John Paul, you my main man

HELP, I'm still an utterly paranoid lunatic looner nutcase psychopath
okay I'm not a psychopath but I am an utterly paranoid loser. I need someone to slap me,I need a general in the military, to slap me and shout "GET YO ACT TOGETHER, YOU LITTLE MAGGOT!! AIN'T NOBODY CARES ABOUT YOU, OR YOUR PATHETIC LIFE! DROP AND GIVE ME TWENTY!!!"
And then kick me so I fall over while trying to do twenty pushups
...actually I'm not really sure how this will help me get over my paranoia
is there anything you can do to stop being paranoid? It's completely irrational. But I can't heeeeeeeeeeeelp it. Heeeeeeeelp me!
You know, I think I know what helped me to become paranoid. THE SCHOOL. WITH THEIR CLAIMS OF WATCHING YOU WHEN YOU USE YOUR COMPUTER. SPYING ON YOU. ALL. THE DAMN. TIME.
THAT is why I am so paranoid. It's not like I'm looking up "how to blow up your school" on google or anything, I'm just paranoid! Like I said, it IS irrational, so yeah. But I think I can fairly say that's one of the causes for my paranoia. I mean it's not like anyone CARES what I'm doing (irrational, remember) but I can't but help think that I'll go "I TOTALLY think there should be Tony Harrison/Saboo fanfiction" and look it up for the lolz, and someone will be spying on me and go "WTF IS WRONG WITH THIS PERSON, ARREST HER IN THE NAME OF THE LAW!"
Also... I don't think I want Tony Harrison/Saboo fanfiction. That sounds...disturbing as hell, because you know, Tony Harrison is a pink bladder with tentacles. So.
The paranoia only happens when I feel particularly stupid about something, something I feel inherently embarrassed about because god knows why. So it's EVEN MORE STUPID, because I'm not paranoid ALL THE TIME, just some of the time. It's getting ridiculous.
Help meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

A peculiar coincidence happened today (I guess it wasn't reeeeeeeaally a coincidence, but it did strike me as rather peculiar.)
oh, yeah, and the Big Day Out was that thing that happened the other day? Yeah.
The Horrors, you guys! We were right up the front, it was most excellent. Although I didn't actually know any of their songs really, it was still cool, and the crowd was a bit crazy, I was practically falling over a lot of the time.

Anyway, I think I sat down for about, 45 minutes? In the course of the whole day? And it was a long day. And my feet were dead. The day after, I could barely walk. BUT! I have made a full recovery, hurrah hooray.
And of course there was MUSE.
MUSE YOU GUYS
Oh god they were so wonderful. I was in the D area, but quite far to the back, and there were lots of tall people and my vision was rather impaired by their height. Which was sucky and lame, I didn't get to see Chris headbanging like a lunatic, or Matt playing the guitar behind his head in Plug In Baby, or leaning against the amp, or doing a little floor slide, etc, etc.
BUT it was still great and wonderful and delightful, and they played Nishe, I mean wow. I was just listening to that now. XD

And I have ~*~officially~*~ scrobbled Muse 2000 times! I've listened to them more than that, but you know, that proves it's the bare minimum. XD

ANYWAY someone on the Muse boards (actually the guy I got my resistance boxset from, whoo!) said that if they returned it would probably be in November or December. OH PLEASE BE TRUE, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE (let me get what I want)
So yeah, they must return immediately. Ie in twelve months, whatever. So that I can arrive early, and get an excellent spot in the pit of mosh. So I can see everything, and be close to the front yet still able to jump up and down. (The jumping up and down at BDO was aweeeesome. So much fun!)

ANYWAY. I think that's all I have to report for now. I've been all obsessive and internet lurking as usual, and of course I have no one to uh, "squee" with, you know, because of that whole paranoia/embarrassment thing I have going on. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE IT COMES FROM, GUYS. I'M JUST...INHERENTLY EMBARRASSED ABOUT SOME THINGS, AND NOT OTHERS!! WHAT THE HELL?!

Guysssssss help me stop being paranoid, ookay?!?!


Also. My laptop is a pile of crap. It keeps
ELECTROCUTING ME
WHAT THE HELL
THIS IS BOLLOCKS
piece of junk. Stupid dells. Never buy a dell. They're crap okay.

Now, have this super awesome comic by Kate Beaton, who is also awesome. I think you should click on it. Okay.
Also: JAM!

Hang on-

Wait a moment. Wait a moment. Wait... wait. Just... just wait a moment there. Wait. Wait a moment.
I'm going to be SEVENTEEN THIS YEAR!?!?!?!?
Excuse me for a moment.


OHSHHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII-

STOP IT

Hi there,
stop being paranoid, there is no one behind you. And if there were I doubt they would be laughing at you for beling "lyk omg a total loser rofl!!!"
srsly though, the paranoia is not leaving, dammit this always happens. And I don't have it all the time it's only when I'm irrationally embarrassed by something. Epic fail!
I have no reason to be paranoid, no reason to be embarrassed by whatever random unexpected obsessions I have, but THIS ALWAYS HAPPENS
I'm just going to go, okay? And not be paranoid. DAMN IT ALL, I'M NOT GOING TO BE PARANOID!
There that's it. Goodbye.
Okay I'm losing my nerve, OKAY OKAY OKAY, FINE, FINE, THERE'S NO ONE THERE.

Aah, I managed to survive. Barely. What the hell is wrong with me I don't even know dammit

Time is running out

seriously though, it is.
I managed to wake up kind of early today. 9.40 ish. Not early, but early for me. Buhhhh I've only been able to get to sleep at around 2 in the morning and it sucks. So I decided to get up earlier, so that I would be more tired, so that I would get to sleep faster.
Uh that's all I have to say right now.

Edit: we just found a spider on a shoe OH GOD OH GOD IT'S HORRENDOUS

blah

Hmm so Lucy's party was good, I had fun, I was muy happy afterwards for some reason. Anyway the week has been going pretty fast and I haven't even really noticed that it's almost the end of term because I've been busy waiting for my Myooose box set which HASN'T ARRIVED and everyone is annoyed because there have been lots of delays in getting them sent and whatnot. LE SIGH!
Have a science test tomorrow, blah... yeah.
Blah it's 10.00... I never get things done.
I'll just wait for my boxset. Which will have to come tomorrow or I may be turned in to a mad raving lunatic. =[
well gj'bye!

Lemon.

tomorrow pour l'ecole we have stupid House Music. ARGGHBLEH... I have to dress as a farmer, how original. Our house has decided to do New Zealand culture! I repeat: how original! Uuuuuuuuuugh. I just cannot be bothered. What the hell.
Cannot be bothered with this upcoming week, as a matter of fact. Nothing else matters but the end of the week. I'm ignoring leaks, so that's when it will be. MUSE. The Re-friggin-sistance! Hahaha. It seems that is the same day as Lucy's party. I am quite glad to find out I get it on Saturday and not friggin' Monday. Says release in Australia is the 12th, so I assume that's the same for New Zealand. WHOO HOO. Of course that means that everyone at Lucy's will be right annoyed at me because I'll just be yelling about Muse the whole time. As a matter of fact I think I might have a piano thingy on that day as well... which means even less time able to listen to it. aarrgh. Just..... aaarrrgh. Apparently Unnatural Selection is INSANE. WHOOOO.
Anyway that's all. Just wanted to post a short blog.
Spent some time today playing runescape with mon frere. We shouted insults at each other the whole time. It was great. Most of them involved the word "mule" in some way. We had insults such as steamed ham mule, steamed clams mule and aurora borealis mule, to name a few. hahahaha. =D

Aww, crap. Just remembered that I don't have a swandri-esque shirt for house music. OH WELL!!!! I GUESS I CAN'T GO THEN!! THAT'S A SHAME! Never mind the fact that I don't really have any proper shorts, or normal looking gumboots. I have... green spotty gumboots. And I ask you: how on earth are you supposed to dance in gumboots? It's difficult enough walking in them for crying out loud. I really don't think that this has been thought through too well. Sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeesh

“WTF Hargrid?” I shouted angrily. “Fuck off you fjucking bastard.”

HAHAHA My Immortal. The best fanfiction ever. In a weird, twisted sense of the word.
Lol what an aggravating lame day.
I had sushi for lunch. It was yum! My mother didn't realise that sushi, ramen/udon noodles were Japanese food, as today she said "I've never had Japanese food before!"
In which I told her, "ma, Wagamama's is japanese food. Wagamama is a japanese word. Udon noodles and Ramen are Japanese. Sushi is JAPANESE."
so she then changed her wording to "I have Japanese food all the time!" hahaha.
Anyway, today a whole bunch of people were being SUPERCHUMPS.

It was only a couple of people really, but they're spoiling it for everyone else by saying a whole lot of crap like "OMG DA GROOP IS GOIN TO FALL APART!1!!!!" It's ridiculous. I also feel kind of annoyed by them saying this as they are a new person. I don't know why this counts for anything... it just seems that everything was fine until they came up and started acting absurd and making mountains out of molehills, figuratively but very certainly what they are doing. Them being a new person means that it seems they know all the logistics of our friends and have the tenacity to decide how everyone is behaving. Lol I know this is stupid but it bugs me for some reason. Which isn't really something I should do, always going "the old people" and "the new people." Although it is the truth. And I guess saying that means I don't find them to be a part of the friendship group. (Let me just add I hate using the word group. It's so damn aggravating, just like the phrase "hooking up." ARADGLAHDGOH)
I do find them to be a part- just that hey haven't been around as long so they can't quite make judgments and say things like "the group is falling apart!" when they've been around less than a year.
*facepalm*

Thing is, only a couple of people are mad at one another. This has gotten everyone else involved, and I hate discussing said things because it makes me feel like it's all just escalating if we talk about it. I don't know. Because, talking about it accepts that there's a problem and there really. really isn't. We're all (the sane ones that is) kind of pissed off at the crap starters now for being idiotic.

Basically, one person has gone crazy and decided that another friend has to stay away from her because she doesn't want to affect her? Or something? And so is trying to ignore her. One friend has decided to ~*~leave~*~ the group, some others think another one should be kicked out because she's too young and we might have a ~*~bad influence~*~ on her. FFS, we were FINE as far as goddamn influence goes before! Now we're flooded with people who are like LOL I'M CHEATING ON MAH BF WITH LYK 5 PEOPLE LOL"
okay so not that many. But you know. We were just a bit less vapid and guy obsessed to an annoying point than now.
One person, everyone is getting annoyed with (she's the LOL CHEATING one and the one who has decided the group is ~*falling apart~* and accusing people of random crap that I can't even remember now. She thinks the close relationship between two people is ruining the group (what the hell?) and that everyone hates this one other person (not true.) AARGH.
And Laura is all (from the happenings of today, no less!) I wanted to leave the group, I wanted to leave the school!
Eh. What?
I find some people's approach to dealing with things quite absurd.
Firstly, what's this LOL LEAVING THE GROUP 4 EVA BRB crap? It's like they can't deal. Apparently, people freak OUT about the possibility of LYK OMG HAVING A CRUSH ON SOMEONE! AND DEN THEY TOLD THE PERSON I HAVE A CRUSH ON! AND DEY HAVE A CRUSH ON ME LOL SO AWKWARD! TURNS OUT I DON'T HAVE A CRUSH ON THEM! WHOOPS I'D BETTA LEAVE COS IT'S RLLY AWKWARD AND SUCKY. kthx

So I guess that's the deal? And it's so pathetic and everyone's getting reallly riled up and I guess it can be mainly pinpointed to one shit-stirrer. WHOOP-DEE-DO!

Anyway. Let's get away from that angry ranting note and move on to other good stuff!
I PRE-ORDERED THE MUSE LIMITED EDITION BOX SET!! WHOO!!!! It's rad. RAD. TOTALLY RAD.
And here's something I wanted to do: A PICSPAM! WHOOOOO!
Is that six facepalms I hear in the distance?
OH WELL. =| srsface.
This is my chance to blatantly squee over Muse, okay? So... just deal with it for now. You get exciting pictures and you can ignore the keyboardmash. (I have to do it at some point, okay? OKAY?)


'Tis one of my favourite pictures, it's so sparkly. I suggest clicking to enlarge if you happen to care. XD



The annoying thing about blogger is that it puts the html for a picture at the top so you have to move it. RE: The picture: adfhasodighasgoih =D



He looks like a bird here. An awesome weird bird. ...Yeah. XD



This picture is absurd and therefore awesome. LOOK AT HIS FACE. XD



This picture be one of my favourites. =D



\o/!!!!!!!!!



AOGHASFOGHASFDOIGYQROEH WHAT



I have noticed that I seem to have a large amount of really freaky hilarious pictures of Dom. XD Anyway this picture is ASDOIGHASGIOH =D Matt looks FLUFFY. I know that's really rather odd but just look! LOOK. LOOK AT THIS PICTURE. FLUFFY. NOSE. MOUTH. WEIRD FLUFFY. What? Don't kill me for squeeing over pictures! /o\



LOOK AT HIS HAIR. LOOK AT IT. asdgehoflooooooooo



HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH WHAT.



WHOOO random piano srs picture ftw!



ASDGHADFDFHPERIYQOIUERSNDFBSMDGNBSJHEARGV HERGDFSJIJDFHGAODHGAVOUHTOPUAIHVIOPH OMG
=D =D =D =D HEADPHONES AND AARRGH



FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
=D =D =D I love this one it's aaaaah. =D!!!



ASDUHASOGUHASGOIH~!!!!! Best. There are a lot moar pictures that I want to add other than these ones but I'm not going to just to be nice I guess. XD



ORIGIN OF FLUFFINESS



AGAHSGOPIASHGSOIGH I know my comments are so intelligent and insightful. Shut up. (There's a girl in my form class who is doing year 13 maths. I... I feel so inferior. /o\)



Hahaha this picture is cute in a weird sort of way.

And now, a lulzy Matt picture:


And three pictures of Dom that just kill me. XDD




HAHAHA BEST

anyway that's all, finally!
Goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooodbye!

Feelin' fine.

I remember, years ago seeing 2001: A Space Odyssey. I was at maungawhai (I don't know how you spell that, eheh) I think it was easter. Hahah I was just thinking about it today. I didn't see the whole thing but I remembered there was an evil computer who killed people and when they shut it down it sung "daisy, daisy!" WEIRD. I want to watch that movie again it sounds cool. Anyway. I really have to do my speech.
Speech speech! Gotta do that... NOW. NOW. NOW!!!
Muse slash fails. Do you know why? Because they're DOIN' IT RONG.
seriously, it's not some ridiculous "OH DOM I LOVE YOU LET'S RUN AWAY TOGETHER!" "BUT MATT, WHAT WILL CHRIS DO?!" "OH IT'S OKAY, HE HAS TOM!!! LOLOLOL" AND THEY RUN OFF IN TO THE SUNSET AND HAVE ALIEN BABIES.
NO.
Lol I was on the slash comm on el jay and... NO NO NO. I came across a highly traumatic and disturbing chris/tom one, I just uhhh skimmed it before closing it because DO NOT WANT. ahahahahhahahaha seriously. It has to be ridiculous. That's basically it. Think hullabaloo! Set to angsty hyper chondriac music. AHAHAH
WHAT
Anyway. I had another traumatic and highly disturbing dream last night. (I'd had a disturbing dream on either monday or tuesday night.) Yyyyyyyyyyyyeah. it was truly bizarre. And what was odd, was that I woke up and went back to sleep and the dream continued in the same vein. Usually when you go back to sleep you have an entirely different dream. The first part was okay, if not highly odd. It... well I was thinking along with the dream, "yeah, go you! admitting it and all!" but afterwards I figured it was fairly odd. The dream then mutated in to a whole pile of rubbish designed to infuriate and distress me. Without being nightmarish! For the most part. At the last part, I was going oh god please let this be a dream oh god this had better not be real- OH THANK GOD, THIS IS A DREAM! NOW I JUST HAVE TO WAKE UP! and lo and behold I woke up, and lay there for a while feeling severely freaked out.
Today we went in to town. I got a t shirt. I GOT A T SHIRT OF EPIC PROPORTIONS.
EPIC PROPORTIONS. eheheheheeheheh.
Now, I must go search the interweb for info on Scientology so I can write my speech. Eeeeep.


Edit: AW CRAP IT'S 11.30 NOW!!! WHY IS TIME GOING SO FAST?!?? I HAVEN'T DONE ANYTHING. GODDD HELP ME
well I only have myself to blame. AARRRGH SCREW YOU, SPEECHES!
Also, screw you, tvtropes! DO YOU KNOW HOW ADDICTING THAT STUPID SITE IS. YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW JUST HOW MUCH IT IS. GODDAMMIT.

Sucky to the max

Okay I'm pissed. I missed the Green Day presale tickets (it was only for 24 hours jeez) and my old email account deactivated, a cool person on livejournal deleted their account, my facebook account was banned a few days ago and they didn't bother to explain why, I have another week of school and only a fortnight of holidays, I have a maths internal and a speech to do, JESUS CHRIST THIS IS A WHOLE LOAD OF CRAP.
Also I am using a sucky loaner computer! IT IS SUCKY TO THE MAX. It never goes to sleep? so you'll close it but it will stay on. So it's really hot and it dies quickly. Also the resolution of the screen is messed up and I don't know how to fix it, so whenever I scroll down it goes all slow and jerky and everything is wide and blurry. Ugh!
Also we got an external hard drive which is cool. Hmm.
Ssooooo.
I had stuff to say but I think I'll say it some other day. For now I should sleep or something... I have to write a speech. Yeah, yeah I have to do that. And, uh, learn it off by heart or some such thing. God. I'm screwed.
Good...night????

Here's some stuff!

SO I am not at school due to the fact that I'm all messed up in the immune system like. Thing is, I don't feel super bad, I actually feel a bit better now, but if I went to school it would be a nightmare. And now I've started coughing up phlegm, whoohoo! still all asthmatic, my head hurts if I move it, and I was dying of heat all night. Mouth is all furry, and my bones are all weak and achy.
Buuuut I just found out that Green Day are coming to New Zealand whoo! That will be something to look forward to... however it's in December. Ahahahahah okay then. So yeah I will be definitely going to that. Idk about ticket prices but I reckon I'll go anyway.
whooo!
aaaaaanyway I think I might go back to bed now. I am super tired. Uuuuugh.

Oh my god I'm dying

Uhhhhhhhhhhhhh my respiratory system is deciding to fail today. I inhale, okay mild pain in the oesophagusal area, then I exhale COUGH COUGH PAIN AARGH. It's just this annoying discomfort everywhere! It's awful. I know it doesn't sound awful but seriously, small tiny things can just RUIN YOUR LIFE!!!!!! no really it's awful. I hate it. It's horrible to breathe. And I just feel really rubbish in me lungs. Also I had sugar and now I'm all like WOOAOOAAOAH srsly though carbonated drinks these days! And don't get me started on energy drinks. For gods sake. Those things are just pure sugar, in liquid form. That's all. It's not like they even give you much energy! So having one every morning as a claim that you "need your energy" like some sort of businessman with coffee, is completely ABSURD!!!! For the love of god!!!! I mean really. You drink one of those and your teeth just... die a little inside. XDD hahahah!!!!!!!!! OH MAN OH GOD JEEZ also one time I had an energy drink and it was ATROCIOUS!!! and they put SO MUCH IN THEM!!!! they just HAD to make the drinks SUPER HUGE and give them EXTREME names like DEEEEMOOON, MOOOOTHEERRR, IIIIIIINK, RRRRRRAAARRRGGGGGHG ENERGY TO THE MAX ADFAHSDFOASDHFASDOARRRRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!
anyway I believe I said, "don't get me started on energy drinks." Well thanks a LOT GUYS, YOU COMPLETELY FAILED THAT ONE SMALL TASK.
I want to sleep sooooooo badly.
ohhhhhhhhhhhhh goddddd I want to sleep
Still my dad said I probably shouldn't go to school tomorrow and HELL YEAH I AM DOWN WITH THAT. This has been the WORST WEEK OF MY LIFE, for serious. Jesus christ!! I mean, it's not like serious bad. It's just all these small things building up to make this week lameass. That and it had no redeeming features whatsoever. It was just BOREDOM. ALL THE TIME. GOD. I just couldn't be BOTHERED doing ANYTHING. This probably has to do with it being mufti day and a whole heap of people being gone on a trip which gave a more laid back feel so no one really did much.
hahaha I edited my el jay page so it looks all nice and fancy like. I'm a bit of a novice at the old CSS. Fun times!!!! And before, I was lying on the ground laughing hysterically and throwing raisin boxes in the air that I found under the couch which I found hilarious. God I'm a MESS!!!
I don't want to go to school. =[ I'm going to say, NAY
weeeeeeeeell it felt good to get that all out. What a mess of garbled english.

Heheh lastfm just found 700+ scrobbles on my ipod. WHOOHOO get ready, lastfm profile! YOUSA GONNA GET ATTACKED

kill me now plz

I'm afraid he couldn't "bee" here

I am in a super bad mood.
I thought about this before in my mind, so I can't be bothered elaborating now. Let's keep it concise. I refuse to give a fuck what people think now. Don't you look at me disdainfully, with your "wtf srsly? that's so lame" face. People who look down on stuff think they're better than those who like stuff, because they can "see" that the thing sucks and they aren't deluded. I have talked about this before. Just PISS OFF. I don't give a shit. I don't care that doing something means you have no life, or that you have too much free time. I'll act however I want and like whatever I want and do whatever I want and say whatever I want and I don't care what you think because you are wrong. Okay?
Glad we cleared that up. I'm not going to defend myself anymore because I shouldn't have to. So if you say "why do you like that band?" I'm not going to go, "I just do, okay! I just like them! I dunno!" I'll just say "what the fuck do you care? Piss off"
complete with swearing. GOODNESS GRACIOUS
See I only swear if I'm pissed off. It just seems unnecessary otherwise. Like a certain someone... who kept freakin swearing all the time the other day. It just seemed pathetic like they were trying too hard. And it was the way they said it, so harshly. Like FFFUCK with the F so hard and angry and disgusting.
See in my head I swear a lot, and it's soft. You know, like, "aw crap not that damn hell ass crap bitches!" okay I don't say that. Hahah, what I'm saying is that it's just casual annoyance so the sounds are soft and roll off the brain tongue. But when you say it, it should come out soft as well if you don't mean it angrily. Look, obnoxious unnecessary swearing just angers me, okay?
So shuuuut the fuuuuuuuuuck up! =D

GARRRRRRRRR
Also I hate getting put in to a mould. People seem to think lately that I'm cute and innocent and sweet and would never hit anyone, and I never swear tra la laa~~!!! Grrr. I'm not "cute" gtfo. I'm not a "hardcore cool tough dude" either. I'm in the middle. Don't mollycoddle me! AARGH screw you guys
I need a friend who is like me but not. Someone who doesn't follow the constraints of society, using slang of the now and saying stuff like "just cassh." Woah how do you spell that actually? You know, casual without the ual. And doesn't always go on about having no life and doesn't always talk about OOOH BOYS SO HOT LOL!!!!!! someone who knows what I'm talking about, is a fandom person without the obnoxiousness you sometimes get with people who are always like "I has a cheeseburger" or "stupid song is stupid" because that's an internet person, not a fandom person. GOD DAMMIT

Goodbye.

Garrrrrrrrrr

Okay so school actually doesn't start on Wednesday. It starts on Tuesday.
AARRRRGGHHHH
MAN THAT'S ANNOYING
a whole day of holiday taken away from me.
......oh well.

>=[

soooooooooo yeah.
=|

hahahahaaha
coherency: I do not have it.
Okay this next bit is me just... rambling about guitars and stuff. listing. guitars. completely boring so you don't have to read it XDDDD

Matthew Bellamy's Guitars are the most drool-worthy guitars in the world. If I won the lottery, I would kind of have to buy one. They're around 10,000 New Zealand dollars. They're insane. I love them. I love all of them.

O_________________________O

The Glitterati and The Bomber and the most super uber customised one... that I don't know the name of. Haha it's called The Black Manson. The seven string Jazz Manson, The Seattle Manson and the M1D1 Manson (he smashed it!) Oooh I like the Mirror Manson. GAH SILVER BOMBER is uber shiny. Yes I AM telling you about all the guitars. In incredibly minor detail. Shut up. OOOOH Laser Manson. I've never really seen that one. IDK about the Ali Top one? Kaoss Manson... some of these guitars look pretty similar so Idk. ANYWAY YEAH.
DROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL
OH and that random guitar used in Hoodoo is ridiculously pretty. So yeah. Hahaha the rust relic one is cool. DUDE he has a LOT of guitars... or has had a lot of guitars. Phoar.
He threw one in the sea.

ASFASDFASD THE JT-RES ONE FOR PLUG IN BABY MUSIC VIDEO
is AMAZING
look you can just go now I'm just going to be flailing about these guitars okay. hahahaha. I'm kind of dying here though. These guitars are all EPIC. =D
Hmm, wiki says he threw the guitar in to the sand, not the sea. XD

ahaha fender stratocaster is an awesome name for a guitar
oooh but the Hoodoo guitar is a PRS 513 and it's ridiculously cool
ooooh Londaxe is a strange one
woah what? an eight string bass? O_o
and a ridiculously awesome electric double bass


OKAY I could just ramble some more buuuuuuuuuuuuut I wont
au revoir

GUESS WHAT

IT'S ACTUALLY: Ye olde town crier proclaimed crappy by all!

TODAY...well.
I mean it sucked and was also cool.
I'm not going to go into details about the sucky thing. (I forgot a neccessary item... neccessary for... getting merit. and...swimming.)

BUT I'M NOT GOING TO TALK ABOUT THAT.
Suppressing rage... repressing...suppressing...pushing deep deep down... it's not there, ignoring! La la laa~~~ I am happy and content.

I got home at 6 today. Yeah. I didn't have anything to eat until 3.40, on the way home (which took about an hour) my dad went to the shop for the dinners and bought a bag of chocolate fish and some LEMONADE QUENCHER hahaha I hate the word quencher. I think I dislike words that start with Q. Anyway that was some really good lemonade. It was ICY COLD AND THIRST QUENCHING! hahaha man quench is such a SILLY word. So yeah. I have discovered the joys of drinking stuff out of cartons! IT'S SO EASY! Man. Good times. Tomorrow is Friday did you know?

I am sad! First I had four followers, then one stopped following. Then I got another follower, and then another stopped following and seems to have baleeted their account and blog! I am sad. That is saddening! I liked their blog and didn't get to read their last posts. THIS ALWAYS HAPPENS, PEOPLE POST OKAY I'M LEAVING blogs and leave and I ALWAYS MISS THEM. Damn time differences.
Hurm.

I need to make more specific labels, like cheese, and stupidity. okay they are still fairly vague. I added another one.

buhhhhhhhhhhhhh

guhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I have been tired all day
and it was a perfectly fine day until now, I am in a bad mood now. Why? Just because I am.
Lame stuff:
Tomorrow is duathlon
tomorrow is piano
tomorrow is mufti and I will have to lug around my laptop
tomorrow I have homework due at least it is not much

at least I don't have writing tomorrow I don't think I could be bothered
anyway
so we went on a ~*~retreat~*~ thing
it was alright
I mean we did random group stuff and that was kind of mediocre and boringish
and they put all the food on the tables (yeah fantastic idea shared lunch not)
and when it was finally lunch I got like... a wafer, a chocolate fish, some piece of chocolate and two biscuits? the table was seriously decimated though. I wanted a sausage roll. Why were there no dinky sandwiches? I could have gone for some of them. So because I didn't really have anything to eat I ate the packet of starburst fruit lollies because I had anticipated not really getting anything to eat. Yay whoo me. I could always have brought a sandwich instead but you know whatever.

Random stuff: Today I heard Muse on the radio for the second time? But. The first time, I heard it for a second, it was you know a sort of intro for a person so it was like a few seconds before fading out. It was Starlight. And today it was for that 28th March lights out thing and it was in the background and it was Starlight. Hahaha lol singles
also I had a really cool yet kinda freaky dream (am I freaking you out Bret? Is this a freaky dream?)
WHAT'S THIS I HEAR ABOUT A FOTC MOVIE
WHAT
NO
ALSO FOTC SEASON TWO IS OFFICIALLY OVER IN ~*~THE STATES~*~
that's sad.
Anyway my dream.
Yeah another dream post stfu.
So I was out in my backyard with lots of random people and it was... well, I do believe the correct word is twilight. Shudder. Something like that. Anyway it was fairly light but definitely dim. Anyway, I looked to the right and saw a planet. So you know those pictures, where there are really close up images of planets? Here's a picture.


pretty! So it was like that. But you could sort of see it a lot clearer. Anyway, I believe that planet was the blue one with the spot on it. Is that Neptune? I'm not sure. So that was there. But then someone was like look! And I looked over my house and there was a MASSIVE planet. You could see the whole thing, anyway it was huge. I don't think it was any particular planet though. Then we looked back over by Neptune and in the distance you could see all the other planets. I think saturn had a whole bunch of little mini discs floating around it. No not like the actual rings but little circles... I don't know. And Pluto seemed to be a bright blue star. Then I looked over way to the left and there were all these stars, and they were sort of super pretty. And purplish. And I think I wanted to say this to my ma but maybe I did and maybe I didn't, I don't remember but it reminded me of a Muse poster I was thinking. This one.


Hahahaha.

Then the small planets started looking like cells with chromosomes and dna in them and I got a bit freaked out. Then it switched to some sort of freaky Kahunui thing that I didn't like (except it looked nothing like it and looked like a jungle and I think I have had a similar dream before.)

Okay well that's all I shouldn't talk about dreams but that one was particularly cool.

Small Chiseled Man

This place should have a better search engine. Such as letting you find people by age, and multiple interests and whatnot. YA KNOW? It seems hard to find random people here. That are your age. Hahaha

By the way, today kind of sucked a fair amount.
I got a lot more of that piece finished! Le prof a dit (is that right? no I don't think so... du or something? maybe it's le prof a du. AAH whatevs) that we could have until Saturday at midnight. Hahahah. Whoo I guess I have to do that then. Also probably going to Lucy's on Saturday. Whoo?
Man this is a semi-busy time, is it nearly holidays yet? Answer: not quite!
I shouldn't want it to be the holidays though. That's bad, apparently. Also... woah distracted by a cool music video. Evolution by Pearl Jam. It's cool, it's all cartoony. Yeah anyway also I don't want it to go fast.

Woah this is a cool music vid, it seems like the sort of thing Tash would like. Lols. (yeah it's violent and historical and anime-ish)
Well whatever! Can I have lots of money so I don't have to go to school please. I have this super dream of this awesome form of Home Schooling But Not Really, but I wont go there right now because it's 11.00 and I am really quite tired and always stay up late on- WHOAH HEY FLYING CAR GUYS it FLIES. OH PFTTT okay FINE it's not a flying car it's a ~*~roadable aircraft~*~ OH DEARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR THE NEWS JUST FAILED
OHHHHHHHH CRINGE CRINGE THAT WAS AWFUL
cut to thing about flight of the conchords, and on One news they spelt Jemaine's name wrong. HAHAHAHAH IT WAS MORE EPIC FAIL

Okay anyway yeah, I always stay up late on Friday, however! I feel tired and it's 11.00 and usually I'm tired but I go to bed at 11.30 and am different tired. ANYWAY. sleep in whoo!!!!

Kate Mc: Bringing you news updates round the clock, so you don't have to experience the awfulness!

Kay that's all.

Also: WHY must everyone EVER use business time when talking about fotc? GOD, IT'S LAME ARSE.
I laugh at new zealand jumping on the fotc bandwagon. (okay shut up, I definitely didn't get in to them in like ~*~1993~*~, I was friggen born then) BUT I am NOT A BANDWAGON JUMPER AND SO I LAUGH AT TVNZ. I LAUGH AT YOU. Also, it's more lulzy because, tvnz rejected them, and now it's them who are jumping on the bandwagon, in other words basically ALL THE SIX TV CHANNELS!!! hahaha lol I kid, I kid. But you know you are a true fan when you read fanfiction about them. Not that I do that. (COME ON YOU GUYS IT'S PRACTICALLY CANON)

YOU KNOW, WHATEVER

SERIOUSLY, WHO CARES THAT I HAVE A 600 WORD OPINION PIECE DUE TOMORROW

because anyway actually none of my class have done it really
today in class we were all like "aaah I don't know what to write I HAVEN'T WRITTEN ANYTHING" aaaand that was basically the whole class. So at least I'm not alone. I HAVE WRITTEN A SMALL PARAGRAPH THOUGH. Okay so 600 words= not much but THIS IS BIZARRELY DIFFICULT TO WRITE ABOUT even though everyone else has different subjects... it's just odd. Anyway I'mma try slowly pan it out, once I get going it will hopefully turn in to an incoherent mess of angry opinionated ramblings and I can say "it's just a draft copy!!!"

ALSO ON TUESDAY I HAVE A TRIGONOMETRY INTERNAL AND I FEEL OKAY ABOUT THAT, only problem is, that if you get you know one or more questions wrong (is it one question? or two? idk) THEN YOU FAIL WOAH and I'm worried because trig is one of those suspiciously easy things, however I have gotten one or two questions wrong and I am TERRIFIED THAT WILL HAPPEN AAAAAH AAAAAH
anyway after tuesday it will be all good. Because it will.
And despite the writing thing I am looking forward to tomorrow. Hoorah etc

Il est froid.

You guys
it is
SO-
SO COLD.
It's... the ninth day in to autumn? And it's this cold?
CURSE YOU AUCKLAND WEATHER
curse you weather in general
I hate winter so much
the upside is storms but we don't have enough of those
the minus one thousand degrees? No.
NO. Nononononononononono
I will rock backwards and forth surrounded by sleeping bags, blankets, tissues and hot chocolate for the duration of winter.
Well I'd like to.
Today was weird, going home an old person had gone the wrong way down a road and the car was just there, and they were just staring ahead, and someone fainted or something in assembly? Which was weird because it was like "BODY GOING DOWN" creepy deathlikeness
anyway it was all rather weird
Anyway it's SO COLD
I am really annoyed about that.
Be warmer tomorrow please or I will be having serious issues.

Shit

God, what the fuck-ever.

Okay that's my swearing quota used up for the year.

It's fairly obvious how my day was. *looks up at title)
yeah, I bashed my foot, hardcore. I could barely walk.
I forgot my lunch (yesterday I forgot my p.e gear) and I had a sucky lunch and two icy thingies, most of which fell on the ground
I got complained to about NCEA
I didn't go to tennis because of foot

Anyway that seems like not much sucky stuff but it was lamer than your face when it's been smashed to a pulp. Or alternatively lamer than my foot.
And I am feeling all angry about stuff, you know "moral high ground" stuff okay I don't think moral high grounds have anything to do with it really, but annoying stuff that angers me, such as myself ignoring said things because of stuff.
If that made sense, you win a prize, ahahah. (theprizeisaslapintheface)
In cheerful delightful news, yaay I love flight of the conchords again. I missed them muchly. Hoorah.
WOAH NEWSFLASH
okay just learned conchords ep 6 is up, BRB DOWNLOADING
that's honestly the single best thing that happened today. Although there were some good things such as that horrendous poem Lucy read us, writing in the morning "WEB OF SEXY LIES!" and english where we paid no attention whatsoever and got twink on Jordan's copy of romeo and juliet which was absurdly funny for some reason. Hahahah seriously it was so great
anyway it's all good because apparently Bret and Jemaine wear sweatervests and play tennis in this next episode and apparently the ending is sad making but HEY I DON'T CARE, SWEATERVESTS YOU GUYS
Hahah, and lol at the breaking news
WHAT
WHAT HAHAHAHAHA
seriously. that's well messed up jesus christ on a bicycle
hahah

okay that's all I feel much better now and so does my foot. Not by much but still.

YOU KNOW THAT I DON'T WANT YOUUUUUUUUU AND I NEVER DIIIIIID I DON'T WANT YOUUUUUUUUUUUU AND I NEVER WILLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

Apologies beforehand if this makes no sense okay
SO like, I had a pretty great train of thought last night so I wrote down basic points so I could rewrite it in writing... form so that people can read about my fascinating thoughts... I know that's a lot of you. =D
Firstly headphones!!!! I totally want to get some good headphones, so so so I want to get some sennheiser HD 202 headphones... OOH and well they look weird in the picture, I mean they seem to have sticky out plastic bits but I don't think they actually do. They have a long cord and seem pretty good for $27... and the Sennheiser 800's are $1,400!!!! that's totally insane you guys.
Also ediblestars deleted her livejournal AGAIN, what is up with that please restore it within 30 days or I will be MIGHTY UPSET!!!!

So, STUFF!!! (ALSO I am still insanely obsessed with Muse, also Alice you did not come visit us at lunch time, also I suck at piano, also Muse are kind of amazing)
Also I am using Last.Fm again!!!! SCROBBLING IS FUN even if no one looks at your page. FUN! although I haven't used it in a year so it's got lots of weird stuff on it that I no longer have... it's a little messy. Tsk tsk!!! Maybe I'll just delete all the artists there and put them on again. But that will take ages. Anyway I'm rambling, let's go!!! ahaha that sounded stupid.
ANYWAY!!!! So this starts with a happenstance where a friend Jordan (she is weird in a weird way) anyway so I used to like a bit of anime and was kind of a fan of stuff, basically just Naruto, hahah and Death note. in fact death note is the only manga I have read right through. I just gave up on Naruto, it's not particularly interesting, Chuuning exams were best, everything else is kinda lame compared to that. Also: NOSTALGIA!!! Anyway... so I had this small naruto badge on one of my bags that I was using for the day, I had bought it once and put it on my bag and left it there. Anyway she's all like, "srsly?" with this sort of smug superior look "srsly? I mean really? pfftt" sort of thing and I was like "hey, I don't like it any more, I just left it there" and it was annoying.
I also have a death note pencil case. Hahahah okay yeah weird I know but I needed a pencil case and I thought it was pretty cool. And it IS pretty cool. I am HARDLY a weeaboo you guys
Anyway she's in my english class and so she noticed my pencil case and was like "seriously?" again and she didn't say much but she was just emanating "ooh look at me I'm so much better than you for snubbing your pencil case I mean srsly how lame pfffft how immature" and it kind of srsly infuriated me.

PARAGRAPH BREAK!!

It's this whole, "holier than thou" complex thing. Look, if you don't like something, You instantly think you're better than the people who like it. DON'T TRY AND DENY THIS YOU GUYS YOU ALL THINK THIS ABOUT SOMETHING
and this is because you are noticing the shortcomings of said thing, so you think you're better for knowing it's bad and not worth your time and that people who like it are not that intelligent or you "lose respect for them" as all those fandom secrets say.
Firstly, it's stupid to think that all anime/manga is bad. I mean, there's this weird thing around it and I know a lot of people think that, basically anime is like this loser immature thing... etc etc. First off, not all anime is the same so if you are going to judge your opinion on all japanese media and culture from one thing that's really rather pathetic. Look, LEAVE ANIME ALONE!!!!! SHE'S A HUMAN BEING!!!!
anyway I'm not defending anime, I'm saying that by
"matter of taste"
matter of taste does NOT mean, you have good taste or bad taste.
Taste is what things YOU like, what YOU enjoy, no matter how bad the special effects, or writing, or how many creepy mary sue stalker vampires are in it.
So yeah when people are all like "HI IM MRS SALLY CULLEN I LOVE EDWARD" then yeah you can think... okay step AWAY from the books my friend!!! But look, just don't be judgemental? LET'S ALL LIVE IN HARMONY YOU GUYS
Anyway I think that's the best I can get my message across on that. hahaha (also our english teacher totally likes doctor who, we were all like, "WHOO" as we randomly chatted about it. Good times, good times!)

So actually I'm not finished talking about this. hahaha anyway no one is RIGHT. bascially. And this happens a lot with music in particular, I mean people think they're better than others becaue they go "pfft go listen to real music!" well all music is music no matter how much you dislike it or how rubbish it is. Hahaha "real music" is not classical and jazz you people who claim to be all high and mighty as you "diss" new music. I'm not good at making a point, am I. Anyway! Also like a while ago I was watching fall out boy vids (yeah I shall use them as an example obvs) and there were like stupid comments like ENJOY YOUR MUSIC MINDLESS DRONES!!! and pfft YOU ARE ALL SHEEP FOLLOWING A CROWD!!!
and I thought that was kinda pathetic because they are assuming all fans of fob found out about it the same way... look I just stole a whole bunch of music off Alice, fob was on there I had never heard of them before, (same with muse, my fave song is Supermassive Black Hole, of course the problem with bands that I like is that I love so many songs it's hard to choose a fave and I love like ALL OF THEIR SONGS OKAY EVERY SINGLE ONE EVEN THOUGH I DON'T KNOW A LOT OF THEM YET but Imma go with supermassive black hole because it's the first I heard and just amazing okay

okay
so... anyway yeah people might assume that it's my fave song b/c of twilight, see, JUDGING!!!! I hate twilight. Friggin twilight. I liked smbh way before the movie came out... jeez. So anyway, yeah fall out boy. hahaha so loads of people hate them and well okay... but I think it's lame that people will actually actively hate against a band for pathetic reasons and post angry comments about how much they suck. I mean that's just lame. Look, the only music people I hate against (if you can call them that) is miley cyrus and the jonas brothers but even I don't go on youtube pages and write LOL THEY SUX because seriously it ain't going to make them disappear. hahaha, it would just make the fans angry and okay, okay. Maybe I'm too sensitive because whenever something I like gets critisized I do get upset and worried and worry that they might not actually be as good as I think they are (there's that whole, people who don't like it are better than me and are right thing)
and I know that's stupid so maybe other people can handle criticism better and I should stop worrying. ahahaha.
Also, this tends to happen more when I care more about the band, so when I know all their names and all their songs off by heart or whatever, I'm more susceptible to being upset about it. Hahaha. I mean I still don't know all the dudes in The Killers, firstly they have confusing names and I don't know names to faces, just Brandon Flowers, TYPICAL!!! curse dem frontmen.
And also I want to see the killers but a)99 dollars and b) apparently standing tickets are sold out? I don't wanna stand. It's probably not that bad though I saw Split Enz in seats but they were kinda far away it would have been better if we had been closer, although standing area had seats too I believe, I mean you could hardly call that a mosh pit (old people you guys, the whole band has pure white hair it's actually kind of fantastic)
And also when I saw them I saw phoenix foundation and and they are friends with Taika Waititi (how do you spell his last name) who is friends with bret'n'jemaine ahaha and yeah there was a writers block of it on lj... who is cuter out of both anyway some people thought they were ugly. WHAT
srsly you guys they are totally un ugly. THey aren't vampire beautiful and that's why it's good because srsly you guys vampire pretty is boring. Flawless skin, all that dumb stuff? COME ON YOU GUYS
also there are these bio-oil ads and I HATE THEM

I HATE THEM SO MUCH
LIKE THERE'S ONE, THAT I HATE!!! It's like, "when you have scars, you feel like less of a woman. You tend to live less."
and then she does this dumb little body-wiggle and it's so stupid and the whole ad is stupid, stupid, stupid!!! OH NOES, SCARS!!!! YEAH I HAVE A SMALL SCAR ON MY ARM I'M SO EMBARRASSED I HIDE INSIDE ALL DAY okay I know they must be talking larger scars but get real you guys, way to promote having to have flawless skin to be ~*~beautiful~*~
and also those thin lizzy ads? AAARRRRGGGGHHH WTF IS UP WITH THAT
AND THAT STUPID SONG?!?!?!?!
It's like HAY GUYS THIS SONG REPRESENTS EVERYTHING A GIRL SHOULD BE LOLOLOLOL!!!!!
MAKE UP AND LIKE GOIN TO PARTYS ND LIKE LOOKIN PRTTY AND LYK BOYS ARE COOL LOLOLOL!!!!!!

But, I hate just about every advertisement in existence so I won't go on about that. hahaha

And also I thought that the House episode was pretty cool, what with the hostage guy and my dad was all like "pfft what a load of twaddle" and well my dad hates everything but you know tv shouldn't have to be realistic... THAT'S THE WHOLE POINT AMIRITE?
I mean if everything was exactly like the real world people it would just be boring. You should be open to weird stupid stuff happening... yes a dude taking a hospital hostage is unlikely but that's the whole point, showing unlikely things happening... of course because it's tv this happens a lot. But srsly don't be so close minded hahaha
also it's technically an alternate universe, I mean House has Blackadder on his tivo, that would be somewhat confusing amirite?

Okay I'm done talking.
I could go on but I think I've talked enough and I have probably made so many mistakes in this ahahahahahahhur. Okay goodbye see you.
Song: Blackout, Muse (okay I wont have every song as muse but I would love to, you guys)
So, if this made no sense and was just tiring to read: I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.