool. Hmm.
Ssooooo.
I had stuff to say but I think I'll say it some other day. For now I should sleep or something... I have to write a speech. Yeah, yeah I have to do that. And, uh, learn it off by heart or some such thing. God. I'm screwed.
Good...night????
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
What I would like though, is a Spanish peanut
ffffffffffeh.
So you know what's good? I don't have to go to school tomorrow, and as such I can SLEEP IN aaah it's going to be AMAZING. Yay. And well I only have my French exam to go. That should be okay. Not so sure how maths went today. Once again I think I completely messed up the last question on account of my idiotic brain.
Sooo yes. Hahah. Today I was all like "I want a Spanish peanut" and then tash had peanuts and I ATE SOME. So that was a great accomplishment. /sarcasm
still it was fun eating peanuts???
so I made this playlist with 90 songs on it. It takes six hours to listen to. XD I think I'll listen to it without skipping any songs tomorrow. My life: so fascinating.
Anyway after Friday morning I shall be freee for another four days, how spiffing.
I'm sure I had something to talk about...hmm. Oh well.
Weeeeeell I'm just going to go now. I have two rad songs for you today. (OOH, GOODY!)
Southern Girl and Zee Deveel by Incubus. Fun awesome times!
So you know what's good? I don't have to go to school tomorrow, and as such I can SLEEP IN aaah it's going to be AMAZING. Yay. And well I only have my French exam to go. That should be okay. Not so sure how maths went today. Once again I think I completely messed up the last question on account of my idiotic brain.
Sooo yes. Hahah. Today I was all like "I want a Spanish peanut" and then tash had peanuts and I ATE SOME. So that was a great accomplishment. /sarcasm
still it was fun eating peanuts???
so I made this playlist with 90 songs on it. It takes six hours to listen to. XD I think I'll listen to it without skipping any songs tomorrow. My life: so fascinating.
Anyway after Friday morning I shall be freee for another four days, how spiffing.
I'm sure I had something to talk about...hmm. Oh well.
Weeeeeell I'm just going to go now. I have two rad songs for you today. (OOH, GOODY!)
Southern Girl and Zee Deveel by Incubus. Fun awesome times!
Monday, April 27, 2009
What's that? School is stupid? Why yes, yes it is!
ooh guess what I just removed from my room, a bunk bed that has been in there for 6 years. I MISS IT. =[ but I HAVE SO MUCH SPACE IN MY ROOM NOW. It looks really drab though. XDD
Anyway, I have decided that I am only going to go on the interwebs when I am watching tv. Because if I'm not doing anything while watching tv I might as well go on the internet then. XD Wish me luck with sticking to this regime. I need to get a new desk now.
So! School tomorrow, that's going to be fun.
Not.
Do very much so not like it.
Kay so Imma go now.
=|
House tomorrow. I don't want to watch it. =[
Anyway, I have decided that I am only going to go on the interwebs when I am watching tv. Because if I'm not doing anything while watching tv I might as well go on the internet then. XD Wish me luck with sticking to this regime. I need to get a new desk now.
So! School tomorrow, that's going to be fun.
Not.
Do very much so not like it.
Kay so Imma go now.
=|
House tomorrow. I don't want to watch it. =[
Friday, March 20, 2009
Small Chiseled Man
This place should have a better search engine. Such as letting you find people by age, and multiple interests and whatnot. YA KNOW? It seems hard to find random people here. That are your age. Hahaha
By the way, today kind of sucked a fair amount.
I got a lot more of that piece finished! Le prof a dit (is that right? no I don't think so... du or something? maybe it's le prof a du. AAH whatevs) that we could have until Saturday at midnight. Hahahah. Whoo I guess I have to do that then. Also probably going to Lucy's on Saturday. Whoo?
Man this is a semi-busy time, is it nearly holidays yet? Answer: not quite!
I shouldn't want it to be the holidays though. That's bad, apparently. Also... woah distracted by a cool music video. Evolution by Pearl Jam. It's cool, it's all cartoony. Yeah anyway also I don't want it to go fast.
Woah this is a cool music vid, it seems like the sort of thing Tash would like. Lols. (yeah it's violent and historical and anime-ish)
Well whatever! Can I have lots of money so I don't have to go to school please. I have this super dream of this awesome form of Home Schooling But Not Really, but I wont go there right now because it's 11.00 and I am really quite tired and always stay up late on- WHOAH HEY FLYING CAR GUYS it FLIES. OH PFTTT okay FINE it's not a flying car it's a ~*~roadable aircraft~*~ OH DEARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR THE NEWS JUST FAILED
OHHHHHHHH CRINGE CRINGE THAT WAS AWFUL
cut to thing about flight of the conchords, and on One news they spelt Jemaine's name wrong. HAHAHAHAH IT WAS MORE EPIC FAIL
Okay anyway yeah, I always stay up late on Friday, however! I feel tired and it's 11.00 and usually I'm tired but I go to bed at 11.30 and am different tired. ANYWAY. sleep in whoo!!!!
Kate Mc: Bringing you news updates round the clock, so you don't have to experience the awfulness!
Kay that's all.
Also: WHY must everyone EVER use business time when talking about fotc? GOD, IT'S LAME ARSE.
I laugh at new zealand jumping on the fotc bandwagon. (okay shut up, I definitely didn't get in to them in like ~*~1993~*~, I was friggen born then) BUT I am NOT A BANDWAGON JUMPER AND SO I LAUGH AT TVNZ. I LAUGH AT YOU. Also, it's more lulzy because, tvnz rejected them, and now it's them who are jumping on the bandwagon, in other words basically ALL THE SIX TV CHANNELS!!! hahaha lol I kid, I kid. But you know you are a true fan when you read fanfiction about them. Not that I do that. (COME ON YOU GUYS IT'S PRACTICALLY CANON)
By the way, today kind of sucked a fair amount.
I got a lot more of that piece finished! Le prof a dit (is that right? no I don't think so... du or something? maybe it's le prof a du. AAH whatevs) that we could have until Saturday at midnight. Hahahah. Whoo I guess I have to do that then. Also probably going to Lucy's on Saturday. Whoo?
Man this is a semi-busy time, is it nearly holidays yet? Answer: not quite!
I shouldn't want it to be the holidays though. That's bad, apparently. Also... woah distracted by a cool music video. Evolution by Pearl Jam. It's cool, it's all cartoony. Yeah anyway also I don't want it to go fast.
Woah this is a cool music vid, it seems like the sort of thing Tash would like. Lols. (yeah it's violent and historical and anime-ish)
Well whatever! Can I have lots of money so I don't have to go to school please. I have this super dream of this awesome form of Home Schooling But Not Really, but I wont go there right now because it's 11.00 and I am really quite tired and always stay up late on- WHOAH HEY FLYING CAR GUYS it FLIES. OH PFTTT okay FINE it's not a flying car it's a ~*~roadable aircraft~*~ OH DEARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR THE NEWS JUST FAILED
OHHHHHHHH CRINGE CRINGE THAT WAS AWFUL
cut to thing about flight of the conchords, and on One news they spelt Jemaine's name wrong. HAHAHAHAH IT WAS MORE EPIC FAIL
Okay anyway yeah, I always stay up late on Friday, however! I feel tired and it's 11.00 and usually I'm tired but I go to bed at 11.30 and am different tired. ANYWAY. sleep in whoo!!!!
Kate Mc: Bringing you news updates round the clock, so you don't have to experience the awfulness!
Kay that's all.
Also: WHY must everyone EVER use business time when talking about fotc? GOD, IT'S LAME ARSE.
I laugh at new zealand jumping on the fotc bandwagon. (okay shut up, I definitely didn't get in to them in like ~*~1993~*~, I was friggen born then) BUT I am NOT A BANDWAGON JUMPER AND SO I LAUGH AT TVNZ. I LAUGH AT YOU. Also, it's more lulzy because, tvnz rejected them, and now it's them who are jumping on the bandwagon, in other words basically ALL THE SIX TV CHANNELS!!! hahaha lol I kid, I kid. But you know you are a true fan when you read fanfiction about them. Not that I do that. (COME ON YOU GUYS IT'S PRACTICALLY CANON)
Thursday, March 19, 2009
YOU KNOW, WHATEVER
SERIOUSLY, WHO CARES THAT I HAVE A 600 WORD OPINION PIECE DUE TOMORROW
because anyway actually none of my class have done it really
today in class we were all like "aaah I don't know what to write I HAVEN'T WRITTEN ANYTHING" aaaand that was basically the whole class. So at least I'm not alone. I HAVE WRITTEN A SMALL PARAGRAPH THOUGH. Okay so 600 words= not much but THIS IS BIZARRELY DIFFICULT TO WRITE ABOUT even though everyone else has different subjects... it's just odd. Anyway I'mma try slowly pan it out, once I get going it will hopefully turn in to an incoherent mess of angry opinionated ramblings and I can say "it's just a draft copy!!!"
ALSO ON TUESDAY I HAVE A TRIGONOMETRY INTERNAL AND I FEEL OKAY ABOUT THAT, only problem is, that if you get you know one or more questions wrong (is it one question? or two? idk) THEN YOU FAIL WOAH and I'm worried because trig is one of those suspiciously easy things, however I have gotten one or two questions wrong and I am TERRIFIED THAT WILL HAPPEN AAAAAH AAAAAH
anyway after tuesday it will be all good. Because it will.
And despite the writing thing I am looking forward to tomorrow. Hoorah etc
because anyway actually none of my class have done it really
today in class we were all like "aaah I don't know what to write I HAVEN'T WRITTEN ANYTHING" aaaand that was basically the whole class. So at least I'm not alone. I HAVE WRITTEN A SMALL PARAGRAPH THOUGH. Okay so 600 words= not much but THIS IS BIZARRELY DIFFICULT TO WRITE ABOUT even though everyone else has different subjects... it's just odd. Anyway I'mma try slowly pan it out, once I get going it will hopefully turn in to an incoherent mess of angry opinionated ramblings and I can say "it's just a draft copy!!!"
ALSO ON TUESDAY I HAVE A TRIGONOMETRY INTERNAL AND I FEEL OKAY ABOUT THAT, only problem is, that if you get you know one or more questions wrong (is it one question? or two? idk) THEN YOU FAIL WOAH and I'm worried because trig is one of those suspiciously easy things, however I have gotten one or two questions wrong and I am TERRIFIED THAT WILL HAPPEN AAAAAH AAAAAH
anyway after tuesday it will be all good. Because it will.
And despite the writing thing I am looking forward to tomorrow. Hoorah etc
Monday, March 2, 2009
LET THE FOOLS HAVE THEIR TAR-TAR SAUCE
Doo-dee d000
so yes I am quite indeed a Libra type person
indecisive and always changing opinion
ahahah
anyway we had a duathlon type thingy today. It actually wasn't that bad but for some reason I sucked at swimming despite usually being quite good at it.
I was in a bad mood in the morning, and then I had iced coffee at lunch and it was delicious I haven't had it in so long.
Anyway now it's 5.40 and I've just been on the interwebs. WHOO
so I need to eat my lunch, I didn't get to have any but I don't really feel like it but I need to anyway so there.
I got a bit of sunburn of course, I can not go out in to the sun without getting sunburnt seriously.
Last night I was loading a whole bunch of tabs and I have them all open now and want to try them ahahahaha.
Basically homework is lame.
What is this crappery?
AAAAAAAAAAH holy crap I just looked out the window and saw a person peering through the blinds of the house next door. They weren't looking this way but for some reason it freaked me out. Ahahahaah! They were like right up against the window like "WHAT IS THIS HELLOO"
I... don't know. Really.
Also DID YOU KNOW I really am still obsessed with Muse
Did you know
yeah probably
THERE IS A LOT OF STRANGE HOSTILITY IN THE FOTC COMMS OVER AT LIVEJOURNAL.
Ediblestars gotted a new journal.
'Tis strange, indeed.
yeaaaaaaah I am getting off the internet soon. >=[
there was a quote about 64 slices of american cheese, and I cannot remember the next bit. This distresses me far more than it should.
You know what the HELL
So now I'm going to eat my lunch- hey my brother is at camp and I am the only person at home for basically the whole night... whoohoo. More excuses for me to procrastinate, BUT I MUSN'T
wait. what?
musn't? come to think of it that does look strange. mustn't. yeah... I dunno there. How odd!
BASICALLY SOME STUFF IS SUCKY, SOME STUFF IS NOT
And I have not written a song of the now for a while. I will do that at some stage.
(also the other day I played the sims and looked through the photos of one particular family, I felt ashamed because I COMPLETELY forgot about one of their kids. Anyway it was totally cute, GOOD TIMES GOOD TIMES)
pfffffffft lamefaces. New fotc episode out tomorrow, hmm I wonder what it will be like.
AU REVOIR GOING TO DO NON-INTERNET RELATED STUFF NOW
apart from looking for more tabs
ALSO WHAT IS WITH PEOPLE SUDDENLY ABRUPTLY CHANGING STUFF AND MAKING PEOPLE THINK THEY ARE ANGRY AND HATEFUL AT THE WORLD
WHAT
ALSO I am so so tired right now
Also "He took his lover’s mouth in a long, slow kiss he knew neither one of them would forget even though they were destined to never speak of what had happened between them on this chilly night in New York again."
Also WHAT
so yes I am quite indeed a Libra type person
indecisive and always changing opinion
ahahah
anyway we had a duathlon type thingy today. It actually wasn't that bad but for some reason I sucked at swimming despite usually being quite good at it.
I was in a bad mood in the morning, and then I had iced coffee at lunch and it was delicious I haven't had it in so long.
Anyway now it's 5.40 and I've just been on the interwebs. WHOO
so I need to eat my lunch, I didn't get to have any but I don't really feel like it but I need to anyway so there.
I got a bit of sunburn of course, I can not go out in to the sun without getting sunburnt seriously.
Last night I was loading a whole bunch of tabs and I have them all open now and want to try them ahahahaha.
Basically homework is lame.
What is this crappery?
AAAAAAAAAAH holy crap I just looked out the window and saw a person peering through the blinds of the house next door. They weren't looking this way but for some reason it freaked me out. Ahahahaah! They were like right up against the window like "WHAT IS THIS HELLOO"
I... don't know. Really.
Also DID YOU KNOW I really am still obsessed with Muse
Did you know
yeah probably
THERE IS A LOT OF STRANGE HOSTILITY IN THE FOTC COMMS OVER AT LIVEJOURNAL.
Ediblestars gotted a new journal.
'Tis strange, indeed.
yeaaaaaaah I am getting off the internet soon. >=[
there was a quote about 64 slices of american cheese, and I cannot remember the next bit. This distresses me far more than it should.
You know what the HELL
So now I'm going to eat my lunch- hey my brother is at camp and I am the only person at home for basically the whole night... whoohoo. More excuses for me to procrastinate, BUT I MUSN'T
wait. what?
musn't? come to think of it that does look strange. mustn't. yeah... I dunno there. How odd!
BASICALLY SOME STUFF IS SUCKY, SOME STUFF IS NOT
And I have not written a song of the now for a while. I will do that at some stage.
(also the other day I played the sims and looked through the photos of one particular family, I felt ashamed because I COMPLETELY forgot about one of their kids. Anyway it was totally cute, GOOD TIMES GOOD TIMES)
pfffffffft lamefaces. New fotc episode out tomorrow, hmm I wonder what it will be like.
AU REVOIR GOING TO DO NON-INTERNET RELATED STUFF NOW
apart from looking for more tabs
ALSO WHAT IS WITH PEOPLE SUDDENLY ABRUPTLY CHANGING STUFF AND MAKING PEOPLE THINK THEY ARE ANGRY AND HATEFUL AT THE WORLD
WHAT
ALSO I am so so tired right now
Also "He took his lover’s mouth in a long, slow kiss he knew neither one of them would forget even though they were destined to never speak of what had happened between them on this chilly night in New York again."
Also WHAT
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Sexy Results!
Okay now.
MUSE
so if someone asked me to describe Muse in one word it would be Sexy!!
Supermassive Black Hole is a Sexy song!!!
Muse is Sexy!!!!
If I had to choose one song to listen to for the rest of my life it would be Supermassive Black Hole!!!!
yeah. Sorry.
I think they are probably definitely a favourite band of mine.
Woo!
Anyway school today absolutely sucked times a million.
It was utterly boring and my legs are killing me and so is my back and my arms hurt a lot too. FREE extra day on the weekend could not have come at a better time. Thank you historical people for signing a treaty so people do not have to endure two consecutive first days of school.
Um yeah first day at school doing actual school stuff and it just was awful. We don't even have lockers yet for gods sakes. pathetic!
I hate my school. Even though it's like "the best school in nz blah blah blah privileges blah blah blah laptops blah blah blah!!!" yeah well it's uber expensive, everyone who goes there is rich to some extent, the laptops make your bags super heavy and jesus christ who needs them really? I am glad to have a laptop but AARRRGHHH and also I just dislike the school after going there for eleven years and also I hate everyone there. I hate my year group, in general. I know there are nice people? But if someone asked for my opinion on my year group, I would say I hate it.
SUCK IT, YEAR GROUP!!!
blah blah blah, lipservice lipservice a plague upon your living arrangements
so yeah today sucked. First impression of year 11: SUCKY AND BAD
hope stuff improves, I just feel totally sick of school. But everyone gets like that. I do feel more pleasantly inclined towards Alice's school but that seems stupid because this came upon very suddenly and is just me being negative towards my school and wanting to leave. I feel like I'm some sort of jumping the bandwagon person? Except really I'm just... expressing some opinions and thinking about it too much? yeah. Just felt I should POINT THAT OUT.
Alright that's it for now. When I go to sleep, it will be for a very long time tonight. =]
wow... I used a lot of my labels for this one. XDD
MUSE
so if someone asked me to describe Muse in one word it would be Sexy!!
Supermassive Black Hole is a Sexy song!!!
Muse is Sexy!!!!
If I had to choose one song to listen to for the rest of my life it would be Supermassive Black Hole!!!!
yeah. Sorry.
I think they are probably definitely a favourite band of mine.
Woo!
Anyway school today absolutely sucked times a million.
It was utterly boring and my legs are killing me and so is my back and my arms hurt a lot too. FREE extra day on the weekend could not have come at a better time. Thank you historical people for signing a treaty so people do not have to endure two consecutive first days of school.
Um yeah first day at school doing actual school stuff and it just was awful. We don't even have lockers yet for gods sakes. pathetic!
I hate my school. Even though it's like "the best school in nz blah blah blah privileges blah blah blah laptops blah blah blah!!!" yeah well it's uber expensive, everyone who goes there is rich to some extent, the laptops make your bags super heavy and jesus christ who needs them really? I am glad to have a laptop but AARRRGHHH and also I just dislike the school after going there for eleven years and also I hate everyone there. I hate my year group, in general. I know there are nice people? But if someone asked for my opinion on my year group, I would say I hate it.
SUCK IT, YEAR GROUP!!!
blah blah blah, lipservice lipservice a plague upon your living arrangements
so yeah today sucked. First impression of year 11: SUCKY AND BAD
hope stuff improves, I just feel totally sick of school. But everyone gets like that. I do feel more pleasantly inclined towards Alice's school but that seems stupid because this came upon very suddenly and is just me being negative towards my school and wanting to leave. I feel like I'm some sort of jumping the bandwagon person? Except really I'm just... expressing some opinions and thinking about it too much? yeah. Just felt I should POINT THAT OUT.
Alright that's it for now. When I go to sleep, it will be for a very long time tonight. =]
wow... I used a lot of my labels for this one. XDD
Tuesday, February 3, 2009
Malk- Now with Vitamin R
THERE'S A DOIN'S A TRANSPIRIN'
okay, that's definitely a new label for this blog.
Oh, this means the word count is now changed. A BOTHER. Oh well. It's allowed to just be a rough thing.
I am SO TIRED I want to sleep
And do you know what sucks
Today I tried a Very Evil Energy Drink
It tasted like SUGAR
It was pure SUGAR
The actual flavour was just SUGAR
It was awful
I mean holy crap!!!
I am never having one again. So that is something I can tick off my to-do list: Try an energy drink
And what sucks is that I am SO TIRED I cannot even utilise the energy I supposedly received from this drink
FAIL!!!!
Anyway so today was the first day of school!!!
Exciting!!!!
Not. It was utterly boring
Fortunately we only have one class with our form class, as my class has a certain O.B in it (dear god) and my only friend is Vicky, and like Marijke in her class I was sitting in the front by myself.
A-WHOOHOO
And I am in a maths class UGH I had maths there once it was awful
Sucky times!
Anyway I have the same Spanish teacher as I have had the last two years which is so totally awesome
And Sam and Jordan are in my English class so that is good.
We have maths every day (bad) and very very shiny pure white diaries (cool)
But the diaries have nowhere to write your timetable (stupid)
Anyway, swimming trials were lame I didn’t have to do them (woohoo!) so I got to sit there
It was utterly boring
So anyway during swimming I realised that I really, after many years here do not actually care about the school. So here is an Exciting School Lowdown!!!
Well. So Senior College is where friends have gone to, and naturally if they hadn’t gone first I would never even have considered going (as I had never even heard of it before.) The reason I don’t care about the school? The people. There are lots of nice people, but if all my friends left I really wouldn’t get along well enough with anyone else to consider them good friends. There are lots of nice cool people and lots of, well… you know. That’s the majority of my year group, and it really sucks.
So, anyway I am going to do an exciting pro’s ‘n’ con’s list!!! I know those apostrophe thingies shouldn’t be there but they are.
PROS!!! (of going to senior college and leaving my current school)
a) transport! Exciting! I would be able to get the train in to town, then walk up the whole of town to get to there. If I had a skateboard (not the current one I am borrowing from my cousin which has dragonball z on the other side, erm.) I could skate all the way down town to the train station; exciting! If I learnt to drive I could drive to the train station near my house and then go in the car to my house afterwards- radical!!! Hahahah.
b) It’s in town. That’s pretty cool. You can go wherever at lunchtime…well sort of.
c) In sport you do bowling and extreme Frisbee or whatever it’s called- my p.e teacher told me I was good at that. XDD
d) FREE TIME!! You can maybe go home early
e) Can wear whatever
f) Guys, that will be interesting because I have never been in a school with them before, it would be cool to have guy friends I guess
g) I can get new experiences and not stay at the same school
h) I don’t know many people there can meet new people omgwow
i) Don’t have to carry around friggin’ laptops
CONS!!!
a) will leave old school, would mean I can’t be an “old girl”
b) would be abandoning old friends
c) senior college goes for a lot longer, pretty boring!
d) Apparently more difficult?
e) Some different exam type??
f) Don’t know anyone there apart from like four people
g) Have to carry around friggin’ laptops
Well that’s all I can think of for now. Sorry Alice, but I kinda like your school? I mean, I won’t act on it or anything, so don’t worry. It’s totally fine, you can talk to me about how great it is with you and your school and it won’t hurt my feelings. I’ll just write angsty poetry about it for a while. XDD (ooooh seewhatIdidthere?)
Nah I guess it’s just my interest in said school is somewhat unprecedented… that’s the right word right.
Also! Sad stuff! Last year me and geeg were being srsly cool and singing along to I can’t decide (as you do) and the response was not POSITIVE!! I do believe Rekha said “I don’t like that sort of silly music” and Alice was most unimpressed.
I’LL HAVE YOU KNOW ALICE, THAT IN SOME PARTS OF THE INTERNET YOUR OPINION IS FROWNED UPON GREATLY.
Upsetting!!
Still they couldn’t have chosen a better song for that scene. Radical! (I don’t know why I keep on saying that.) I mean and that little sort of swoopy high up bit on “whether you”??
RADICAL!!!
I seriously love that song. I have also watched that scene far too many times.
Fun fact!!! The first episode I saw was the doomsday one!!
Fun fact!!! The blink angels don’t scare me unless I’m watching the episode!! THAT SCREECHY MUSIC IS SO SO SCARY
So anyway that’s what the haps are
It is a nice and sunny day, the promise of EXCITING THINGS TO COME!!!!!
So yeah. This school still really annoys me a lot of the time. I’m sorry, it’s my problem, I’ll deal with it.
I have a skill: easily and subtly incorporating quotes in to everyday conversations.
I do it all the time, without ANY OF YOU noticing.
By ANY OF YOU I mean EVERYONE.
I am quite proud of this.
Dinosaur comics are still my favourite comics
Now I just have to wait for my brother to get off the interwebs so that I can post this
Also!! I really want to watch 30 Rock! But the good thing is there is only one more episode of season two until the third season which is what is currently happening and that is exciting.
TODAY I DOWNLOADED AN INDIE PLAYLIST and so far it has been pretty good.
Also! I plan on taking a photo of myself every day. (lolvain)
No but it’s like… I dunno just one of those fun things to do. I probably won’t end up doing it for the whole year probably a few months at the most but still interesting amirite? Well interesting for me and of course afterwards make a movie of it all. Jolly good. I’m all about the little projects this year.
It seems I will also occasionally take pictures of my desktop throughout the year, EXCITING!!!!
Also: I look forward to using my new stationery!! (is that the right one? AAAH)
Total word count: 1,151
well it's not anymore. ahahah.
SONGS!!!: Lamposts by Bell X1 and Pretty Life by Jakalope
ADDITIONAL!: HOW DO YOU ENABLE COOKIES?? There doesn't seem to be a place to do this. WHERE THE HELL ARE THE COOKIES/!?!??! I FRIGGIN' HATE THE DAMN COOKIES NO ONE EVER EXPLAINS THEM TO ME AAAAAARRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHH
okay, that's definitely a new label for this blog.
Oh, this means the word count is now changed. A BOTHER. Oh well. It's allowed to just be a rough thing.
I am SO TIRED I want to sleep
And do you know what sucks
Today I tried a Very Evil Energy Drink
It tasted like SUGAR
It was pure SUGAR
The actual flavour was just SUGAR
It was awful
I mean holy crap!!!
I am never having one again. So that is something I can tick off my to-do list: Try an energy drink
And what sucks is that I am SO TIRED I cannot even utilise the energy I supposedly received from this drink
FAIL!!!!
Anyway so today was the first day of school!!!
Exciting!!!!
Not. It was utterly boring
Fortunately we only have one class with our form class, as my class has a certain O.B in it (dear god) and my only friend is Vicky, and like Marijke in her class I was sitting in the front by myself.
A-WHOOHOO
And I am in a maths class UGH I had maths there once it was awful
Sucky times!
Anyway I have the same Spanish teacher as I have had the last two years which is so totally awesome
And Sam and Jordan are in my English class so that is good.
We have maths every day (bad) and very very shiny pure white diaries (cool)
But the diaries have nowhere to write your timetable (stupid)
Anyway, swimming trials were lame I didn’t have to do them (woohoo!) so I got to sit there
It was utterly boring
So anyway during swimming I realised that I really, after many years here do not actually care about the school. So here is an Exciting School Lowdown!!!
Well. So Senior College is where friends have gone to, and naturally if they hadn’t gone first I would never even have considered going (as I had never even heard of it before.) The reason I don’t care about the school? The people. There are lots of nice people, but if all my friends left I really wouldn’t get along well enough with anyone else to consider them good friends. There are lots of nice cool people and lots of, well… you know. That’s the majority of my year group, and it really sucks.
So, anyway I am going to do an exciting pro’s ‘n’ con’s list!!! I know those apostrophe thingies shouldn’t be there but they are.
PROS!!! (of going to senior college and leaving my current school)
a) transport! Exciting! I would be able to get the train in to town, then walk up the whole of town to get to there. If I had a skateboard (not the current one I am borrowing from my cousin which has dragonball z on the other side, erm.) I could skate all the way down town to the train station; exciting! If I learnt to drive I could drive to the train station near my house and then go in the car to my house afterwards- radical!!! Hahahah.
b) It’s in town. That’s pretty cool. You can go wherever at lunchtime…well sort of.
c) In sport you do bowling and extreme Frisbee or whatever it’s called- my p.e teacher told me I was good at that. XDD
d) FREE TIME!! You can maybe go home early
e) Can wear whatever
f) Guys, that will be interesting because I have never been in a school with them before, it would be cool to have guy friends I guess
g) I can get new experiences and not stay at the same school
h) I don’t know many people there can meet new people omgwow
i) Don’t have to carry around friggin’ laptops
CONS!!!
a) will leave old school, would mean I can’t be an “old girl”
b) would be abandoning old friends
c) senior college goes for a lot longer, pretty boring!
d) Apparently more difficult?
e) Some different exam type??
f) Don’t know anyone there apart from like four people
g) Have to carry around friggin’ laptops
Well that’s all I can think of for now. Sorry Alice, but I kinda like your school? I mean, I won’t act on it or anything, so don’t worry. It’s totally fine, you can talk to me about how great it is with you and your school and it won’t hurt my feelings. I’ll just write angsty poetry about it for a while. XDD (ooooh seewhatIdidthere?)
Nah I guess it’s just my interest in said school is somewhat unprecedented… that’s the right word right.
Also! Sad stuff! Last year me and geeg were being srsly cool and singing along to I can’t decide (as you do) and the response was not POSITIVE!! I do believe Rekha said “I don’t like that sort of silly music” and Alice was most unimpressed.
I’LL HAVE YOU KNOW ALICE, THAT IN SOME PARTS OF THE INTERNET YOUR OPINION IS FROWNED UPON GREATLY.
Upsetting!!
Still they couldn’t have chosen a better song for that scene. Radical! (I don’t know why I keep on saying that.) I mean and that little sort of swoopy high up bit on “whether you”??
RADICAL!!!
I seriously love that song. I have also watched that scene far too many times.
Fun fact!!! The first episode I saw was the doomsday one!!
Fun fact!!! The blink angels don’t scare me unless I’m watching the episode!! THAT SCREECHY MUSIC IS SO SO SCARY
So anyway that’s what the haps are
It is a nice and sunny day, the promise of EXCITING THINGS TO COME!!!!!
So yeah. This school still really annoys me a lot of the time. I’m sorry, it’s my problem, I’ll deal with it.
I have a skill: easily and subtly incorporating quotes in to everyday conversations.
I do it all the time, without ANY OF YOU noticing.
By ANY OF YOU I mean EVERYONE.
I am quite proud of this.
Dinosaur comics are still my favourite comics
Now I just have to wait for my brother to get off the interwebs so that I can post this
Also!! I really want to watch 30 Rock! But the good thing is there is only one more episode of season two until the third season which is what is currently happening and that is exciting.
TODAY I DOWNLOADED AN INDIE PLAYLIST and so far it has been pretty good.
Also! I plan on taking a photo of myself every day. (lolvain)
No but it’s like… I dunno just one of those fun things to do. I probably won’t end up doing it for the whole year probably a few months at the most but still interesting amirite? Well interesting for me and of course afterwards make a movie of it all. Jolly good. I’m all about the little projects this year.
It seems I will also occasionally take pictures of my desktop throughout the year, EXCITING!!!!
Also: I look forward to using my new stationery!! (is that the right one? AAAH)
Total word count: 1,151
well it's not anymore. ahahah.
SONGS!!!: Lamposts by Bell X1 and Pretty Life by Jakalope
ADDITIONAL!: HOW DO YOU ENABLE COOKIES?? There doesn't seem to be a place to do this. WHERE THE HELL ARE THE COOKIES/!?!??! I FRIGGIN' HATE THE DAMN COOKIES NO ONE EVER EXPLAINS THEM TO ME AAAAAARRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHH
Monday, February 2, 2009
Kippers for breakfast, Aunt Helga? Is it St. Swithins day already?
exciting happenstances!
tomorrow there is school
and it SUCKS!!
but good things
a) we don't have to be there 'til 12
b) I get to see friends and stuff
bad things
a) we have swimming trials
b) we have athletics trials
c)I know what my class is and I have one friend in it but there might not be anyone else OMG
but I don't know that for sure.
anyway I always have lots to talk about, but it's usually kinda boring.
I went to guitar today and my teacher has a new cat
and it's a little kitten and it's SO CUTE
I don't know why I feel the need to say this but it was just such a cute cat
anyway I am hoping that this will be a bueno school year
as long as I don't have a bad spanish teacher
so yeah I am thinking that:
a) I shall buy a cool bag for school
b) I shall buy 30 Rock season 2
d) I would like to buy super funky headphones
c) I shall buy tickets to concerts (including maybe the killers because that would be great, but NINETY-NINE DOLLARS, PEOPLE)
I'm not MADE of money!!! Although I do have a substantial amount right now. good times
anyway yet again I had a sucky dreamtime, I had various strange dreams ending in there being a huge flood and us trying to get through it by driving straight through super fast, which resulted in charging in to it and hearing a huge BOOM noise and waking up.
Sucky! And this follows up to my dream of a killer dog the other night, where it made me wake up at six and so did this one.
After that I had nice(ish) confusing dreams.
You know what sucks? fotc are going to tour US and with them will be the usual group and also for some shows IRON AND WINE
WHAT/!!?!?
that just sucks no fair
anyway
oooh I just found this place on livejournal which has absurd amounts of like indie stuff and whatnot
so I'mma hafta check that place out and find some stuff it seems pretty cool!
so actually I'm bored now
so au revoir for now
this was a boring post ahahaha
tomorrow there is school
and it SUCKS!!
but good things
a) we don't have to be there 'til 12
b) I get to see friends and stuff
bad things
a) we have swimming trials
b) we have athletics trials
c)I know what my class is and I have one friend in it but there might not be anyone else OMG
but I don't know that for sure.
anyway I always have lots to talk about, but it's usually kinda boring.
I went to guitar today and my teacher has a new cat
and it's a little kitten and it's SO CUTE
I don't know why I feel the need to say this but it was just such a cute cat
anyway I am hoping that this will be a bueno school year
as long as I don't have a bad spanish teacher
so yeah I am thinking that:
a) I shall buy a cool bag for school
b) I shall buy 30 Rock season 2
d) I would like to buy super funky headphones
c) I shall buy tickets to concerts (including maybe the killers because that would be great, but NINETY-NINE DOLLARS, PEOPLE)
I'm not MADE of money!!! Although I do have a substantial amount right now. good times
anyway yet again I had a sucky dreamtime, I had various strange dreams ending in there being a huge flood and us trying to get through it by driving straight through super fast, which resulted in charging in to it and hearing a huge BOOM noise and waking up.
Sucky! And this follows up to my dream of a killer dog the other night, where it made me wake up at six and so did this one.
After that I had nice(ish) confusing dreams.
You know what sucks? fotc are going to tour US and with them will be the usual group and also for some shows IRON AND WINE
WHAT/!!?!?
that just sucks no fair
anyway
oooh I just found this place on livejournal which has absurd amounts of like indie stuff and whatnot
so I'mma hafta check that place out and find some stuff it seems pretty cool!
so actually I'm bored now
so au revoir for now
this was a boring post ahahaha
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Sorry about this.
Extreme emo ahead you really don’t have to read this but I really had to post it.
Well earlier I planned on posting a cheerful blog
Never mind that
So you know what I hate?
At my school, there is this thing called GATE. It stands for gifted and talented education or something dumb like that.
Anyway, as you might have guessed it’s for gifted and talented children
And I freaking hate it.
I mean nothing against the gat kids, a lot of my friends are in that program thing. But the problem is the way they flaunt it around, sending emails and stuff. No I don’t mean the kids in it, I mean the teacher people. They’re all like “ooh blah blah gate children blah blah blah look how great they are they get to go out of class to do advanced stuff because they’re so smart and obviously their skills need honing because they don’t know how to use them!”
Oh great. So basically… who gives a crap about people who aren’t gifted because they’re gonna be failures anyway! It’s like if you don’t have a talent or extreme skill these days, you are going to end up in the slums with five kids and a job selling grease.
I know my opinion is probably incorrect but it still angers me a lot.
Of course, it reminds me of a quote.
“We both know these children have no future!”
thanks, thanks a lot. It’s great for people who are generally not recognised and don’t stand out as geniuses. Whoo. Hoo.
And not to mention those overachievers who cry if they get a merit, or don’t get all e’s in exams, and who panic that they are going to fail in life if they don’t study more, and these are the people who are admired by all and always win prizes. Generally these people are cool but stop it you are really depressing the people not as smart as you.
So yeah, to achieve in this world you have to have an IQ of 200
That’s really great
I feel so hopeful about my future
I don’t even know why I’m taking writing, I don’t care about writing or reading these days as much as I used to… also we are making picture books apparently and I care not for picture books.
I would like to be in a band, but I am a girl in new Zealand. Yeah I’m gonna gain worldwide success aren’t I?
And in other news, everyone wants me to quit piano.
That’s great and all it sucks that you have to pay and you think it’s the easy way out but you’re not the one who has to quit are you?
The comp has been taken away from me because I haven’t said a word about it
I just can’t talk about it (but I am on the comp as they are all out)
They don’t seem to understand that I can’t just decided like that (oh hey what do you know, “I can’t decide” I bought that cd today.)
They think I have no thoughts on the matter
That I don’t care about piano at all and that I hate it and should just quit
Firstly I do hate piano.
Secondly I can’t quit
I just can’t
Because… I hate it and have never liked it but hearing others play the piano really well is still quite amazing. And I would like to be like that but never will be, so yeah what is the point if it’s not going to help me in life.
But I feel like I can’t quit, it’s something that even though I hate practising and never play when I’m not practicing I still like it and people think I’m alright at it
I am alright at it, not great in fact I’m useless compared to loads like those four year old kids who can play huge complex pieces
And you know I never really get compliments otherwise it’s not like I’m a genius photographer like Alice, or good at art like Rekha and the van shaards
I can’t write like Lucy or Laura
I’m not a genius like Rebecca
I don’t understand maths and I get confused at chemistry
Science I like but I’m hardly a master
So yeah.
Also I feel like I’d be letting people down by quitting, I mean I have played for so long it’s just stupid to quit now.
And I want to so much. But I can’t
And I still hate my school for pampering the smart kids
I feel like I have to prove I am smart, I just feel like winning prizes in prizegiving and everything
And another thing, I have no other school related activities I am in. If I quit piano then I have absolutely nothing to put on my other activities blah blah blah sheet even though I do guitar and swimming.
I never win awards
I haven’t since year three.
I guess you could say I am writing this for attention and sympathy but I’m not
I wrote this on a word document for starters
And well I’m just going to post it and I do not want attention or sympathy even though I’m putting myself down in the sort of way people do when they want sympathy blah blah blah
I don’t always feel like this but you know how people get
It’s like the name of that nirvana song “I hate myself and want to die”
Congratulations on naming a song that everyone in the world will relate to at some point in their life. Gold star for you.
So well you can just ignore this and that would probably be better
And I should maybe not post it but really
I want to know what to do about quitting
I know Alice quit flute and felt kinda the same way
I think
And I got a cd for my dad I was going to play it for him when he got home
But when he got home I was in my room utterly miserable
Thanks for ruining a good day everyone.
That is all. Sorry for the extreme emo
By the way, I don’t usually get like this. Usually at night time or when sucky stuff happens. It’s like the name of that paramore song “for a pessimist I’m pretty optimistic”
I don’t actually really listen to paramore though.
…they like Twilight.
It doesn't matter though. In the end I'm going to end up quitting.
Well earlier I planned on posting a cheerful blog
Never mind that
So you know what I hate?
At my school, there is this thing called GATE. It stands for gifted and talented education or something dumb like that.
Anyway, as you might have guessed it’s for gifted and talented children
And I freaking hate it.
I mean nothing against the gat kids, a lot of my friends are in that program thing. But the problem is the way they flaunt it around, sending emails and stuff. No I don’t mean the kids in it, I mean the teacher people. They’re all like “ooh blah blah gate children blah blah blah look how great they are they get to go out of class to do advanced stuff because they’re so smart and obviously their skills need honing because they don’t know how to use them!”
Oh great. So basically… who gives a crap about people who aren’t gifted because they’re gonna be failures anyway! It’s like if you don’t have a talent or extreme skill these days, you are going to end up in the slums with five kids and a job selling grease.
I know my opinion is probably incorrect but it still angers me a lot.
Of course, it reminds me of a quote.
“We both know these children have no future!”
thanks, thanks a lot. It’s great for people who are generally not recognised and don’t stand out as geniuses. Whoo. Hoo.
And not to mention those overachievers who cry if they get a merit, or don’t get all e’s in exams, and who panic that they are going to fail in life if they don’t study more, and these are the people who are admired by all and always win prizes. Generally these people are cool but stop it you are really depressing the people not as smart as you.
So yeah, to achieve in this world you have to have an IQ of 200
That’s really great
I feel so hopeful about my future
I don’t even know why I’m taking writing, I don’t care about writing or reading these days as much as I used to… also we are making picture books apparently and I care not for picture books.
I would like to be in a band, but I am a girl in new Zealand. Yeah I’m gonna gain worldwide success aren’t I?
And in other news, everyone wants me to quit piano.
That’s great and all it sucks that you have to pay and you think it’s the easy way out but you’re not the one who has to quit are you?
The comp has been taken away from me because I haven’t said a word about it
I just can’t talk about it (but I am on the comp as they are all out)
They don’t seem to understand that I can’t just decided like that (oh hey what do you know, “I can’t decide” I bought that cd today.)
They think I have no thoughts on the matter
That I don’t care about piano at all and that I hate it and should just quit
Firstly I do hate piano.
Secondly I can’t quit
I just can’t
Because… I hate it and have never liked it but hearing others play the piano really well is still quite amazing. And I would like to be like that but never will be, so yeah what is the point if it’s not going to help me in life.
But I feel like I can’t quit, it’s something that even though I hate practising and never play when I’m not practicing I still like it and people think I’m alright at it
I am alright at it, not great in fact I’m useless compared to loads like those four year old kids who can play huge complex pieces
And you know I never really get compliments otherwise it’s not like I’m a genius photographer like Alice, or good at art like Rekha and the van shaards
I can’t write like Lucy or Laura
I’m not a genius like Rebecca
I don’t understand maths and I get confused at chemistry
Science I like but I’m hardly a master
So yeah.
Also I feel like I’d be letting people down by quitting, I mean I have played for so long it’s just stupid to quit now.
And I want to so much. But I can’t
And I still hate my school for pampering the smart kids
I feel like I have to prove I am smart, I just feel like winning prizes in prizegiving and everything
And another thing, I have no other school related activities I am in. If I quit piano then I have absolutely nothing to put on my other activities blah blah blah sheet even though I do guitar and swimming.
I never win awards
I haven’t since year three.
I guess you could say I am writing this for attention and sympathy but I’m not
I wrote this on a word document for starters
And well I’m just going to post it and I do not want attention or sympathy even though I’m putting myself down in the sort of way people do when they want sympathy blah blah blah
I don’t always feel like this but you know how people get
It’s like the name of that nirvana song “I hate myself and want to die”
Congratulations on naming a song that everyone in the world will relate to at some point in their life. Gold star for you.
So well you can just ignore this and that would probably be better
And I should maybe not post it but really
I want to know what to do about quitting
I know Alice quit flute and felt kinda the same way
I think
And I got a cd for my dad I was going to play it for him when he got home
But when he got home I was in my room utterly miserable
Thanks for ruining a good day everyone.
That is all. Sorry for the extreme emo
By the way, I don’t usually get like this. Usually at night time or when sucky stuff happens. It’s like the name of that paramore song “for a pessimist I’m pretty optimistic”
I don’t actually really listen to paramore though.
…they like Twilight.
It doesn't matter though. In the end I'm going to end up quitting.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
If I could say a few words... then I'd be a much better public speaker
well it was busy at newmarket today, or "midtown" as they say. Actually, they don't say. Anyway, it was. Could not go very far without seeing someone you recognised. Anyway, discovered a pretty epic drink, Ramune. I mean, it has a marble that floats in it. It is nearly impossible to open. It has caaaaaaaaandy that tastes like it. And it tastes pretty great. I LOVE IT. Those crazy Japanese people. =D
Well, so, yeah! You know, I really could use a little waterproof laptop in the shower or something for jotting down notes. I always have the best blog musings there.
So, what annoys me is when people tell their kids that they are fat and have to do exercise when they are just normal. Yeah, way to promote "healthy" body image, guys. Give your kids bad self esteem and make them feel they have to be anorexic to be pretty and accepted, whoohoo! Jeez, let them feel comfortable how they are without feeling as if they have to be so skinny you can see their entire ribcage from the front and back. Lamefaces. I mean, I understand wanting them to be fit and eat healthy and all, but really now.
Aaaand, I notice no one seems to really listen to me. (oh, the tragedy!) No but seriously, I give these really inspirational impromptu speeches to my friends, and they are like "wow that was great" but by the next day they have forgotten everything I told them and go back to their usual, "I SUCK" thoughts. They go, oooh how sucky this is, how x I am, and I go, STOP YOU LOSERS. And set them straight, that they do not suck, or that they are just being lame and if they think like that they will suck, blah blah blah, and they go, wow, thanks, that was really cool, and then, no. It just seems nothing I say makes a difference? And I am being honest, not just one of those people who compliments people way too much when they are not actually that great, or whatever. I mean, if someone says "I'm so ugly" I'm not going to go, "no, you're GORGEOUS!!!" I am just going to go, shut up, you are not ugly, get over it. Okay, bad example, but trust me, I make inspirational speeches. ;D
Like one time I kinda said a lot of things and I got accused of trying to "reform and change" the person. And they were all angry and "this is who I am!!!"
Riiiight, so said person actually WANTS to whine and cry and hate their life and actually wants to complain about how much they suck and can't do anything. I just want them to be the positive, happy, downright hilarious person they used to be. They never properly make me laugh now, but they used to have me laughing till I cried. It helped me a lot when I was going through a "BAH LIFE SUCKS" phase.
Well, to be quite honest, I am just not going to bother any more. If they say, "oh I'm so stupid, I'm so bad at this" I'm just going to be like, yeah, you are! Deal with it. Change your self. I'm not giving you attention or compliments.
And well, other times, even if I am talking at a normal pitch, or maybe louder, sometimes I just talk and then realise the person is not listening and have to repeat myself. (No, this is not talking about the same person. In fact this little bit about not listening is referring to my family. XDDD)
DRAMATIC SIGH!!!!
I also seem to be the one left out, the one no one likes to tell things to, as if they DO NOT TRUST ME. Well that has not happened as much lately, but it happens A SUSPICIOUSLY LARGE AMOUNT. Hahahaha, I always seem to miss out when big revelations happen. Not that they do not trust me because I spill secrets or anything! I just do not seem to be too close to most of my friends, and even one of my close friends does not tell me stuff often. Have to torture it out of them.
Oh well! Hey I managed to angst about stuff without being angsty, now there is a skill I think we could all use. =D
Okay maybe I was a little angsty. =P I am still in high spirits however.
Dos canciones: 3 Libras- A Perfect Circle
Criminal- Fiona Apple
Well, so, yeah! You know, I really could use a little waterproof laptop in the shower or something for jotting down notes. I always have the best blog musings there.
So, what annoys me is when people tell their kids that they are fat and have to do exercise when they are just normal. Yeah, way to promote "healthy" body image, guys. Give your kids bad self esteem and make them feel they have to be anorexic to be pretty and accepted, whoohoo! Jeez, let them feel comfortable how they are without feeling as if they have to be so skinny you can see their entire ribcage from the front and back. Lamefaces. I mean, I understand wanting them to be fit and eat healthy and all, but really now.
Aaaand, I notice no one seems to really listen to me. (oh, the tragedy!) No but seriously, I give these really inspirational impromptu speeches to my friends, and they are like "wow that was great" but by the next day they have forgotten everything I told them and go back to their usual, "I SUCK" thoughts. They go, oooh how sucky this is, how x I am, and I go, STOP YOU LOSERS. And set them straight, that they do not suck, or that they are just being lame and if they think like that they will suck, blah blah blah, and they go, wow, thanks, that was really cool, and then, no. It just seems nothing I say makes a difference? And I am being honest, not just one of those people who compliments people way too much when they are not actually that great, or whatever. I mean, if someone says "I'm so ugly" I'm not going to go, "no, you're GORGEOUS!!!" I am just going to go, shut up, you are not ugly, get over it. Okay, bad example, but trust me, I make inspirational speeches. ;D
Like one time I kinda said a lot of things and I got accused of trying to "reform and change" the person. And they were all angry and "this is who I am!!!"
Riiiight, so said person actually WANTS to whine and cry and hate their life and actually wants to complain about how much they suck and can't do anything. I just want them to be the positive, happy, downright hilarious person they used to be. They never properly make me laugh now, but they used to have me laughing till I cried. It helped me a lot when I was going through a "BAH LIFE SUCKS" phase.
Well, to be quite honest, I am just not going to bother any more. If they say, "oh I'm so stupid, I'm so bad at this" I'm just going to be like, yeah, you are! Deal with it. Change your self. I'm not giving you attention or compliments.
And well, other times, even if I am talking at a normal pitch, or maybe louder, sometimes I just talk and then realise the person is not listening and have to repeat myself. (No, this is not talking about the same person. In fact this little bit about not listening is referring to my family. XDDD)
DRAMATIC SIGH!!!!
I also seem to be the one left out, the one no one likes to tell things to, as if they DO NOT TRUST ME. Well that has not happened as much lately, but it happens A SUSPICIOUSLY LARGE AMOUNT. Hahahaha, I always seem to miss out when big revelations happen. Not that they do not trust me because I spill secrets or anything! I just do not seem to be too close to most of my friends, and even one of my close friends does not tell me stuff often. Have to torture it out of them.
Oh well! Hey I managed to angst about stuff without being angsty, now there is a skill I think we could all use. =D
Okay maybe I was a little angsty. =P I am still in high spirits however.
Dos canciones: 3 Libras- A Perfect Circle
Criminal- Fiona Apple
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
School, it is over
WELL.
Things have been pretty busy right now! Which I find stupid, as it is the end of the year, so it should be a chilling out time, not a busy busy busy flail time. Still. I seem to have a lot of things that are going to happen soon. Anyway, I just want it to be the holidays. Which it will be, soon. Just a little longer.
Hmm. A little apprehensive for next year, considering friends are leaving! Well, I mean, I will do fine without them, it is just... it will definitely be a bit more boring without them. Does that mean I will have more time for homework? Ooh, that sure is... exciting.
Well... yeah, had three shared lunches today. Haha, I guess the phrase shared lunch means having lunch together, although instead of sandwiches you just have chips and lollies and cake and then you feel like throwing up. It is pretty great.
Oooh, not quite as into the new nano ipods as I was before! Shock horror. I mean, I love them and all, and much as I want a pumpkin chromation orange ipod, it seems pointless to get it seeing as I have a functioning one already. And it would just be sad to abandon old Thrillho. I mean, the new ones are pretty thin. You can't throw them on the ground when they stop working. And also, they are not mixtape friendly. You have various artists on one album? They kind of have a spazz at you. Not good.
So, yeah.
I always have my "deep and meaningful blogworthy" thoughts in the most inconvenient places/times. Like, when just about to go to sleep or doing jobs. I cannot really go run to a laptop, and when I do write it down it kinda deflates in to fail.
Well, my goal is to rectify this situation. There will be more interesting blog posts, I guarantee! (Wait, didn't I already make a promise like this? Gah.)
Anyway. There will be.
I had $10.50 in library fines. I was not happy. No.
Things have been pretty busy right now! Which I find stupid, as it is the end of the year, so it should be a chilling out time, not a busy busy busy flail time. Still. I seem to have a lot of things that are going to happen soon. Anyway, I just want it to be the holidays. Which it will be, soon. Just a little longer.
Hmm. A little apprehensive for next year, considering friends are leaving! Well, I mean, I will do fine without them, it is just... it will definitely be a bit more boring without them. Does that mean I will have more time for homework? Ooh, that sure is... exciting.
Well... yeah, had three shared lunches today. Haha, I guess the phrase shared lunch means having lunch together, although instead of sandwiches you just have chips and lollies and cake and then you feel like throwing up. It is pretty great.
Oooh, not quite as into the new nano ipods as I was before! Shock horror. I mean, I love them and all, and much as I want a pumpkin chromation orange ipod, it seems pointless to get it seeing as I have a functioning one already. And it would just be sad to abandon old Thrillho. I mean, the new ones are pretty thin. You can't throw them on the ground when they stop working. And also, they are not mixtape friendly. You have various artists on one album? They kind of have a spazz at you. Not good.
So, yeah.
I always have my "deep and meaningful blogworthy" thoughts in the most inconvenient places/times. Like, when just about to go to sleep or doing jobs. I cannot really go run to a laptop, and when I do write it down it kinda deflates in to fail.
Well, my goal is to rectify this situation. There will be more interesting blog posts, I guarantee! (Wait, didn't I already make a promise like this? Gah.)
Anyway. There will be.
I had $10.50 in library fines. I was not happy. No.
Thursday, December 4, 2008
OH erm I have capslock problems.
Caffeine makes me sleepy, not energetic.
Excuse me for a moment.
:
AAAAAAAARGHGODDAMMNIT
WHYAAARGHTYPINGWITHOUTSPACESISREALLYHARDAAAARGH
ASDGAHSGA;
HGA;SIFGHSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPID!!!!
WHYDIDTHISIDIOCYHAPAPOYSDFASDGAAARGHSAOGIHAOFIH
GOAIGHAWYTAHOSYJVEANOADSHGASASTUPIDSEXYFLANDERS
ASDKGHASOGHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGGGG
GGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Anyway. Well I would like to talk but... I have a slight suspicion if seen on the interwebs I will be told to get off the interwebs, as I have a science test tomorrow and I am possibly a little doomed. (That subject was SO short! Biochemistry, it is really rather fascinating.)
Well and also? Well I like to draw but I am not THAT GREAT, I only draw people really so and well I have to illustrate aforementioned french story- I HAVE DRAWN ONE THING- by tomorrow, asdfasdfasdf aaaaaaaaaaand then and then I can relax at a friends, and then and then, well, I have p.e LAST I think which makes me mad but is also handy! for getting changed straight in to STREET CLOTHES ooh and erm uh erm well you see, then on monday I have a maths test, as well as having to present a social studies powerpoint on josef stalin and a spanish poster about christmas.
Now I love spanish, but this poster, I cannot understand IT. I mean, I cannot wrap my head around it, I have NO IDEA what I am doing and have done, very very little.
It holds NO interest for me. It is just... different. Okay. Yeah.
Well above rant was.... well not about any of those things, let me rant about those things in mental person form.
asdasdoADSOGHAGHAOGH
AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
NOASHDGOASHGOIAHGAOIGH
more concise, aaaaaaaargh shut up shut up.
bleh stupidity. Um... aaaaaand I had maths homework which I forgot about and as such have not done.
OH, WHAT A JOYOUS OCCASION.
B-I-G S-I-G-H!!!!!
No, for serious.
DOOM AND GLOOM!
I will have gotten over it, for the most part, by tomorrow afternoon.
(But not the first thing I yelled about. No, sir, I do not believe that will be happening.)
(Please do not be concerned for my general wellbeing, it has nothing to do with me, or any non fictional people. I know, I loser, I loser, I sorry.)
Oh yeah, need two more songs.
I POST TOMORROW.
Excuse me for a moment.
:
AAAAAAAARGHGODDAMMNIT
WHYAAARGHTYPINGWITHOUTSPACESISREALLYHARDAAAARGH
ASDGAHSGA;
HGA;SIFGHSTUPIDSTUPIDSTUPID!!!!
WHYDIDTHISIDIOCYHAPAPOYSDFASDGAAARGHSAOGIHAOFIH
GOAIGHAWYTAHOSYJVEANOADSHGASASTUPIDSEXYFLANDERS
ASDKGHASOGHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGGGG
GGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Anyway. Well I would like to talk but... I have a slight suspicion if seen on the interwebs I will be told to get off the interwebs, as I have a science test tomorrow and I am possibly a little doomed. (That subject was SO short! Biochemistry, it is really rather fascinating.)
Well and also? Well I like to draw but I am not THAT GREAT, I only draw people really so and well I have to illustrate aforementioned french story- I HAVE DRAWN ONE THING- by tomorrow, asdfasdfasdf aaaaaaaaaaand then and then I can relax at a friends, and then and then, well, I have p.e LAST I think which makes me mad but is also handy! for getting changed straight in to STREET CLOTHES ooh and erm uh erm well you see, then on monday I have a maths test, as well as having to present a social studies powerpoint on josef stalin and a spanish poster about christmas.
Now I love spanish, but this poster, I cannot understand IT. I mean, I cannot wrap my head around it, I have NO IDEA what I am doing and have done, very very little.
It holds NO interest for me. It is just... different. Okay. Yeah.
Well above rant was.... well not about any of those things, let me rant about those things in mental person form.
asdasdoADSOGHAGHAOGH
AAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
NOASHDGOASHGOIAHGAOIGH
more concise, aaaaaaaargh shut up shut up.
bleh stupidity. Um... aaaaaand I had maths homework which I forgot about and as such have not done.
OH, WHAT A JOYOUS OCCASION.
B-I-G S-I-G-H!!!!!
No, for serious.
DOOM AND GLOOM!
I will have gotten over it, for the most part, by tomorrow afternoon.
(But not the first thing I yelled about. No, sir, I do not believe that will be happening.)
(Please do not be concerned for my general wellbeing, it has nothing to do with me, or any non fictional people. I know, I loser, I loser, I sorry.)
Oh yeah, need two more songs.
I POST TOMORROW.
Monday, December 1, 2008
If you like hearing about the contents of my sandwich, then this is not the blog for YOU! (but similar things are inside)
Well like well um well er. So I had lots of things I thought about but do not feel like writing. Is this HOW IT IS GOING TO BE?? OHNOES!!!
Well today was a horrible weather day. First day of summer my foot. Disgusting. =D
Today was good. We had some good times inventing a lover named Tittles.
There was no maths and no french, which was good. EGADS this is going to become a MY DAY blog innit? FAIL FAIL HAHAHA.
Well, I am in one of those, "I have lots of thoughts but when it comes to writing I cannot remember" moments.
I hate them muchly. Well let me just share some musings on panic at the disco: all the "cool" people hate them but I LIKE them okay, because their first album is all dark and dancy and very dark purple in sound, and Intermission is freaking creepy okay, and then their next album is LOL GAY SKIPPING THROUGH FIELDS YAY LA LA LAAAAA~ which is also totally awesome. So, um, haters to the left???
Ho hum. Seriously, overcast days are UNINSPIRING!! Well I suppose in a way they can be, but no, not today. No thank you.
Yes, I always laugh to myself when people say "I want to see more of you." Maybe I am retarded. Or maybe everyone else is not as much of a dork as me.
Well.
Kind of sick of this week already! Heheheh well I am going to sleep, methinks.
But BY the way, we totally OWNED the entire rest of the class in drama with our little performance of that seven stages of man thing. Which we conjured up in two minutes. And one group did not even finish. Allow me to have a selfish gloating moment: HAH!
That is all. I shall return with more interesting things to say, I... PROMISE! There I said it. Now I have to share my musings. Hoorah.
SONG: In The Meantime- Spacehog
Well today was a horrible weather day. First day of summer my foot. Disgusting. =D
Today was good. We had some good times inventing a lover named Tittles.
There was no maths and no french, which was good. EGADS this is going to become a MY DAY blog innit? FAIL FAIL HAHAHA.
Well, I am in one of those, "I have lots of thoughts but when it comes to writing I cannot remember" moments.
I hate them muchly. Well let me just share some musings on panic at the disco: all the "cool" people hate them but I LIKE them okay, because their first album is all dark and dancy and very dark purple in sound, and Intermission is freaking creepy okay, and then their next album is LOL GAY SKIPPING THROUGH FIELDS YAY LA LA LAAAAA~ which is also totally awesome. So, um, haters to the left???
Ho hum. Seriously, overcast days are UNINSPIRING!! Well I suppose in a way they can be, but no, not today. No thank you.
Yes, I always laugh to myself when people say "I want to see more of you." Maybe I am retarded. Or maybe everyone else is not as much of a dork as me.
Well.
Kind of sick of this week already! Heheheh well I am going to sleep, methinks.
But BY the way, we totally OWNED the entire rest of the class in drama with our little performance of that seven stages of man thing. Which we conjured up in two minutes. And one group did not even finish. Allow me to have a selfish gloating moment: HAH!
That is all. I shall return with more interesting things to say, I... PROMISE! There I said it. Now I have to share my musings. Hoorah.
SONG: In The Meantime- Spacehog
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